1968 Hypnosis Therapy Sessions of Patient 22156
January 28, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Lets talk about the rainbows again.
22156: The world is pretty white. I only say pretty because it's a lot. Not because it's actually pretty or anything. It's just dull, worn, and…well, white? I don't know… I didn't know what all the fuss was about. I just wanted nice colors! Make it more pretty and stuff! With everything being white and dull, why can't I make the pillow room or the hall pretty? How was I supposed to know that all those colors and rainbows had a mind of their own and wanted to spread? How was I supposed to know that rainbows can color people? How was I supposed to know that when rainbows eat people, they go to sleep forever? I just wanted a little color…how was I supposed to know…that it makes people die…?
Frosier: And you say you just see rainbows?
22156: Yes…they are really pretty…
Frosier: Do you see anything else?
22156: No…
Frosier: Lets talk about Lakeside…your life before you came here.
22156: It was…everything was white.
Frosier: And did that bother you?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Bother you enough to want to color everything in these rainbows?
22156: No…
Frosier: Why not?
22156: I didn't mean to…
Frosier: What didn't you mean to do?
22156: To color the walls and people. I didn't know rainbows move.
Frosier: So you made them accidentally.
22156: Yes…no? I…I don't know…they didn't tell me it makes rainbows…
Frosier: What? What makes rainbows?
22156: The colorful strings in the walls…I didn't know they…I didn't know the white and orange specks would make rainbows.
Frosier: Strings in the walls?
22156: Yes. The strings that made the lights shine in the hall…outside the pillow room.
Frosier: I see…how did you get to them?
22156: I pulled at the pillows. The mice told me how…they were my friends.
Frosier: Could the mice talk to you?
22156: Yes…they showed me the color strings…
Frosier: Did they tell you anything else?
22156: They told me to wait…wait for a little while…and then pull them…
Frosier: And from them, came the rainbows.
22156: No. White and orange light came. They touched the white fluff from the pillows. Then the rainbows came.
Frosier: What happened then?
22156: I was happy…but the mice told me to get out…
Frosier: The mice…they told you to get out of what?
22156: The pillow room…
Frosier: Did you get out?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: How did you get out?
22156: …
Frosier: How did you get out?
22156: …I still want the rainbows…
Frosier: Thank you…you will now fall asleep in 3…2…1
February 4, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Lets talk about Dell…you mentioned him once to Matilda.
22156: …Matilda?
Frosier: Your toy bear. The one we gave you.
22156: I wasn't talking to the bear. I don't like that bear.
Frosier: Why not?
22156: It's not a friend.
Frosier: How is it not a friend? She's very friendly and-
22156: It watches me…I don't like it.
Frosier: Does it scare you?
22156: The man with the metal bowl hat asked me once if I was ever scared. I don't know what that is.
Frosier: You don't…when you say you don't know… does that mean you've never felt scared?
22156: I don't know what it feels like to be scared…
Frosier: Well…does the bear make you want to run? Get away from it?
22156: No.
Frosier: Did your old roommate…the one who choked you and hit you…did she ever make you feel small or helpless? Did she ever make you feel like you want to run away?
22156: They.
Frosier: …what?
22156: It was they. They.
Frosier: What?
22156: My old roommate who choked me was a they. There were two people in one body.
Frosier: …I see. Did they ever make you feel like that?
22156: Like what?
Frosier: Small, helpless, or weak. Or did you ever want to run away because you felt those things?
22156: No. I just didn't like it.
Frosier: You didn't even feel any of those things when she-
22156: They.
Frosier: They tried to kill you?
22156: No. I just didn't like the hurt. I wanted to sleep. So I did…but I couldn't control the blackness. It just came.
Frosier: I see…tell me, did Dr. Carl ever make you sleep?
22156: He made the darkness come once.
Frosier: What happened?
22156: He…I don't remember. But I remember waking up.
Frosier: What did you see?
22156: I can't tell you.
Frosier: Why not?
22156: Dr. Carl said not to.
Frosier: Why would he say that?
22156: He said people in the outside wouldn't understand. He was acting strange. He was what you call, scared, I think.
Frosier: Well…I'm here to help you. And in order for me to help…I have to know what he was doing. What did he do?
22156: …
Frosier: What did he do?
