I hope you liked the first chapter of this story :) Now it's time for the rest of it, and one of the reason why I rated this story M is because I have a feeling it's going to be quite angsty. And who knows, there might be some sexual content, between who and what gender I can't say at the moment, so if any of the particular offend you keep in mind that you have been warned, that not said it will be, but who knows. I simply don't know yet. Another reason is that I want to explore Jack's dark side. I think he was different from his brothers in some areas, and that they kind of wanted to keep him from certain things, like guns and killing people. But in this version things have changed and someone might take his whole family, including the one he has always leaned on... How far will he go? And since this is Jack it will make him question a lot of things about himself. Might be issues with self harm. Well I think that is all, you have been warned. Happy reading! I don't own four brothers and I forget to mention the lyrics in the first chapter is from a song called 'full of grace' by Sarah Mclachlan.

Hours passed without notice. Time had lost all meaning. The familiar tic toc from the clock should have been comforting, but no one even noticed. In their mind they were all reliving the events that led them here, to the waiting room in the hospital. Images moved in Jack's mind like a movie, playing over and over again. The images shifted from Bobby bleeding on the snow, to playing hockey with Bobby, watching movies with Bobby, Bobby beating up a guy for messing with him, Bobby beating up more guys... it went on and on. His brothers had forced him to get his shoulder checked, and it had been taken care of against his will. He didn't want help. He didn't want his shoulder to stop hurting. Nothing could hurt more than his heart anyway he mused. He had never felt this kind of pain before, and Jack was no stranger to pain. He had been sure he had experienced everything there was in the many ways of pain, but this. Nothing could have prepared him for this. This ache in his chest, this emptiness in his soul. He wanted to die.

He saw the glances Angel and Jerry kept shooting him, he knew they were worried about him, but he couldn't bring himself to care. He couldn't meet their eyes, he couldn't look into their eyes with the knowledge that he did this. That Bobby may die, because he was once again to stupid. To fucking stupid. Just like he had always been. Wasn't that what they used to tell him when he was a kid, that he was stupid, worthless, nothing but a waste of space. They had been right. Jerry and Angel haden't thought so, and neither did Bobby... a vocie that sounded almost like Evelyn whispered to him, but he shook it off. Evelyn is dead he whispered to himself, so caught in his own thoughts that he didn't even notice that he spoke the words aloud, causing Angel and Jerry to look at each other again, their worried gaze wondering what they were going to do.

They all looked up at the sound of someone coming. They stood up to greet the doctor they knew had been treating Bobby, at least one of them. He had greeted them at the door.

'Family of Bobby Mercer?' He asked even though he already knew.

They all nodded, to afraid to speak.

'First of all I want to tell you that Bobby is still alive' They all drew in a relieved breath 'But, there were some complications...'

'What kind?' Jerry asked, his eyes wet.

'Well, he flatlined twice but we managed to bring him back, but now he have slipped into a coma, one not induced by us. We managed to stop the bleeding, but his body shut down'

'Is he going to wake up?'

Jack whispered the words. The doctor looked at him sadly for a few second before deciding that the truth was always better, they had to know what to expect.

'I don't know. I have to be honest with you, I have seen this before, it is quite common, and usually' he took a deep breath' usually the patient isin't strong enough to come back, but that dosen't mean that this will happen to Bobby, he may wake up. I just want you to be prepared for the fact that he may not'

'Can we see him?' Angel asked with a hoarse voice.

The doctor nodded and gestured at them to follow him. They walked down a long hallway and stopping at a door.

'If you have any questions, ask the nurses to beep me'

They nodded and the doctor left. Jerry opened the door and entered, followed by Angel and last Jack.

The sight of Bobby in a hospital bed was daunting. Angel and Jerry took a seat on his left side while Jack hesitantly took the right.

'Bobby...'

Jack wanted to hold his hand but there were so many machines connected to him, and he didn't want to hurt him. He laid his head down on the bed next to him and closed his eyes and tried to inhale the smell that was purely Bobby, but it was all wrong. He couldn't believe this, this was Bobby, the invincible. The one who would always come out standing, always. He always had. A tear trailed down his cheek.

Angel looked down on his big brother laying in the bed. How did this happen? He wanted to yell but he couldn't, he couldn't do anything. He laid his hand down on Bobbys and prayed. He felt Jerrys hand on top of his own on Bobbys.

Jack's tears came faster and he pressed his head against Bobbys arm.

'Please'

Jerry came over and tried to pull Jack away to hug him but he resisted.

'No, no. Don't make me leave please'

'I'm not Jack, please man...'

Jerrys voice trailed off, watching as his youngest brother held himself to the bed, a panicked look in his eyes that he reqogniced all to well. He tried to speak to him and touch him again but he recoiled so fast that his chair tipped over and he backed away against the wall, a blank look in his eyes that they hadn't seen in a few years but who was still fresh in their mind.

'Jack! Jack it's me, it's Jerry, calm down, no one is going to hurt you'

A nurse stuck her head in the door and immediatley called for back up before charging in.

'Mr Mercer you need to calm down or you'll have to leave'

Angel swore loudly as he heard the words and knew what effect they would have on Jack. Jack's eyes got bigger and he started breathing faster, he left the wall to grasp the bed as the nurse advanced.

'Back up Mam' Jerry adviced trying to push her back 'please if you could just leave us please...'

Angel reached Jack at the same time three guards came in.

'He needs to leave' the irritated nurse motioned to Jack.

"He's not going, he's going to calm down as soon as you leave' Angel shouted at the guards as they tried to move him away from Jack who was clutching the railing of the bed as if his life depended on it.

Jack flinched as a guard got close before he was pushed away by Jerry.

'Don't touch him' He snarled at the guard.

Jack's mind was whirling. Bobby. They were trying to take him from him, why he didn't know. Probably because Jack had been stupid again. He always did stupid things, he knew. But they couldn't, they couldn't take him. They couldn't, no no no. He screamed. And everything stopped. Everyone stopped. As everyone in the room watched he fell to the floor, his eyes wide open, staring unblinking ahead.

'Jack!' Angel and Jerry shouted, rushing to him and cradling his stiff body close.

The doctor from before entered, rushing to Jack as soon as he saw him. He checked his eyes, pulse and other things Jerry didn't even know what it was before he called for a strecther.

'Where are you taking him?'

'Your brother has gone into shock, he needs to be treated now, please step aside'

As Angel and Jerry watched Jack was wheeled away, that same blank look on his face that he had had when he first came to them, only now there was no Bobby here to fix it. They looked at each other, tears in their eyes before leaning into the other, trying to hold themselves up.

Short chapter I know, the next one will be longer!