A/N: Sorry for my really late update! Though people probably forgot about this story... Not gonna blame ya, if you do. Haha, I sorta forgot about this story too! lol
Uh, this chapter will probably be unrealistic and dramatic...so yeah.... No scratch that, it probably is.
A big thank you to those who reviewed so far! Special thanks to my beta-readers: Dakotah (from school) and OnigiRimi
Disclaimer: No I don't own vocaloids.
Len's POV:
I stood there; my mouth gaped open, while my eyes mimicked that of dinner plates. Could this be the same Rin? The same Rin that would greet me with all the sun shining in her smile? A smile I would see every morning. The same Rin that was so silly that her response would be 'I tripped on air, okay!' The cheerful, childish, innocent Rin would have never said things like this. What happened to her? Why has Rin been so distant with me?
The continuous silence thundered until I couldn't bear it.
Getting the courage to ask the question that had been running around in my head, "Why have you been so distant from me…?"
I gazed up seeing that she shifted herself from one leg to another in great pain.
"…Len…" her voice was icy, numbing my heart down to the core. "Just leave me alone."
Why won't she talk to me? Was…was she mad at me? "Rin, why can't you answer my question?"
"…Why is it important to you if I do answer you? It wouldn't change anything… You know that don't yo-"
Interrupting her, my voice quivered, "You're mad at me, aren't you Rin? You hate me, don't you?" My voice rose unintentionally. "We used to be so close to each other! And now, you won't even look at me!"
Rin slowly turned around, continuing to look at the ground. The bruises were now staring at me, showing more marks than I had thought. I glanced towards her wrist as she scratched it, her sweater riding up. My eyes widened when I had noticed it was bandaged. A crimson tint had soaked up part of the bandaged wrist, and it seemed to have formed into a shape of a cut. She…she couldn't have…
She slowly looked up, her piercing aquamarine eyes tore my heart. They were empty. Cold and distant.
"…No, I'm not mad at you Len. Nor do I hate you…I just hate what you did…"
My eyes widened even further. I caused this?
"I hate everyone at this school, to eliminate them…" she muttered to herself. She looked back at me again, "Nothing matters anymore. So stop dwelling on the past Len…"
Her words…they all pierced my heart like daggers. Unable to comprehend to her cold lyrics, I said, "…That…" as I pointed to her wrist, where her sweater covered another mark of pain and torture. I noticed that she flinched and hid her accused arm behind her back.
"What?"
I slowly stepped closer to her, my footsteps echoed as they made contact with the cement floor. Her fear was obvious, She was trying to get more distance. "Your wrist, that's what!"
Rin turned away, pulling down her sleeve even further, defensively trying to hide it, "It's nothing. It's none of your business!"
"It is my business! Why are you hiding things like this from me? After all we've been through together…?"
"Because," I could hear the anger rise in her voice. "You seem to be busy making friends with those assholes! And keeping up your stupid looks and being popular, I think it's fucking stupid!"
She glared at me, her cheeks burning dark red. "Always too busy for me, and don't deny it, Len! Cause I got the hint! I know what you did for me today was out of pity…So just go back to that damn classroom and pretend that nothing happened!" she turned away from me, facing the clouds once more.
"Rin, do you think I don't care about you? …Of course I do! Those people don't matter to me, they aren't even my friends. Whenever I even mentioned your name, they would start laughing at you and making fun of you! I finally got sick of it. I knew I had to say something! Or it would have just gotten worse."
I looked at her appearance, I looked at how everyone treated her and how brutal they could get, "But I wouldn't have thought it would have been gotten this bad… I'm so sorry Rin, please forgive me."
Rin's POV:
I stood there shocked. Thoughts were wildly prancing through my mind. He was sorry? But why, he didn't do anything, except make everyone hate me even more. But, still.
That phrase….the same phrase that Luka had said to me before she left the orphanage replayed over and over again, "But living is something unlike any other…wouldn't you regret it if you didn't exist?" I realized it now. I understood what she meant. I would regret not living, because Len and Luka wouldn't be there for me…
Len, he was always there for me, no matter what. We had never been separated. I was glad to have him as a brother.
Luka, she was the first person at the orphanage that would waste her time to hang out with someone like me. I missed her overexcited explanations and her kind gestures. She was like the mother I always wanted.
