Heyo! xoxo i decided to make this into a little series - i'm not too sure where, i'm going with this, but I'm going somewhere! Please enjoy and review!
Reviews :
The Trickiest One : Haha, like Romeo and Juliet? That's not what I was really aiming for, but cool! Sorry to disappoint, this isn't what it'll be based off of :( please enjoy! ily
Guest : I am planning to continue, thanks to your review! You really motivated me ha, I'm going to try and continue this without ripping off "Diet Coke is life's, Broken Circle!" definitely a good fanfic, you should go read. Nope, no Romeo and Juliet. That's too cliche for me, ily guest
Raphaelfangirl4real : I'm glad you liked it xoxo ily
Nya glared blankly at her palms, that were clenched into fists at the moment.
It was her fault, Jay was her boyfriend for Christ's sake. How could she let Jay depart with the notion that his love wouldn't be accepted for all of eternity?
Did he know she loved him with all her heart and soul?
Just 24 hours ago, they were happily eating breakfast. Jay was bouncy and excited, Cole smiling adoringly at his best friend, pouring all his love for his brother in one glance, Kai half-asleep, Lloyd rambling about Fritz Donnegan, Zane intently listening.
There was none of that now.
Cole was in Jay's room, eyes teary and red.
When Cole first found out Jay was gone, he was in denial.
And that's when the tears began to fall.
She would have poked fun, saying that perhaps Cole was a better match for Jay.
She knew better than to do that.
Nya doesn't know when she ended up in Jay's room and kneeling beside Cole who was staring blankly at pieces of paper.
All of Jay's blueprints - all of the things that he was planning to work on... that he never lived to do.
These were Jay's pride and joy and yet, he would never get the chance to finish them.
In matter of fact, she would never build something with Jay ever again, or see his bright smile, hear one of his horrible puns, hug him tight, take in his scent of lavender and oil...
A choked sob escaped her throat.
"You know what's even worse?" Cole asked as if the Ninja of Earth read Water's mind. Nya couldn't trust her voice to find words.
But Cole continued.
The Ninja of Earth lifted up a bottle of pills.
Nya couldn't breathe.
antidepressants.
Used as prescribed.
Anxiety and depression.
Depression.
Depression, depression, depression, depression, depression. depression, depression.
Jay had depression.
And he never told anyone.How many internal battles did he have?
Did I - we... make him feel like he was all alone?
That erased the slightest bit of hope she had for Jay's demise being a cruel, harsh, twisted murder.
It was a suicide.
Those words left a sour taste on her tongue. Jay and suicide?... It just didn't mingle. He was too happy and bouncy... always telling jokes...
Nya's hand clenched the pill bottle until her knuckles turned white.
She threw the bottle down onto the ground with a scream, ignoring when the pills scattered onto the ground.
She ran down the hallway and into her room, slamming the door shut.
Another guttaral scream ripped out of her throat.
Reality hit her like a freight train.
Jay wasn't going to come back to her. He took his own life.
The hands that always created, destroyed. That being destroyed his own being.
"You idiot!" Nya sobbed, slashing her pillow with her dagger. "How could you leave me alone?!"
The water ninja cried and wailed until she couldn't cry anymore.
She glowered down at the ring that was once being offered up to her in Jay's warm, slightly tanned hands.
Jay beamed up at Nya, big brown eyes bright in excitement.
He looked so happy.
"Nya... will you marry me?"
Despite the trembling hands, his eyes were still bright with joy and pride that he had mustered up enough courage to ask.
Nya felt fury envelop her whole being, "Are you serious?" She asked coldly, ignoring the flinch that Jay gave and the happy demeanor slowly fading.
"Wh- yeah! Why would I joke around about something like this? It's just- I love you a lot... a-and I feel like we could maybe, take... a step forward in our relationship-"
All of Jay's confidence that he once had faded into the wind. Like the water ninja's patience.
Nya had enough. "No."
Before Jay could open up his mouth, Nya continued, "Is that all you want? To claim me like I'm some item?"
Jay looked taken aback, "What? No, Nya-" the brunett boy took her hand and all Nya did was shove him away roughly, the lightning ninja grateful that his brother of fire was there to catch him.
Nya scoffed and met his brown eyes harshly. "You never did change, did you? You're always thinking about yourself!"
Jay chewed his lip and stepped forward. "Nya, you know that's not true!"
The blackette turned from him, eyes furious. How dare he? Was he truly that blind?
"Nya-" Jay grasped her shoulder as Nya swirled around and shoved him roughly to the ground.
"I hate you, I hate you, I hate you! I don't even need you!
Nya squeezed her eyes shut, a stray tear rolling down her cheek.
Oh how she needed him now. Why does everyone take for granted for what could just easily disappear?...
Like she had with Jay.
She had him in the palm of her hand and lost him like a clover in the summer breeze.
"Hey Nya?"
"Hm?"
Jay nuzzled into her neck as they watched the stars twinkle in the heavens."I love you. Thank you for loving me..."
Nya smiled softly, kissing his temple.
She didn't really like how Jay thought her opinion of him was the most important of them all.
But it was okay. Because her loving opinion about him would never change.
Nya clenched the bedsheets, tears streaming down her sore, red cheeks that had been rubbed and scratched at one too many times.
Why did God take him away?
Nya couldn't move. He was gone.The paramedics couldn't revive him.
Nya couldn't bare to watch when they pulled the sheet over his head, she couldn't listen when they announced the time of death, and she couldn't listen to them when they announced the blue ninja as deceased.
When they placed Jay in the body bag, that was when she lost it.
Kai had to hold her back as she begged for Jay to wake up.
But he never did.