Hi my dear readers!
(Or whoever is reading this...)
Finally the second chapter of my story!
Its way longer then the first, but that has to do with my story cutting,
I don't go after length, I go after scene...
Well, anyway, here you'll get to read a bit more about Kazu's emotion change and that whole stuff, I hope you'll like it...
don't know what else to say, so...
Enjoy!
BTW, if you are interested I will add my music list as well, all the songs I listened to while writing this or which inspired me for special scenes^^
For Chapter 1: "Kick it up" -Digimon Soundtracks (yeah, I know, but the song is cool)
For chapter 2: "Hear skipped a beat" - Stanfour
"Chain"- Air Gear (acoustic version)
"Tangled up in me"- Skye Sweetnam
"Love confusion"- Brogan Burnside ft. Christian Beadles
"Hot in herre"- Nelly (Not Nelly Furtado)
"Temperature"- Sean Paul (for the dance scenes)
I got more songs I listened to, but they will be posted in the later chapters...that is,
if you are interested.
Disclaimer: I do not own Air Gear or any characters of it...sadly
And now, two years later, nothing had changed. It had taken Kazu a while to get used to it, as it didn't happen every day you feel in love with your best friend, on top of that male. It had thrown the blonde into a deep identity crisis, giving him countless sleepless nights in which he had paced around his room and felt like banging his head against the wall in desperation. Was he really gay now? Why hadn't he felt like that before? Why did he fell, if he had to be gay, out of all people in love with Ikki? Wasn't it completely- well, wrong and terrible to love your best friend? Would it change everything? What was he supposed to do now? Those questions had kept echoing through his head again and again until he could barely bear it any longer and thought he would go mad.
He had tried to forget them, really, to block them out with his will, but he had failed miserably. He had tried to only look at girls, forcing himself to stare at them when he was in the city or where ever he saw them. He forced himself to scan their appearance, every detail, their hair, their face, their bodies, if they had big or small breasts, the form of their lips, their make up, their behavior, their eyes, the way they styled their clothes, trying to find one which would interest him. With a few ones he even went on a date which usually started smoothly and ended up terrible, not that she would slap him or stuff like that, but every time he ended up thinking off Ikki.
The girl's blabbering would go silent, their faces would morph into his, red, brown or blonde styled hair becoming short, black and spiky, with those brown sparkling eyes and those full lips he couldn't help but stare at and wonder how it would feel like to kiss them, all placed in a well formed face he knew so good. Some of the girls were even still interested in him after the first date, but he never called them back for a second one, even not that really pretty one with a nice body who obviously fell in love with him, although he couldn't explain why when he had been dreaming of a guy while she had talked to him.
Even with not getting a girlfriend he had tried to get his mind off his best friend, choosing as the next option to watch porn. A lot. And magazines. He got everything from Onigiri who had tons of that perverted stuff and had locked himself up in his room, staring at the bright TV screen while he tried to get off over the naked women writhing over and under each other or body builder guys, but it had never really worked. Sure, they were hot, with perfect bodies, big breasts and nice asses, showing everything they got in amazing ways and positions he hadn't even known that existed, but every time he watched them they would turn into the black haired, lightly tanned skin, a probably damn hot slim and muscular body ( he had never really seen it from close), visibly male and so turning on, no matter how hard he tried to suppress those pictures. It was for crying out loud enough to go up the wall, making him nearly freak out because he couldn't accept that he felt drawn to a male, even with knowing he had a fucking dick as well and no soft curves at all!
But slowly, after many times where he wished he could just wipe out what he felt, he had settled down with his feelings, stopping to resist, reluctantly accepting them to find the reasons why Ikki turned in his eyes from his best friend into the one he loved. He silently watched him during their times when they were together, making sure no one noticed it since he wasn't too keen to let anyone know, he'd die in embarrassment if that ever happened. He paid attention to every detail, may it be yet so small, so unimportant, every gesture Ikki made, whatever he did or said.
He had never felt like that, so nervous and unsure of himself, filled with that burning need, the desire to be close to the raven haired male who had captured his heart without even knowing it. He made his heart beat faster with just a smile, as strange as it seemed to Kazu that a simple expression could cause it. Ikki had been- and still was- his best friend, the person he had known the longest and was the one closest to him, having shared many memories. He was strong, determined and incredible stubborn sometimes, even a tiny bit obnoxious, carefree and sometimes clueless, but that was just how Ikki was. Despite his sometimes ridiculous overconfident acting he could become dangerously serious if one of his friends got threatened and would not hesitate to fight, no matter who the opponent was.