As Luka's phrase continued to wander around my mind, my slight smile had turned into a scowl, "To 'live', it is true that it is painful, that living. There are obstacles that will try and stop you, and that is the 'evil'."
The people in this school were like the plague. I thought I could just leave them be, that they would get bored of bullying me. I wanted to eliminate them…eliminate them all!
Continuing to think of sadistically psychotic thoughts, I jumped when an arm suddenly grabbed me, snapping me into reality.
"Oh shi-" I screamed when I tripped off the edge of the roof. My hand raced towards the building for support. Yet it only brushed against the rough edges of the building, scraping the palm of my hand into a bloody mess.
I imagined the image of descending towards the dark heights of hell that I wasn't yet prepared for. I clamped my eyes shut, preparing for the impact with the concrete sidewalk.
"RIN!" opening my eyes, I saw the same person that lectured me from before. Noticing my arm was connected to his. His arm was grasped tightly around my wrist.
"Grab my arm!" I could see drops of perspiration, fall from his brow.
He really wanted to save me didn't he? Was my life really worth saving? No, it isn't. I knew that. Why did he care so much? Why was Len acting like I was an actual person? Treating me with respect while others didn't? I knew I was just a burden to him… I slowed him down…I-I am worthless…
"Just…just let go of me, Len…" I glanced towards the depths of hell. My feet tangled with each other, following the melody of the breeze. Knowing my fear of heights, I gulped. "Falling off a 10 story building isn't that bad is it?" I whispered to myself, "It'll be over soon, right?"
"What? What are you talking about Rin?!" he shouted at me, his eyes were brimmed with tears. I could finally see how much he really cared for me. "I'm not letting you go! We've been through hard times together! And we'll continue to get through this, together! So, don't talk crap like that, Rin!" The tears started to prick through his long lashes. "You're the most important person to me Rin! No one can ever replace you!"
I felt guilty with what he said, the way I acted. I was the one who brushed him away.
"I-I wouldn't know what I'd do without you…"
Selfish, that's what I was. Selfish for not noticing the one person who truly cared for me other than Luka, and that all I cared for was my own pain and grief. I'm sorry Len… But…
Sighing, Rin reluctantly grabbed Len's arm that was stretched above her.
What Len had said was all true. And she felt guilty.
With her mind finally in place, Len was able to swiftly pull Rin up. Carefully not damaging his already fragile sister.
"Wah!" yelped Rin, from being quickly yanked up. Colliding into Len, she blushed furiously when she crashed into his chest.
"S-Sorry L-Len…" Rin managed to stammer out, pulling away from him and still blushing from her embarrassment. She directed her gaze away from Len, turning towards the ruffles of her skirt. Rin nervously fidgeted with the hem. "I-I'm sor-"
Suddenly, Len pulled her into a comforting embrace. Gasping from the sudden contact, her eyes curiously fell upon the eyes of the one who embraced her with such care.
"D-Don't ever do that again!" he choked out, burying his head into Rin's shoulder and soaking his falling tears in her sweater.
Sitting there, motionless, Rin still was having second thoughts. Was it right that she took his hand?
The never-ending silence continued as the wind blew gently, the only sound that was uttered came from the muffled sobbing of Len.
Gradually bringing her hands up, and tried to sooth and comfort him. Feeling that the other end received his pleads, he tightened his embrace, never wanting to let go of her.
She didn't mind it however, remembering how she used to handle comforting the crying, sniffling Len.
Being a hotshot he was he did have a soft side in him. Though, he only showed that side to Rin and Luka.
Smiling lightly, Rin remembered the precious memories that Len had spoken of. The memories that were irreplaceable, the time that they spent together were memorable.
Though those memories were replaced with the ones she feared to view, as her mind continued to dig further. Those memories tormented her, making her realize once again that her she was worthless, that she was nobody.
Eyeing the continuously sobbing brother, she furrowed her brow, consumed in thoughts. Her once joyous, glimmering eyes turned into an emotionless, empty glare. Len considered her as a person, an important person to him…
'Why is that…?' she thought to herself.
A/N: I was debating on whether or not to post this chapter.
Please review and tell me how I did! And whether or not I should continue this story. Cuz truthfully, I'm having second thoughts if I should or shouldn't...
Until then!