22156: …He had knitting needles…
Frosier: He...had knitting needles?
22156: They were bright colors…and had a handle. He also had a toy hammer.
Frosier: …He was holding them?
22156: He was holding them in my eyes…They were in my eyes…it hurt…
Frosier: And you weren't scared?
22156: I don't…I don't remember that…I don't know. I just hurt. Then he yelled for a nurse and she stabbed me with a smaller needle.
Frosier: Did he do this to anyone else?
22156: He did this a lot…no one woke up but me. He made me not say anything to anyone.
Frosier: Did you?
22156: No.
Frosier: Why?
22156: Because he said he would hurt me. I don't like hurt.
Frosier: And you were not scared?
22156: No. I just didn't like the hurt. No one likes the hurt.
Frosier: …We…We went off topic. We were…uh…talking about…uh…
22156: You're acting like him…
Frosier: Like who?
22156: Like Dr. Carl when I first asked about the rainbows. Are you scared?
Frosier: …no. no, just concerned.
22156: …liar.
Frosier: Now don't be difficult.
22156: …Fine…
Frosier: Thank you…you will now fall asleep in 3…2…1
February 11, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Lets talk about Dell. We tried that last time and we got off topic. Let's try and stay on the topics at hand this time.
22156: Fine.
Frosier: Don't be difficult, now.
22156: I said fine.
Frosier: …lets talk about Dell. Not only have you spoken of him before to…well, you say not the bear, but something-
22156: I talk to myself.
Frosier: Oh? Clears your head?
22156: In the large white house, they gave us journals to write in our thoughts. It helps me.
Frosier: How does it help you?
22156: Keeps my mind here.
Frosier: Here? Where would it go?
22156: Somewhere nice. Lots of colors.
Frosier: Rainbows?
22156: Yes.
Frosier: I see. And you wrote down what happened that day?
22156: Or happening now. Like in the pillow room.
Frosier: Your room here?
22156: No, the one at the large white house. Only my journal was not there. And I didn't have a crayon.
Frosier: Then how did you write?
22156: When I scratched at the pillow walls…red paint came out of my hands with the hurt. I used that to write on the floor. It dries a dirty brown color, though…
Frosier: I see…and if you don't write your thoughts down, you go to this nice land full of rainbows?
22156: Yes.
Frosier: Is Dell there?
22156: …
Frosier: Why wont you talk about Dell? Did Dr. Carl not want you to tell anyone about him too?
22156: Dr. Carl didn't like me talking to Dell.
Frosier: Would Dr. Carl hurt you if you talked to him?
22156: No.
Frosier: Who is Dell?
22156: …
Frosier: Come on, who is Dell to you?
22156: …
Frosier: Who is Dell?
22156: He's gone.
Frosier: Who? Dell?
22156: Yes. He left.
Frosier: Just now?
22156: No.
Frosier: When?
22156: Before the pipes suddenly broke…hahaha…I miss him…
Frosier: …um, you miss Dell?
22156: Yes.
Frosier: How often?
22156: All the time.
Frosier: Would you like to see him?
22156: Yes.
Frosier: Tell you what. If you tell me the things I want to know, I will find this Dell and bring him here.
22156: …Can you do that?
Frosier: Yes…
22156: …Liar…
Frosier: …Thank you…you will now fall asleep in 3…2…1
February 18, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Lets talk about this world you go to. What does it look like?
22156: Colorful.
Frosier: With lots of rainbows?
22156: Yes.
Frosier: Is it anything else?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: What else?
22156: Hills…hills of grass…with candy.
Frosier: What kind of candy?
22156: Any…just sweet…with flowers
Frosier: Anything else?
22156: There's…a pretty river
Frosier: Oh? There's water?
22156: Yes.
Frosier: Even though water takes away the rainbows?
22156: It does?
Frosier: Yes.
22156: Oh…but I like water.
Frosier: You can like both, you know.
22156: …Ok.
Frosier: Let's talk about the big white house. You made rainbows by yourself.
22156: Yes! In the pillow room.
Frosier: After you made the rainbows, what happened?
22156: It was really hot. I didn't like the hot. I like warm. Not hot. The colors were so pretty though…
Frosier: Did you try to get away from the hot?
22156: No.
Frosier: Why?
