Hey guys! thanks for the reviews! anyway this chap was suggested and well the reviewers wanted to know what happens and Sesshomaru's side of the story. well here it is!
…A Dying Love- Part 2…
I despise you even when you're not there when I wake. Your scent makes me sick to the point where I have to get out of my own house. Your weakness annoys me, slapping me in the face every moment, taunting me.
"That's what you get for marrying a weakling. A human- filthy human" it says and my hatred grows.
I drink liquor, drowning my self till there is no turning back. I go to her; she knows just the way to make me happy. I come home only to see you waiting. Your very sight blinds my eyes. You took away my happiness and yet you still take, never stopping.
I hate you for that. Your looks, your voice, your everything leaves me unsatisfied.
"What is it Sesshomaru? Tell me. Is there something wrong?"
Always demanding, not once did you shut up. You drive me so mad, I swear I can hear the news headlines the next day saying how the great Taiyoukai is admitted in a mental institute.
That's why I go to her because she never asks for anything. She takes what I give without complaints and gives back fully.
Yes it was the sex, the pleasure, the drinks. She became my sun where you became nothing.
My hate grew and still grows every passing second, minutes, days and on and on.
"How can you do this to me?"
You say as if you're the only one hurt, you're the only one who feels the pain. Did you ever think of me? How you made me feel. The way you look at me with those pitiful eyes makes my blood boil.
Your every word makes me snap, your every move makes me strike you and that makes me whole. I feel complete. The rest of the night I stay with her because she's the one who calms me, who makes me feel wanted.
After the hot sex I came home to find you lying on my bed. Pale, unmoving. I step closer as the anger seeps in and notice the pool of blood; your blood.
My eyes bleed red. You stained my white sheets. You could never do anything right. That's why I hated you so much.
I hate you because you made me feel things I shouldn't feel.
I hate you because your smile scares me. It made me feel I'm not good enough.
I hate you because every time I see you, I want to come back and hold you.
I hate you because your very existing is to throw me into hell at the very ends of my days.
And now I have never felt so much anger in my life.
You lie still as I shake you, trying to make you open your eyes. I drop next to you, gathering you in my arms as I feel my own tears fall down my face.
I realize my own stupidity. I felt I wasn't good for you, that you deserved better that I tried to push you away. And look, I've succeeded. I've pushed you away till the point you felt the need to die.
My hand inches towards Tenseiga but I take control. Even if I revive you I know I won't change. No, never to you. You're too good for me and I'll always feel less.
And i hate my self for you letting you go, for letting you leave me...
"I love you so much" I whisper as my heart yearns for you to reply the exact same words.
well what ya think? i don't think i did that well though... but yeah.
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