Baby, why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever, now I'll never know...

It was just a dream. That's all, it meant nothing. I must have fallen asleep between all the sobbing, the thing is... I didn't want to wake up. I wanted to fall back asleep and carry this dream on. Oh no. Why couldn't Chuck be like this all the time, instead of a self-centered womanizing little brat? "B? You okay?" I nearly fell off the bed as Serena walked in and scared me half to death. "Holy crap, Serena! Ever heard of knocking?" I replied slightly breathless. Serena was wearing blue jeans and black leather boots with heels, a baggy white top and a black scarf. Where the hell was she going? She grinned and walked over to the bed. "Hey, why aren't you dressed? We're going out today, remember?" Oh crap.

It's like I'm standing from a distance, standing in the background, everybody's saying; he's not coming home now.

This can't be happening to me, this is just a dream...

"I don't feel like going out today, S." I said quietly and pinned back my hair. Serena sat on the bed next to me. How could I possibly be refusing a day out shopping? I can't let this rule my life forever; I have to move on, but how? I must admit I was feeling a lot better after my dream about Chuck, so why not have a day out with my best friend? I wasn't going to let Nate Archibald get in my way of a perfectly good day out. "In fact, I change my mind. I'll come. Only because I need a new outfit for my Mother's launch party tonight, you're coming right?" I immediately started to get ready to distract myself.

"Yeah, Dan can come too?" Serena asked curiously. Sigh. Little Dan Humphrey, I couldn't say no. He was her boyfriend after all. "Of course," I replied casually and smiled in the mirror. Serena grinned back and went in my closet to get me something to wear.

In the limo on the way, there was an awkward silence suffocating the atmosphere, but I didn't know what to say. I guess I was afraid I'd say something about my dream, or worse, how much I enjoyed it. Maybe I should tell Serena, after all she is my best friend and I'm supposed to tell her everything aren't I?

The day went by rather fast, I did go a bit over board to distract myself by buying 7 outfits instead, and at least I have a choice now. Serena made a pitiful effort to make conversation, which I avoided by pretending to spot a dress or something. I really needed to be alone, and yet I'm going to party full of people, and Chuck. I don't understand why I'm panicking so much about this dream. It was a dream that's all; Chuck would never have feelings for me or do anything like that for anyone, let alone me.

"Blair, I'm gonna go home and get ready for the party, I'll meet you there, love you!" She jumped out of the limo; I waved and ordered the limo back to the house. There was no one home when I got there, I assumed they were all out getting everything ready, but I had a feeling tonight wasn't going to go well. I picked out a dark purple, silk, short and strapless dress with purple high heels for the party. I wore my hair down and curly, with a butterfly slide in the side. After applying light make-up, I was finally ready to get this over with.

***

"Blair! Blair, I'm over here!" Serena shouted me from across the room, I spotted her and walked over with a fake smile on my face, and we hugged, got a drink and found a seat in the corner of the hall. People were stood up dancing, laughing and talking in groups. I hadn't seen Chuck yet, not that he was on my mind. I'd seen Nate, unfortunately, chatting with my Mother of all people he could find conversation with. "So B, how are you feeling about the whole breaking up with Nate thing?" I knew she had been dying to ask since this morning.

"To be honest, I'm fine." I sipped at my drink and looked at the table.

"Wow, I didn't think you'd be over it this easily, I mean it's you and Nate..."

"Well, good things always come to an end." I couldn't take it any longer, I had to tell her. I had to tell someone. "And anyway, the other night I had this really weird dream about me and Ch-"

"Hello, ladies." Chuck spoke smoothly with his usual smug grin on his face and a drink in his hand.

"Chuck." My heart skipped a beat as I downed my drink in one.