22156: The nurse pulled me out. She wanted the rainbows to go away.
Frosier: Did she destroy the rainbows?
22156: No…
Frosier: What happened?
22156: I tried to make her see the pretty colors. And not be scared.
Frosier: What did you do?
22156: Nothing…the rainbows just came to her.
Frosier: And they spread to her?
22156: Yes…she screamed and ran around. The rainbows painted the walls…I didn't know. I didn't know it kills people.
Frosier: No, of course not… what happened after that?
22156: I was surprised. I didn't like it. I didn't like that rainbows kill people.
Frosier: You were angry?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: What did you do?
22156: I went to Dr. Carl's office.
Frosier: While the rainbows were spreading?
22156: Yes.
Frosier: I see…what happened when you got to the office?
22156: He was in there, with his small white stick with the rainbow on the end. I was angry. He was surprised to see me. He also looked scared.
Frosier: Then what happened?
22156: …
Frosier: what happened?
22156: …
Frosier: what happ- are you even listening?
22156: …
Frosier: …you will now fall asleep in 3…2…1
February 25, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: Yes…
Frosier: Lets talk about Dr. Carl…when you went into his office. What happened after you came into his office?
22156: He got up…and yelled at me. He was sacred.
Frosier: You know he was scared?
22156: He looked like it, and I have been thinking about it.
Frosier: About other people being scared?
22156: Yes…everyone is scared of me.
Frosier: That's not true.
22156: It is. Even you are scared of me…only Dell ever changed.
Frosier: You mean…this Dell was afraid of you at one time?
22156: When I first talked to him…but then he wasn't anymore.
Frosier: Why do you say that? What caused the change?
22156: …
Frosier: …lets get back to the office. Dr. Carl yelled at you. What happened then?
22156: I was angry. Mad that he didn't tell me that rainbows killed people. I argued with him about it.
Frosier: What did he say?
22156: He said that…that I was an idiot…a freak…that I was crazy.
Frosier: And did that make you even more angry?
22156: No…that wasn't what made me mad. He said that I was a mistake…that I was supposed to be cured…instead he was stuck with me…
Frosier: Cured? Cured of what?
22156: I guess I was there for a reason…I don't know why…maybe that was what he tried to fix…
Frosier: What was he trying to cure?
22156: I don't remember…I…I forgot…I forgot. My roommate said I forgot something.
Frosier: What-
22156: They said I had forgotten something. Something important. The voices told her. That must be it! what I forgot! Who I was before I went to the large white house!
Frosier: SECURITY!
March 3, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: …
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: …
Frosier: not talking today?
22156: …
Frosier: come now, surely you have something to say.
22156: …
Frosier: are you even here?
22156: …
Frosier: are you off in your own little world with rainbows?
22156: …
Frosier: …you will now fall asleep in 3…2…1
March 10, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: …
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: …
Frosier: Still not talking?
22156: …
Frosier: …you will now fall asleep in 3…2…1
May 25, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: …
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: …
Frosier: its been two months. Still have nothing to say?
22156: …
Frosier: I know you hear me.
22156: …
Frosier: why are you ignoring me?
22156: …
Frosier: …you will now fall asleep in 3…2…1
June 29, 1968
Frosier: You will wake up in three…two…one…Can you hear my voice?
22156: …
Frosier: Are you nice and relaxed?
22156: …
Frosier: still nothing?
22156: …
Frosier: I'm getting tired of this.
22156: …
Frosier: …you will now fall asleep in 3…2-
22156: I made him feel what I felt…
Frosier: …who?
22156: Dr. Carl…I made him feel my hurt.
Frosier: …how…how did you do that?
22156: I put needles in his eyes and hit them with a hammer…just like he did to me…just like he did to everyone…
Frosier: …
22156: I've been doing a lot of thinking…Dr. Carl used to say that it was bad for me…
Frosier: …
22156: but he was a liar…
Frosier: …
22156: just like you…
Frosier: w-what is that?
22156: your tiny silver rainbow box…Dr. Carl used them to color his white sticks of smoke.
Frosier: y-you will now fall asleep-
22156: why are you scared?
Frosier: in th-three-
22156: it's just rainbows…
Frosier: t-two…
22156: I'm just returning it to you.
(screaming, feedback)