The way he moved, sleek with a hidden strength, speaking of a slim, well muscled body under smooth skin, having not rarely been the object in his wet dreams, his black, spiky hair, always messy, fitting his energetic personality, his dark brown eyes which shone with vividness and wild energy...All of the characteristics of his personality made Kazu feel incredible drawn to him, even more he had felt when they had been younger. Although at that time it had been a different kind of attraction he had felt, not like he now felt. At that time he had simply liked him, admired him although Ikki had bullied him a lot, heck, he still bullied him more or less, but of course not like in their early days, more like you tease someone you respect and like as a friend.
He wanted him, with body and soul, he wanted the black haired storm rider to only look at him, to only touch him, feel him, taste him, hold him, ride with him, being his. It didn't really help that he did not have a girlfriend- or anything remotely similar- and could only take out his frustration with a fast, long and hard AT-ride till he was sweating, nearly exploding with the need to scream out his desperation and after that jerking off, fantasizing about the brown eyed male till he came. He just wanted Ikki to be with him, whether it was in the air with their AT's or in his bed, pressed against each other. Dammit, he was just a normal teenager with his hormones driving him crazy, especially now that only thoughts of Ikki would cause his body to react. He wouldn't even mind to let the black haired male dominate him!
Though lately he started to think different about that, ever since he accidentally read those...well, special manga of his sister, he blamed her for this. It had been one of those nights when he had woken up from a rather fierce dream about Ikki, feeling sweaty and annoyed he had decided to take a shower in the night. There in the bathroom he had stumbled over three manga his sister seemed to have forgotten there- she loved taking a bath while reading her manga. First he thought they were some normal with action or mystery until he took a closer look and noticed that on the cover were two men in loose, revealing clothes holding each other in a rather intimate way, and after a few seconds of hesitating he had grabbed them and started to read.
Luckily he had locked the door, because if his sister would have appeared out of the blue, seeing him with her boy's love manga and a red face he would have died in embarrassment. She would have immediately known everything at the sight of his red face, women intuition was quite scary. He remembered exactly how hot he had felt when he had read them, that was how he actually learned what seme and uke meant and how two guys had sex with each other ( it were quite explicit manga, showing every detail and nearly making him hyperventilate). They explained him that semes were the dominant ones, the 'toppers' in a relationship, usually portrayed as muscular, manly with often dark hair while the ukes mostly were smaller, more girly and blonde.
Did that make him an uke then? He was sure he didn't look very feminine, seeing that some girls- and to his dislike Emiri as well- seemed to like him and his appearance...But, did the seme really always look like that? Was he really always the more 'dominant' one? Was Ikki even dominant when it came to...well, sex? Since that his desire had been even stronger, the curiosity tingled in his body like a never ending itch. He wanted to throw Ikki down, on the floor, on the bed or wherever, he wanted to see how the black haired storm rider would look like when he submitted, to see that stormy wild male moan under him, letting Kazu dominate him and submit completely, he wanted to make him helpless, to make him scream his name, to see those dark brown eyes glaze over in lust, with his face flushed and those full lips swollen, begging him to fuck him.
There was just one big, no, two big problems: Ikki was not gay. Not even the slightest. And even with the absolutely impossible, tiny chance of him becoming gay he would never fall in love with his best friend Kazu he had known since childhood. Sometimes wishes were just doomed to never come true, at least Kazu thought so. Two years passed by since that rainy day he fell in love with his best friend Ikki who had no clue, watching him with a piercing pain in his heart, never getting weaker, being close to him but never able to touch him the way he wanted, to tell him that he loved him. Heaven had really cursed him, it was impossible that there would ever come a chance for him to tell Ikki how he felt, that he would also develop feelings for him. It was impossible that Ikki, the overconfident, proud, future storm king and boobies loving guy would fall in love with him, that Kazu would get a chance to show him how he felt for him. It was simply impossible. Or at least the blonde had thought so.
