AN: Hey it only took me 6 months to update, I really want to update sooner than I do. I feel like a failure when I don't, so please remember to be patient with me? Hope your holidays are great and look for another updater on New Years Day!
CHANGES FROM THE SHOW/BOOK:
Kurt and Jeff have been together for over 3 years
It was Finn who died in the car crash
The accident was caused by Montgomery, not Sherry
Kurt is best friends with Zach, Alex, Jessica, Courtney and Sherry
Kurt's friendly with Ryan and Tony but they aren't close
Justin was adopted by the Hummel's years prior to the beginning of the story
Justin is very protective of Kurt
Kurt found Hannah's body with Olivia (HER MOM)
Neither Kurt or Jeff are reasons why Hannah killed herself those who still are will have their crimes be less horrible
Kurt tried to help Hannah and failed
Jeff and Clay are very close
MAKE IT RIGHT (CH.2: Who Was Strong Enough to Survive It)
She was so close, yet the more he tried to reach her the further away she was. It was the worst taunt in the world she was right there and yet he couldn't help her. All he could was watch her fall to the ground and shatter. With a jump Clay was brought back to reality where he lay on Kurt's couch while the other boy rushed back into the room.
"Hey sorry, Jeff just left to get us some dinner. I hope you like Chinese" Kurt said as he sat down across from Clay and handed him some water
"Yeah that's fine, sorry I passed out" He replied to which the other boy simply shrugged it off
"It's been an exhausting day, I get it." Kurt replied and before the two could say anything else the sound of the garage door opening brought their attention to the driveway where Justin's black Lincoln sat next to Kurt's Nissan Pathfinder. It was only seconds later that both Justin and Jessica came walking inside, stopping as soon as they came face to face with Kurt and Clay and within seconds Justin was pouncing.
"What the fuck are you doing here Jensen? You couldn't give him one fucking day before you were harassing him for answers?" Justin demanded as he charged towards Clay only to be stopped by Kurt jumping in front of Clay.
"Justin stop! He didn't do anything, he just came to talk"
"You don't need to be fucking interrogated about this shit, you're upset enough" Justin told his brother while continuing to glare at Clay
"Justin nothing's going to not upset me right now, but Clay's a friend and I would much rather be around my friends then on my own. I need to talk just as much as he does." Kurt explained and with that said Justin sighed deeply before pulling Kurt into a tight hug, the two were in their own world for a few seconds before Justin turned to Clay again and sighed.
"I'm sorry man, he's my brother, I'm always going to have his back you know?" Justin asked, and Clay could only nod before Justin and Jessica sat down next to Kurt, Justin grabbing his brother's hand and locking their fingers
Without words Clay understood, of course Justin would jump to Kurt's defense, he always had just as Kurt had done for him. It was because of Kurt that Justin not only got out of his toxic home but he also gave Justin the best gift anyone could give him. He gave him a family, a real family. He convinced not just his own parents but Justin's mom as well to sign Justin over to the Hummel's so that Burt and Carole could adopt him and give him a better life. He also defended Justin from anyone who dared talk shit about him which no one did, if you did you got not only Kurt but Finn as an enemy which no one wanted. While the adoption made it official, Kurt, Justin and Finn were always brothers. Their connection rivaled biological siblings and it was truly amazing to watch. The day Finn died was the darkest day in the Hummel's lives though through their pain Kurt and Justin grew even closer.
"Have you gotten any sleep?" Jessica asked as she took in Kurt's appearance, mainly his blood shot eyes
"A few minutes, Jeff is going to spend the night tonight, I think having him here will help" Kurt replied as the front door opened again bringing more people into the house in the form of Zach, Sherry, Alex and Courtney
"Hey buddy, I got your assignments for the rest of the week" Courtney said as she handed Kurt a stack of papers before bringing him into another hug
"Thanks Courtney"
"I was thinking of going by Hannah's house and bringing her parents some food, maybe help them with anything they need done." Alex said to which Kurt gave a soft smile
"I'll go with you when you do, they'll appreciate it."
"We'll all go" Justin replied to which everyone agreed before silence filled the room before Courtney broke it with the question everyone was thinking
"How the fuck did this happen? How could we have missed it?" She asked breaking on the last word as tears filled her eyes as Jessica pulled her into a hug
"We're probably never going to have an answer to that question Court, she didn't even leave a note." Kurt replied as Jeff walked inside with several bags before taking in the situation and quickly dropping the bags in the kitchen before pulling his boyfriend into a tight hug
"I should've known." Kurt replied with a sob before Justin joined the hug, followed by each person in the room.
"Baby stop it's not your fault. You know it's not and you know she wouldn't want you doing this to yourself." Jeff whispered
"He's right Kurt, you made her life so much better just by being her friend, you make everything better" Justin continued as Kurt dried his eyes
"Look the next few weeks are going to be fucking awful and the only way we're going to get through this is together, agreed?" The brunette asked immediately getting a yes from each one of them before the group went to the kitchen and ate dinner together before Clay left saying he needed to get home, the others followed Kurt explaining that they were going by the Baker's and that if Clay wanted to come with, he was more than welcome.
