Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight and/or the characters in the story below. It belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
Hi guys. This is my first fan fiction. I've been reading a lot of it lately and it inspired me to write my own. I hope you enjoy it. Thank you for reading. In this chapter you'll get to see Edward's Point Of View. Once Again, Enjoy (:
Edward Cullen-Baton Rouge, Louisiana
Chapter Two: The Dream
"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen" the announcer said my name with joy and proud. Finally, after years and years of being stuck in school, I'm graduating. Esme was clapping really loud and I think I even saw her tear up a little bit. Carlisle was just looking at me and I saw a smile about to form but I know he was holding it back. Out of now where I saw Bella yelling my name and jumping up and down looking very proud of me. I jumped off the stage and decided to run to her.
What is she doing here? Is that really her? Wow. She looks amazing.
I hugged her and suddenly my throat started to clench. My eyes rolled to the back of my head as I took her smell in. It was very enticing.
I was just turned into a vampire 5 years ago, and I was new to controlling myself. I was able to go to school and 'mingle' with people but I couldn't help myself. I felt the venom pooling in my mouth and I bit her neck.
"ED!" Bella screamed and tried to struggle from my hold.
"ED! NO!"
"No … No… N-"
"Please! STOP! Please…" Her voice drifted.
"BELLAA!"
It was just a dream. Thank god.
I suddenly realized what happened in my dream. I was scared of my own self. I was also sacred for Bella. What If I can't control myself if I ever see her again? I am a monster. I don't even know if it's still worth it seeing Bella. But before saying that, I should probably know where she is, if she's still alive. If her life is going great and well, I'll let her live and be happy. I won't ever disturb her. I'll just always be in the shadows, watching her all the time.
I sat on the bed and thought about the last time I saw her. It seems like it was just yesterday.
-September 13, 2007-
We were walking towards our secret place in the forest where the sun would always shine. She sat on the log and sighed heavily. It was my Bella's 12th birthday today. It was very stunning to see her bloom into a beautiful human being. She was my Bella. She was my bestfriend. She was my everything.
"I just wanted to get away from everybody. I'm sorry. I know you wanted to have fun in that party. I just think that Renee went a little too much. Again." She complained in a high, adorable voice.
"It's okay Bella. I understand. I would've probably done the same." I chuckled.
"I'd rather spend my whole night here with you staring at the stars and wishing for a new doll." She sighed.
"About that Bella, I wanted to give this to you." I handed her a box wrapped in light blue, her favorite color.
She opened the box eagerly and launched herself at me and hugged me as tight as possible.
"THANK YOU ED! I LOVE IT!" She squealed.
Inside the box was a new doll with long blonde hair and a pretty pink dress.
"You didn't have to buy me this Ed. This thing probably costs a lot."
"Don't worry Bells, I saved up for it. Only for you." I assured her.
I hugged her as we continued to stare at the sky. I saw her eyes glistened with joy and that was enough to make myself happy. I couldn't ask for anything more.
I saw her hold tight the other half of the locket I gave her and said, "Watching the stars up above; I dream to see your face." She looked at me and smiled."Worried about you, my heart starts to race." I continued. "Where are you now?" she answered. "I will find you & I'll never give up" I whispered as I held her hand. "Till the end of my days." We both said in unison.
Little did I know that that will be the last time I'll ever see her again.
My vision became blurry and I saw a tear drop on my locket.
"Wherever you are Bella, I will find you. We will see each other again. I promise you that."
I came down to the kitchen and looked to see if anyone was around. I saw Esme preparing some papers. Her happy personality and warm caring and affection welcomed me.
"Good morning Edward!" She smiled as she greeted me.
"Morning, Esme." I answered back with a monotonous voice.
"Your father and I were just-"
"Ahemn. You and Carlisle were what?" I cleared my throat. I never wanted to call him my father. I even shuddered at the thought of him being a father. My father. He ruined my life. He was the reason I was miserable and above all, he took away the most important girl in my life.
Esme frowned at what she heard and she put her hands on my shoulders.
"Edward, please try to be nice to him for once. I don't want you guys having another fight. It's early in the morning. Start the day right. Please?"
I just stared at the wall. I couldn't care less about what she's saying. She's probably just talking me into initiating a conversation with Carlisle or something. That will NEVER happen.
"Edward? Please? Do it for me."
"Anything Esme, just not…that. I'm sorry."
"By the way Esme, my graduation will be on Tuesday."
"Oh, really? Great!" She almost jumped and called Carlisle as he was going down the stairs.
"Oh honey, guess what? Edward is graduating on Tuesday!" She smiled as she hugged him.
Carlisle's face was straight and neutral. No signs and happiness or anything. I sighed.
Of course. Why even bother thinking that at least for once, just for once he'll be proud and happy for you.
I thought you already put that under your 'Impossible Things to Happen' list.
Oh Edward, Edward. You should've known better. Now get ready to come up for a witty come back coz I'm preeeetty damn sure he's gonna have something to say about that.
"Oh really? I thought he'd never be able to graduate high school." He supposedly looked shocked as he grabbed the newspaper on the coffee table.
ALWAYS! YOU ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY. AGHH! I knew it. I FUCKING KNEW IT.
"Oh don't be ridiculous. Edward's the smartest kid I've ever met. He's always had straight A's" Esme gave me a sympathetic look
"If he's so smart, why hasn't he stopped looking for that Bella chick and not waste time thinking about her? He should just use that time to look for a decent college or study more about medicine." He grumbled.
"Because I actually have a friend. I actually know how to love someone." I yelled back at him.
I was on the way to go back upstairs. Obviously going down here was a big mistake. I should've stayed inside my room. I stopped at the bottom of the stairs and looked back at Carlisle and I looked at him with anger and pain in my eyes.
"And about that college shit, I already received 8 college letters and I already applied for the scholarships they were offering me. I don't want to 'bother' you with my tuition fee." I said while making air quotations at the word 'bother.' I know my family was able to pay for my college but I didn't want Carlisle paying for it. He'd just be chewing my ass again mentioning that I owe him for that every single day.
"All I ask is one thing. I want to travel around the world before I start college. I want to get out of this hell for at least one year." I said bitterly.
"Fine with me. I won't have to see you or deal with you for a year." He smiled back at me.
Wow. Unbelievable. My 'father' is such an asshole. SHOCKER.
I walked away and slammed the door behind me. It pained me to see Esme suffering but I just wish she didn't marry him. She deserves a guy better than that. A guy that will treat her right.
I drove down to school with my Volvo and parked at the 2nd row. It was the second to the last day of high school and I'll be leaving Baton Rouge High. Today was the last rehearsal for graduation. Today was pretty much an easy, boring day. The only thing I've been thinking about was her.
Oh the usual. How I wish she was here to see what I've accomplished. I know she would've been so proud of me. I really hope she's still alive. A part of me is saying she is and that she's just somewhere out there. I think this around the world trip would work. I will find you Bella. I will.
Hi guys (:
I'm back. Thank you so much for reading it. There you go. Edward's not in good terms with daddy Carlisle. ): There's a story behind that. Just wait and see (:
I just thought it would be a great twist to see a different Carlisle since we all know him as a loving, kind and great father. Stay tuned for chapter three! Did you like the flashback? There will be lots of flashbacks. What about Edward's idea about going around the world? Will he find Bella? Find Out In... A Week (: I'll be posting the next chapter a week from now. Either Saturday or Sunday. Thank you sooo soo much. See You Soon ^.^ Review this story please! Thank you c: You're the best (x