"Happy birthday Kazu! Best wishes to your seventeenth birthday!", Onigiri and Buccha hooted before they slapped his back, making him stumble and nearly fall into his birthday cake his sister had baked for him. "Yeah man, finally seventeen! Happy birthday! Not like becoming eighteen, but at least you grew up a bit!", Ikki grinned and pulled Kazu on his arm up before he could ruin the delicious looking cake. "Oh, shut up Ikki!", the blonde replied and elbowed him, half annoyed half playful. That was something he was happy about, during those two years he grew only a little before shortly his seventeenth birthday his body shot up, making him now as tall as Ikki who had also grown a good part, he could swear he maybe was even bigger then Ikki. The dark haired loved to tease him a lot with how little and small he had been before and how he had finally become a bit more manly, though it was clear in his voice that he never meant it seriously.
Grinning the dark haired dodged his elbow and strolled over to the pile of birthday presents and placed his own next to them, then he grabbed a bottle of beer, taking a gulp he burped hearty, only to get scolded by Ringo and Emiri which made Kazu snicker. They were celebrating his seventeenth birthday at his home and everyone was there, Ikki, Buccha and Onigiri who had his newest girlfriend in his arms, Agito (with Akito of course, too), Ringo, Emiri and Yayoi, his sister had gone into her room to give them some privacy. "Yeah, finally seventeen! Must be a great feeling, right? Though its not as good as turning eighteen", Buccha said before he grabbed a handful of chips and gulped them down with beer.
"You don't know a thing Buccha! Seventeen is a perfect age to get women, they love young, handsome lovers with experience, makes them run wild! Right Nikki?", Onigiri spoke and sent a flirting gaze to his blond girlfriend who giggled and cooed: "Ah, Onigiri, you simply know stuff like that!" Kazu rolled his eyes and popped a chocolate bar out of its wrapper, biting off a bit while Ringo threw a disgusted look at Onigiri, Agito grunted and growled: "Fuck, as expected of the perverted pig, just thinking about stuff like that! Do you have a better opinion, Crow?" The others looked t Ikki who shrugged and said: "What? Beer of course! You're old enough to drink everywhere! Of course that was already possible last year, but since we weren't able to celebrate all together...and since I look older then seventeen...". Grinning he pulled out a bottle of whiskey which made the boys cheer.
"Really Ikki, with seventeen you should act a bit more mature!, Ringo sighed head shaking, ignoring the reproachful look the dark haired sent her. "But we are supposed to have fun, especially Kazu! It's his birthday!" "That's right", Emiri agreed and smiled sweetly at the blue eyed who suppressed a sigh before she asked happily: "So, how about we start to open your presents? Or should we start with the birthday cake?" "Well, I think-" "Of course with the presents!", Ikki mixed in and slung his arm around Kazu's shoulder, who twitched but stayed calm. The blonde had become a master of hiding what Ikki made him feel. Though more or less forced master, after the first time he hadn't been able to suppress his strange behavior and blushed Ikki had asked him if he had a fever.
"Sure, I want the presents! I'm really curious what I'll get this year!", the blonde male grinned, perfectly hiding his nervousness of Ikki being so close, not to mention the fierce urge to touch him more. Everybody gathered around the living room desk before they made Kazu throw a cube to decide who's present he would open first( everyone got a number). Which almost ended in a fight between Ikki and Emiri who was the first one while he was the last. Emiri gave him a time stopper which was water proof and green with a track recorder for his AT's and a little diamond shaped pendant which suspiciously looked like a love charm to him, but he didn't said anything.
After that Buccha gave him a pack with AT repair tools and a handbook about how to use them and headphones with flames on them for his mp3-player. Yayoi got him two DVD's with action movies he didn't know yet and were said to be really good ("Can't wait to see them!", Ikki said excited.) Ringo bought him an exciting thriller and a DVD with different AT tricks to practice. Next was a grumbling Agito who gave him a package with brand new AT parts to change the design on his wheels whenever he wanted, and to everyone's surprise a book with the title "Ten dead sure tricks how to get your love interest" ("Fuck, that was Akito's idea, not mine!", Agito hissed with slightly red cheeks while shooting a poisonous glare at Buccha, Onigir and Ikki who snickered loudly).
From Onigiri he then got a present which made him nearly spit out the beer he was just drinking and nearly made him blush, it was a package with three different kind of condoms, an oil which smelt like peaches and vanilla for massaging and other activities and a handbook about sex ("You never know when you need some!", Onigiri grinned with a suggestive eye brow wriggling, "And this book will teach you a lot of useful stuff, believe me! You'll be able to practically anyone come with just one finger!" It was not really necessary to mention what kind of pictures shot through Kazu's mind at that sentence, making him nearly burn up in both heat and embarrassment.) Last was Ikki who handed over his present wrapped in blue paper with a silver ribbon, having an excited grin on his lips ("I bet Ringo wrapped that up for you, it looks way too neat to be made by you!" "Shut up Onigiri!").
