This marks the beginning of something more frightening, more satisfying, than the knowledge of dare I say it, vampires.

Revelations

"Dear Alice,

Last night I went to the diner with Charlie and he has claimed that the next trip I will be making is to the doctor's. I must admit, my heart stopped, my dead heart, at the mention of 'doctor'. Carlisle's face came to my mind. I miss him terribly- I miss you all. Charlie thinks something is very wrong with me but I understand I think. I hope he is wrong but I know that this nightmare is my life; nothing ever goes right. Today is December 3rd and tomorrow, I find out my demise, if I am lucky enough. Hah- luck, me, luck.

Formally,

Bella Swan."

As my vision left me I sighed, this wasn't supposed to end this way. My best friend was never supposed to get hurt but even if nobody said it, we knew she did. I haven't gotten a vision of her since I stopped trying. The truth is, I never wanted to. To be frank, many things have changed. Edward has not visited in three months, the last time ending in broken trees. Esme is a shadow of herself. She is so serious and her motherly antics have dissipated. Jasper and I are no longer together, he said that he didn't think It was a good idea to appear as a couple anymore.

You see we have been divorced for a decade but it wasn't in our liking to rip the family apart. Now there is not anything else we can do to keep it together. Esme and Carlisle understood. Rose has known for a while about three years and Emmet didn't give a rat's ass, as always. Rose is strangely depressed; every now and then I get a vision of her sneaking to check on Bella but never has she done just that. However Emmet is another whole level of depression. He just simply isn't Emmet.

So many things have changed. I cannot believe it but hope may go a long way, if not then I might have to take things into my own hands…

Isabella Swan

Today was the day and it nearly matched my mood. Dreary, cold and wet; Today it was snowing and honestly I didn't mind. I have come accustomed to the wet and cold weather. It fit me- it was me in a sense. I couldn't sleep so around 5:30AM I flicked on my closet light and peered in for today's outfit. A beige and brown thermal with a pair of jeans, some boots, and a white and lime flannel. Sometimes I wondered why I didn't care so much about what was in my closet but then I remembered my dear friend Alice- she cared so much, I didn't have to. I remembered I needed to grab my bathroom basket. I could really use it. Having to share a bathroom sucked but I knew the appointment was at 8:00 and Charlie doesn't wash up until 7:30. I started to clean the tub, then set the water to warm/hot. My body ached terribly and I would like to put on a good show for the doctor. The last thing on my mind being of the screaming wind outside my window- how peaceful in the early morning.

Before I knew it, Charlie was knocking on the door. "Bella you okay in there? Its 7:00 and I need to get in at thirty past, okay?" God damn! I must have fallen asleep. I vigorously scrubbed myself clean with the shower head, rinsed out the peach and vanilla shampoo and conditioner- ten minutes and I was finished. Eight came too soon and I found myself staring out the cruiser's window and into Forks hospital's doors. I soon felt subconscious; I haven't really been out since he left me. Walking in seems so unreal, the feeling all too familiar. Whenever here, it always seems surreal.

"Miss Swan, doctor Hemsworth is ready to see you. Hello chief, how are you doing?" I couldn't help but smile at this woman. If I could believe myself, Sheila, as her nametag read, was flirting with my father. I frowned; Charlie cannot stay a bachelor forever.

"Hello Sheila, I'm doing well thanks" we followed her into the white walled room and I felt suffocated. It was so white- just like them. As predicted, Dr. Hemsworth was waiting in his blue work attired with white jacket reading Andrew Hemsworth. He was young, but not as young as Carlisle but indeed, he still looked nice.

"Good morning Miss. Swan, what would seem to be the problem?"I opened my mouth but nothing came out and I was grateful. Charlie understood and cleared his throat to let the doctor know he would explain himself.

"Dr. Hemsworth, I made this appointment for my daughter. She had a bad breakup three months ago and she unfortunately is depressed but she is getting much better than she had been. Though, that is not why I called. I've noticed, her eyes are so tired, she is always in bed and her arms and legs, and they are filled with bruises. Sir I'm just concerned and would like you to help." I was bewildered, to say the least. Charlie- my soft spoken, burly, quiet father spoke the most I have ever heard him describe.

The doctor looked worried and nodded, writing inconspicuous notes on his writing pad. "Alright Isabella-"

"Bella" I corrected.

"Alright Bella, I will ask you some questions and then I need to do a full body examination on you, a female nurse will be present." I nodded, I by now, knew how these things underwent.

"When was your last menstrual cycle?" he asked.

"Last weekend"

The questions seemed unimportant but I knew they meant well. By the time we got to the body examination, his face was contorted in what I definitely knew as worry. He had Sheila call Charlie back in and with a solemn look he explained. "After going through a thorough examination I believe I have come up with a diagnosis. Now I am saying this is what I believe as correct but I can be wrong so I will draw blood after I finish. Please sit down Chief Swan." He sat," I believe you're daughter has Acute lymphoblastic leukemia. Like I said I would really like to be absolutely sure, nothing Is set in stone. After blood is drawn, it may take 2-7 business days." I froze, this couldn't happen. My vision grew foggy and my balance, even while sitting, unstable. I saw Dr. Hemsworth catch me before I even fell over and all went blank; everything black.

Author's note:

hey everyone, thanks for the reviews and many favorite's and alerts. unfortunately my chapter's may be short. i have windows 7 microsoft word 2007. its the newer word and while typing

it seems substantionally longer than it really is to the document's settings so i apologize for the length! RR kjames.