Chapter 2

Chapter 2

Tommy watched Jude as she walked around. She looked lost looked like she was waiting for someone to find her. He remembers the day when he last saw her. The last day he was actually truly happy. Their wedding day.

Flashback

Tommy waited for Jude to get out of the bathroom. She had been in there for 20 minutes. She was only supposed to be washing her face so what was taking her so long. He got up and walked to the bathrooms to see if she was ok. When he didn't hear anything he walked in to find Jude no where. He searched everywhere for her but no one has seen her. He started to worry. He called the police. He had a bad feeling that this was the last time he would see Jude again.

The police searched for her for over a year until they gave up. They had no luck in finding her but I knew she was not dead. She was just lost and needed help finding her way home. He never gave up hope. He went back to producing and was even thinking about making a solo album but it did not feel right. He always thought Jude would be here to help him with it. They had to put her album on hold. So when she came back they would finish it.

When Chris was finally able to talk he asked him where mommy was. I did not have the heart to tell him she was gone forever. I just told him she was taking a vacation. Sadie was so heartbroken that she even moved out of their apartment. It reminded her so much of Jude she could not stand it. She doesn't even come to my place. She still is apart of Chris life. It is hard to look at him sometimes. He is so much like his mom. He has her fiery personality and her eyes. His eyes are the hardest to look at. Every time I look at them I want to cry because I lost her. But I told myself that I would not give up hope. I will bring her back to us.

Even Darius has yet to give up hope. He hired a private investigator to find her. Every time I am around him I ask if he has heard anything and his reply is always no. Then one day his pi found out some information. It seems she has not even been in Canada the past two years. She was on some island. But now she was back in Canada. He said some other stuff but I didn't hear. I was too busy thinking now we can finally be a family. I left D's office and searched the streets but I did not find her. I did that almost everyday hoping to get one sign of her but it was no use. Damn it Jude where are you.

I had to stop after a while. It was taking away my other priorities that I had to take care of. And that was our son. I was so obsessed with finding Jude that I spent less and less time with him. It was starting to break my heart to know what I was putting him through. I love my son and I need to be the best father I could for him. I would find Jude but it had to come when she was ready for us to find her.

And that day to come when I knocked her down on my way to get coffee. I knew this day would come but I was not prepared for it. And for her not to remember me nearly killed me. What the hell did Mike do to her? I failed Jude; I failed myself, most of all I failed myself. I promised to keep Jude safe and I failed. I had to get my Jude back but how do you do it? I have to work on her trusting me and then get her to remember me. Remember how happy our lives were before Mike ruined them again.

End of Flashback

Tommy was so deep in thought that he did not notice his son running towards Jude. Oh no he recognized her.
Chris: Mommy Mommy.
Jude looked around to see who the little boy was talking to. But no other female was around. Chris wrapped his arms around her legs.
Chris: Mommy you back.
Jude: I am sorry but I don't know you.
Chris had tears in his eyes. Tommy finally caught up to them. He took Chris into his arms.
Tommy: I am sorry about this.
Jude: Why does he think I am his mother?
Tommy: I know this might sound crazy but he is your son.
Jude: I don't have a son.
Tommy: I see you're married.
Jude: Yeah but I don't know who he is.

Man: Jude lets go. Mike is waiting.
Jude: I have to go. Nice seeing you two. Um what are your names?
Tommy: I am Tommy and this is Christopher or Chris for short.
Jude: Ok well bye.
And with that he watched as she walked away from him again. One of these days she will remember and she won't be able to walk away. Chris cried himself to sleep in Tommy's arms. How in the hell was he going to explain this to Chris? He took his son home and started to think of a way to explain this to him.

Jude walked to where the man was standing at. She got in the car and thought about what just happened. I have a son and a husband. I just wish I could remember them. I mean I have some flashes that come to me and when I tell Mike he always tells me to forget about them. Like I had this one dream but it felt so real. I wonder if my life could be better than it is. What if Tommy and Chris are my family? But they don't need me and my problems.

Flashback

My life has been a rollercoaster ride. I can only remember the last two years of my life the most. Everything else seems a blur to me. I have been with Mike for all those years and well I have been addicted to drugs. I have to take these pills Mike says they help me. I don't know exactly with what but I take them. Mike knows what is best for me. He takes care of me. I help him by selling drugs for him and he repays me with drugs.

But sometimes when I see certain things or even touch objects I see like a flashback of what my life may have been. Like I touched a guitar once and I saw me and this guy in a studio. He was behind some board and I was singing. I looked happy and pregnant. When I asked Mike about it he said I was just dreaming. Mike never wants me to bring up my past. I always have this feeling like he is hiding something from me but I am too scared to bring it up. Last time I did let's say it didn't end well.

Jude: Mike tell me about my past.
Mike: Your past is in the past. Now leave it alone.
Jude: Mike please. I want to know.
Mike: What did I say?
Mike rose with anger written all over his face. He stood in front of me and raised his hand and struck me. I fell to the ground from the impact of his hand colliding with my face. It was not the first time that has happened but I knew that was one thing not to say to him.

End of Flashback

I want to know what my life was before I got dragged down this path. Selling drugs, taking drugs, and so many other things that I am to ashamed to mention. Maybe I should find Tommy. I hope he can help me remember who I truly am. Because the person I see everyday is not a happy person. I want to be happy. I want my husband and kid. I hope Tommy and Chris are them