Inside were two pieces of clothes, a shirt and a jacket, the shirt was blood red while the jacket was black, both had a complicated, fascinating, intricate pattern with a single wing in it's middle right on the left shoulder blade. "You like it?", the black haired asked half curiously, half tensed, watching Kazu with his dark brown eyes. The blonde smiled and nodded, both fascinated and mesmerized with the pattern on the cloth he traced it with his fingers, looking up he grinned: "Yeah, it's cool!" "Fuck, what a surprise, and here I thought it would be something horrible with your taste", the shark boy mocked while Onigiri added: "Where did you get this?" "I made it, why?" Seven pairs of eyes stared at him baffled and he quickly added with an annoyed glare: "I didn't sew them or anything, but I did the pattern and the design of the clothes, including that wing pattern-" "You created that?", Kazu asked surprised.
"Yeah, of course! Why are you all looking like that at me?" "Probably because no one thought you could be creative". "Shut up perverted pig!" The blonde male was still surprised. Ikki did that? He didn't know the brown eyed male could do stuff like that...his thoughts were interrupted by Ikki's voice which said: "I do have the same shirt and jacket, look!" He pulled out another t-shirt and jacket from his bag which were the exactly same, the only difference was that his shirt was a dark blue. "We'll be in partner look!", the dark haired grinned broadly, obviously satisfied with his present. Kazu's eyes widened at the image and he had to smile, not able to suppress the warm feeling swelling up in his heart. This present showed him that their friendship was important to Ikki, and although it was anything but a confession it still made him happy.
To this he got a new CD from his favorite band, again feeling happy, and a little book about "Cool cooking", which surprised the others ("What? Didn't you know?", Ikki asked surprised, "Kazu can cook damn good, he sometimes makes bentos for him and me". "Ikki, you shouldn't have said that, its embarrassing!" "I think being able to cook is good." "Yeah, plus girls love men who can cook good! Plus, just imagine what you could do with them in the kitchen, having them on the desk while you touch them all over and-" "Fucking shut your mouth, I don't want to hear your kitchen fantasies!" ) After they had unwrapped every present they started eating the cake which almost ended in a cake war, only being stopped by Kazu's sister who, being alarmed by the noise downstairs, threatened if even one threw a piece or crumb of cake she would let that unfortunate victim clean the toilet with a tooth brush, making the boys shudder in disgust and fear.
Next came games of course, first started with a of poker, normal poker because the girls refused to play strip poker, then spin the bottle where the loser had to take a tiny gulp from the whiskey (which really was a kind of punishment since no one, not even Ikki who had acted so bold, was able to take even a bit of the strong, burning liquid without coughing and twisting his/ her face, not that the taste was that terrible, but still...) and had to do stupid things. Amongst other things the black haired male forced Agito to hop around the room on one leg while singing "I'm too sexy for my shirt", making the guys almost die in laughter while the girls had a hard time suppressing their giggles. The next game was twister, Onigiri almost got squashed by Buccha who got pushed by Kazu on accident because Ikki had poked him into his ribs, Ringo and Emiri laughed at the cute sight of Agito and Yayoi tangled into each other's legs and arms, playing it for half an hour.
The following game was everyone against everyone in Tekken in involuntarily order, just how they wanted to fight. Onigiri lost against Buccha, with purpose Kazu thought to suck his girlfriend's face, Yaoi won against Emiri and fought with Buccha, who lost and decided to cheer for her, but she lost against Ringo in the next round. She fought against Ikki and lost, after her Agito tried to beat Kazu but failed, growling that he could beat 'beanie head' in a real fight with no problems. In the end the final match was Kazu against Ikki, which the blonde won with no problems at all, after his defeat the dark haired sulked around and tried to comfort his pride with a gulp of whiskey but ended up coughing and cursing, which Kazu found very cute, the way Ikki pouted with those full lips and his face set into a very childlike frown.