It left the usually quiet boy puzzled for only a second before deciding that if he had failed Hannah, he wouldn't fail her parents. He knew leaving them or knowing that they would be the ones to find her must have been the hardest part of her decision. Or did she think at all? What if she only acted, and then realized her mistake but only too late.
"Clay you riding with me, right? I'll drop you off at your house after" Kurt offered as he and Jeff got into the driver and passenger side respectively while Sherry left the back door open as she climbed in and sat in one of the back passenger seats, waiting for Clay as she blushed slightly to which the other boy didn't have time to go that an ounce of thought at the moment as he got in, looking back and seeing Courtney start her own car, Alex by her side and Zach in the back. Another car started in which Justin and Jessica sat waiting for Kurt to move so they could follow.
On the way there, time seemed to still and the only thing that distracted Clay from the fact that he was about to walk into Hannah's home, where she died, where she killed herself was a text message from Tony.
TONY: Are you okay? Call me
To which Clay typed out a quick promise to call later, before Kurt's car was pulling up the driveway Clay knew not well, but well enough. He knew the girl this driveway lead to, he had meant to be her friend and yet he failed her when she needed him most. The guilt was suffocating, and Clay wasn't sure he would ever be rid of it.
"Babe, you're sure you're okay to be here again so soon?" Jeff asked as Kurt froze in his seat for only a minute before pulling Jeff into a light kiss, before giving a watery smile before exiting his car. Jeff stood and stared Justin down both beyond concerned for their boyfriend and brother respectively, fuck Clay was worried about Kurt right now too. He was finally going to terms with losing Finn and getting back to his normal self and then he finds his friend dead in a blood-soaked bath tub.
Not only that Clay had heard that Kurt refused to stop giving CPR even thirty minutes after Hannah was pronounced dead, he was determined to save her only stopping when he was pulled from her body, to which the boy did his best to fight off before he had to be sedated while Olivia held him tight to her body the woman's broken from the loss of her daughter yet still trying to comfort her godchild all the same.
Not long after Kurt and Justin's parents came and hugged Olivia and Andy tightly while Jeff, Jessica and Justin worked together removing Kurt's clothes which were soaked in blood, and then proceeded to give the boy a bath all while Kurt sat in a catatonic state. Of course, Clay had heard all this from Bryce Walker who had always rubbed Clay the wrong way so who knows what was true and what wasn't you never knew with Bryce.
Again, he had seemed to float with the group to the steps, not even realizing the door opened until a voice spoke out to him.
"You worked with Hannah" The older redheaded woman said as she stared through him, seeming to take him in and that unnerved the fuck out of him making him realize he was the only one still on the porch as the others had made it inside.
"Clay, right?" Olivia Baker asked as she led him inside, Kurt not far from the woman's side
"Yes, Mrs. Baker I'm." He froze not knowing what to say but the woman didn't blink as she pulled him into a close hug and whispered
"Thank you for being her friend" Before she pulled away and sat on the couch with Kurt on one side and a pile of photo albums on the other. They had obviously been looked through as there were pictures all over the coffee table showing Hannah at all ages, from a very new baby to the girl he thought he knew just yesterday.
"Kurt honey can you help me sort through these and help me decide which ones capture her best? I of course chose to many." Olivia said with tired eyes
"Of course, Liv, why don't you get some rest I'll get you when dinner is ready" Kurt suggested to which the woman simply nodded before leaving the room, the sound of a bedroom door shutting the only sign that she had made it to her destination.
"Guys you don't all need to be here right now, I'm just looking at pictures and making her dinner while her husband is at the Pharmacy, go home, relax please." Kurt pleaded and though it seemed all his friends wanted to protest the looks Jeff and Justin threw over the brunette's shoulders made it known that they had best do what their told. Kurt gave Jeff his keys and Clay found himself looking back into the car as he stepped out at his friend.
"Jeff, don't let him break" Clay said feeling at first as if he overstepped but the older boy simply nodded
"You know I won't, he's going to get through this Clay. We all are" Jeff said before waving and driving off leaving Clay alone outside his house, on his porch as he hands stretched out before hitting something on next to him. Looking over he found a package addressed to him yet there was no return address. Intrigue caused the boy to rip it open to find two of the most random things ever, a Walkman that had to be over 20 years old and several black tapes with numbers written on them with a sticky note of them with big black letters spelling out a message from the grave.
ANSWERS TO YOUR QUESTIONS – HANNAH
As Clay quickly placed the first tape inside the Walkman, he nor his friends knew the horrors that would be revealed, each one of them contributing to a perfect storm that killed Hannah Baker.
AN: Alright guys there is chapter 2, so I want to get chapter 3 out by New Years so please be patient and check back in then okay?