They played for two hours or maybe a bit longer, Kazu wasn't really sure because they had all become more and more drunk, not to the point they would stagger around and fall down to vomit but enough to make them quite giddy, making one joke after another. Then someone, maybe it had been Onigiri, suggested that they should all go to the disco together. The blonde didn't really like places which were that crowded and stuffed with crazy people, his slight dislike must had been visible on his face because Ikki slung his arm around his shoulders and begged him to say yes, and one look into those brown eyes and the blonde could only say yes. So the whole group took off to one of the popular discos in the city called "Blue Moon" and maybe they wouldn't have gotten in with everybody, even Ringo, being slightly too hyper, but luckily Onigiri's girlfriend knew the bouncer and after saying that Kazu had his birthday they came in with no problem.
Loud dance music blasted inside and the big place was filled with twitching, dancing people laughing, having fun and making party, the air was filled with the smell of sweat, heat, alcohol, energy and sex while the twitching light threw blue, red and other colors on the scene. They squeezed through the crowd to the bar, Agito immediately getting hit on, first by two girls who squealed at his sight, then by one guy who thought he was a girl, nearly getting killed by the shark boy while the others howled with laughter. Before anything serious could happen the angry blue haired was pulled to the others by Yayoi and calmed down visible at her side. "Come on, let's try out some of these cocktails!", Ikki yelled over the noise in the disco and leaned over the bar to order several different ones, after receiving them he shoved a green colored into Kazu's hand and took a gulp of a red colored, both males gasping at the sharp taste of strong alcohol inside.
The others laughed at them and took the other cocktails, Agito suspiciously stared at his own blue colored drink which made Yayoi smile, the two started to talk quietly and content while Onigiri was busy flirting shamelessly with his girlfriend, who giggled and nearly dropped her pink colored cocktail. Buccha took a long gulp from a yellow drink before he laughed about a joke Ringo said, together with Emiri they howled in laughter. / Maybe /, Kazu thought lazy and relaxed, / Maybe going to the disco wasn't such a bad idea.../. Right at this moment someone squeaked: "Crow-kun!", and threw himself at Ikki who nearly dropped the glass he was holding with a curse: 2What the- Simca?" Kazu stared at the person who had flung himself so freely into Ikki's arms and his mood immediately dropped into basement, out of all people he neither appreciated nor liked it had to be her to appear. "Hey Crow-kun! I didn't know you would also come here sometimes!", she happily said and pressed herself against Ikki who seemed pleasantly surprised, but why should he complain when the pink haired girl, clad in a tight, sexy laced top with a really short mini skirt and high heels (not to mention the top allowed a very good look into her luscious cleavage), was practically rubbing her breasts against him so nonchalant. "Uh, well", the dark haired managed to say, "It's because we're celebrating Kazu's birthday, he's seventeen now!"
"Oh, Kazu-kun, really? I haven't seen you before, sorry!", she smiled and came even closer to Ikki, "Happy birthday then!" I hope you had fun so far!" / Yeah, before you appeared ! / the blonde sourly thought, but the pink haired girl didn't even pay attention to him any more, instead she gripped the black haired's arm and sweetly asked: "Hey, wanna dance Crow-kun?" "Sure Simca!" Uhm, you don't mind Kazu, right?", the brown eyed male called, already getting pulled on the dance floor by Simca. "Of course not, man, just go", the blue eyed smiled weakly, watching how Ikki disappeared with her between the dancing people before he ordered another drink and gulped down some of the liquid, a bitter feeling gnawing on his heart. He turned around and looked at the others who hadn't even noticed the scene, Agito was still quietly talking with Yayoi, both looking happy and content, Buccha was still joking with Ringo, Emiri seemed to have disappeared, probably to go the toilet, Onigiri was shoving down his tongue into his girlfriend's throat and practically making out in public.
And Ikki...he stood up a little and stared into the crowd, searching for the two storm riders before he finally spotted them. At the sight of them his heart convulsed painfully and he had to suppress the need to smash the glass he was holding against the wall, a wave of burning, bitter jealousy rolled through his body, pulsing in his veins like acid poison. Ikki and Simca were dancing to "Hot in herre" by Nelly, way too close for the blonde's taste, the pink haired girl pressing her big breasts against the black haired's chest, letting her ass sway while having her hands on his hips, and the longer Kazu saw this the more he had the urge to to throw a chair at her, strangle her and yell at this pink haired bitch to remove her dirty disgusting hands off him, that Ikki was his alone! "Kazuuu-kun!" Right at this moment someone threw himself into his arms, making him nearly fall off his chair, cursing inwardly he turned his gaze, only to be face to face with Emiri who smiled sweetly at him.
Or at least she tried to look seductively while she tried to climb on his lap, failing because she was visible wobbling, her breath brushed Kazu's face and he twitched back, she was really drunk, more then anyone else of them. "Nee, Kazu-kun, wanna dance?", she slurred and tried to shove her hands up his shirt, the blue eyed struggling to stop her, while he got another look at Ikki and Simca, nearly exploding when he saw that Ikki now had his hands on her ass. That was it. That was enough for him. He shoved Emiri off and sat her back to Ringo and Buccha who looked up surprised and, seeing her state, immediately took care of her while he grabbed Onigiri's forgotten cocktail and gulped it down in one swing, banging it down onto the bar he walked onto the dance floor, squeezing through the crowd before he finally found a place with enough space for him and he started, right when a new song began ("Temperature", by Sean Paul). He started to dance.
That was something he would normally never do, at least not alone, under the eyes of so many people, it was too embarrassing, but right now he didn't care, too fired up from the anger, the bitter jealousy and the alcohol covering his mind. Instead of searching for Ikki and Simca and ripping them apart or doing something else stupid he danced, concentrating on the music, the beat, rhythm and sound in his head, pulsing through his body and automatically he started to move in perfect harmony with it, his body remembering it's older dance experiences immediately. That was another secret he had never told anyone, not even Ikki that he could dance. It had been when his sister had another boyfriend, a passionate dancer of hip hop, break dance and that stuff, and as a result she had forced Kazu to take dancing lessons with him in hip hop and break dance, wanting to surprise her boyfriend at their next date. He remembered how embarrassed he had felt, how awkward it had felt to follow the instructor's orders and labor himself from one dance position into the next and how stiff and clumsy he had felt.
But then, to his surprise he had gotten better, slowly but surely, the flow of his dancing got more fluid, smoother and he didn't had to stop after two positions to think what would come next, his body simply knew it. He had actually lost attention what the instructor was telling at one of the last lessons when the music started, instead he had simply started to dance, losing himself in the pull of dancing till the song stopped and he was ripped out of his intoxication. That was when he noticed that everyone, including the instructor, had been staring at him with wide eyes, Kazu feeling his cheeks reddening before everyone started to cheer and clap. The instructor had walked next to him and asked him if he was interested in doing competitions cause he told him he had talent, but he had politely refused, saying school was too much for anything else, he had to almost smile at how disappointed the instructor had looked, like he was about to cry in disappointment.
A month later his sister didn't go out with that dancer anymore, but Kazu still continued to dance secretly, exercising whenever he had time and felt like doing something different from AT's. It gave him a kick, using his body to swirl, jump and sail over the floor without anything else as a help then his own strength, but it was a different kick then from riding, he felt more excited in the air. The music pulsed through his veins hard and fast and he abandoned any thinking, letting the song guide his body, jumping, whirling, twisting into dance positions, with break dance moves he had worked hard to master. He didn't even notice he had spectators, that the people around him had stopped dancing to watch him in admiration until they started to cheer and holler, the guys hooting whenever he did something acrobatic while the girls squealed whenever the music got slower and his hips dipped lower in a sensual way.
Normally he would have stopped immediately with a crowd watching him, too embarrassed to continue, but he didn't care tonight, the alcohol, jealousy and frustration had burned away any hesitating and let him freely dance. He drank in the music, breathing in the heated air, whirling around while dancing and not caring about whoever was watching him until his blue eyes fell on a certain idiot who made his heart beat faster. Standing there was Ikki with Simca on his left who looked slightly annoyed, his dark brown eyes filled with surprise and amazement, fixed on him and watching him dance magnetized. Kazu could feel his breath going faster like his heart, and smiling shortly into the dark haired's direction he continued to dance, unconsciously doing even more complicated and amazing moves, the crowd cheered even louder and he knew hundred pairs of eyes where on him. But right now he only cared about those two brown eyes which meant everything to him, and he danced for him, only for him.
It almost felt like flying, whirling and dancing to the music, his body was flowing, smoothly gliding from one position into the next, he barely noticed that the DJ chose a new song especially for him, only listening to Ikki's voice, his cheering. With one last, final beat the song ended and he stopped, his chest rose and fell fiercely while sweat ran down his back, his t-shirt sticking to his skin and in the next moment the people broke out in an ear deafening cheering. Happiness bubbled up in his chest when he saw Ikki grinning at him with admiration in his eyes and putting up his thump, wiping away the rest of the bitter jealousy and pain in his heart.
"Whoa, that was really something!", Ikki laughed and hiccuped a bit before he took another swing of the whiskey bottle they had been given for free, handing it over to Kazu who grinned idiotically and a bit embarrassed, drinking too. They were walking along the way next to the river, going, or rather staggering home, now completely drunk. The blonde didn't remember much in his blurred mind after his dance, only pieces of memories with Ikki next to him, getting free drinks from several people who had watched him, their friends around him and telling him how cool he had been, drinking more stuff until they finally decided to go home. Ikki had just waved off when Ringo asked if they wanted to go home together, so now they were strolling along the river totally drunk and making one joke after another.
"Man, you were really cool Kazu, you sure rocked the dance floor", the brown eyed storm rider slurred and giggling slung his arm, around Kazu's shoulder, both happily staggering down the way until Ikki suddenly tripped over a stone, and having already problems with his balance, slipped, falling down and rolling off the way down until he was stopped on the grass on the hillside. Kazu convulsed with laughter on the way, both howling with giddy laughter. Breathlessly they stopped after a while and the blonde wobbly slid down to help his friend up, but Ikki waved off and stretched out on the grass, pointing his blue eyed friend to do the same who plopped down with a grunt and laid back, ignoring the slightly wetness of the grass.
For a while they just laid there, enjoying the cool air blowing and continuing to drink the rest of the remaining whiskey while making stupid jokes about the evening. "I didn't know you could dance that good", Ikki hiccuped and laughed at Kazu who accidentally burped and grinned embarrassed, slurring: "Was never important to say, so who cares?" "if you think so...but this was sure f-fun", the dark haired giggled, "Do you remember how that guy looked when I accidentally spilled my drink on his brand new shirt? He looked like he was about to cry!" Both males howled in laughter, their bodies shaking while they rolled around in the grass, after a minute they stopped and Ikki looked up into the sky, excited calling out with a hiccup: "Ka- hic- Kazu, quick, look! A falling star!" "Huh?", was the blonde's little intelligent answer and he looked up as well, his blue eyes widened at the sight of the silver star emitting sparks, ripping over the black sky.
"Quick, you gotta wish for something special", the dark haired slurred and laughed about himself, his dark eyes fixed on the falling stars, "After all this is your birthday!" Kazu stared into the sky, his heart beating faster while his alcohol numbed mind tried to think clearly. A special wish? In the next moment Ikki poked him into his ribs and urged him to wish something already, in an instant the fog in his mind cleared and he knew what he would wish for. Slowly he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. / A wish, huh? I never believed in stuff like that, at least not one fulfilling itself thanks to a falling star...but...if I'm allowed to say one, just one...I know it will probably never come true, but if someone, someone above there hears me...please, I...i want Ikki. I want Ikki to love me, only me, I want him to touch me and m-me touching him, to only look at me...But this will probably never happen be-because...i just want him to notice me, really notice me, just one chance...that he would just once stop and see me, like I see him.../ When he opened his eyes the falling star was gone, only the black sky with it's thousands unmoving stars blinking on it and he sighed, wiping over his face.
/ I'm really stupid.../ "Hey Ikki, let's go home", he murmured and stood up, wobbling dangerously before he helped Ikki up who nodded, stumbling home together. The only thing left behind were the roll marks of their bodies in the slightly wet grass and the bottle of whiskey, it's remaining liquid shining in the star light like the golden tears of a lonely dream.
Cut! This was the whole chapter!
Quite long, but it was okay that way for me...just more work,
but what do we not do for a story...:)
I hope you liked it so far, I changed the chapter a bit from its original form,
adding some details etc. etc...
So, what do you think?
Was it good so far?
The next chapter will bring that surprise I already mentioned,
and I hope you will still read it...some people might not like the change, but I promise it will 'return' to to its state before.
Okay, I expressed that a little weird...whatever,
I just hope you will still continue to read it after reading the third chapter, so...yeah...
Hopefully I'll see you again! :)
Special thanks to ry0, who added this story to her favorites and gave me my first review,
and to DOKU-CHAN, who added my story to her favorite list as well!
I hope you guys will continue to read my story!
your author Kamo-chan
PS: I apologize for my terrible grammar and the spelling mistakes if you spot any more,
I tried to correct as good as possible, but oh well...
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