A/N: thank you, thank you, thank you! To all my wonderful reviewers! Lol but I am happy. Especially to all the reviewers who talked about my club scene. I just wish more people had reviewed. Now I won't bother you with any more chatter, except for one more thing. I'm going to be writing another fanfic, this time with James and Lily having never met, and it's based on "I'm in love (wit a stripper)" by T-Pain. So I might not update this one as often, just so you take note, and it's also going to be rated M for the same thing this one is. You might want to read it and you might not, that's your choice.
Disclaimer: I own nothing, except the plot. The song belongs to Usher and the characters belong to J.K. Rowling.
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Now this gon' be the hardest thing I think I ever had to do
Got me talkin' to myself askin' how I'm gon' tell you
'bout that chick on part 1 I told ya'll I was creepin' with, creepin' with
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As James walked toward the bar, he noticed that Lily was heading toward the table he was sitting at.
When he returned, Lily and Michelle were talking animatedly as though they had known each-other forever. Well maybe that was a bit exaggerated, but not all guys were as great at seeing emotional turmoil as females were. Though they liked to think they could.
As James approached, Lily looked at him, and he was sure she said under her breath, "Oh, fuck me!" but had arranged her features to something unrecognizable, and that made James wonder…
'What is she trying to hide? She still c-can't be in love with me can she?'
'Fuck, he's as good looking as ever. And Michelle is even prettier than I remember. Now what am I supposed to do?'
On the outside, one could feel the tension flowing palpably between the two. Each was trying to hide their thoughts from the other, and even Michelle was getting edgy from all the tension. Finally, she broke the silence. "Well, I'm off to the dance floor. Lily, it was good seeing you again. You're as stunning as ever. See you, later, James!" and before either one of them could say anything, vanished onto the dance floor, leaving a very uncomfortable silence behind.
Then, they both spoke at once. "You know Michelle?" "You're going out with my best friend?"
Lily looked at James, and then she looked at her feet, which were covered with sandals, and her toes showed.
"Umm, you go first," she said unsteadily. She looked up, and saw something hidden in the hazel of his eyes, something she thought she would never see again. 'Is he still in love with me? Even after I lied to him?'
"Yes, I'm—wait; did you say your best friend?" James asked in shock.
Lily nodded her head sadly, but she had a feeling something good was about to happen; even though she couldn't say how. "Yeah, we've been friends since I started at Hogwarts about eight years ago. So I think that answers your question."
James shook his head. How could he not know that? Even so, Lily had a lot of friends, and he was never sure of their names half the time. He remembered Alice and her boyfriend Frank Longbottom. Frank had been on the Gryffindor house Quidditch team, and had played as a chaser alongside James.
"When did you get back together?" James could have whacked himself on the forehead for that stupid question. They'd gotten back together tonight on the dance floor. He'd seen it.
"So, do you love her?" Lily asked curiously, while she felt a tightening of her heart. She could barely breathe for hurt. She looked down.
James saw a hurt look cross her face and his suspicions were confirmed. She still loved him and was depressed because she worried that he didn't love her anymore.
He shook his head at such a folly and raised her chin so she was looking him in the eye. "There's only one person I've ever loved and I'm looking at her right now."
Lily's eyes widened. She hadn't expected to hear that, James figured. He looked toward the dance floor, where Michelle was dancing with—Sirius.
Now Lily looked where his eyes were leading and chuckled under her breath. "Michelle's had a crush on him since Seventh year. She was just too afraid to ask him out. She was in Ravenclaw, you know," Lily supplied, as she noticed his questioning look.
"Oh," was faintly heard coming out of James' mouth. Lily shook her head in amusement as she watched Michelle trying to get close to Sirius, who was looking rather scared, as though he didn't know what to do in case
James noticed.
Lucky for both of them, James let it go, as he was with the one person that he did love. He pulled Lily out to the dance floor with him, where a song was playing, and the same song that they danced to when Lily realized she loved James.
So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love
As Lily twirled back into his arms, she fell against his hard chest. As she gasped, James pulled her closer to his body. She could feel something that should not have been felt. At least not right now. Damn, he was aroused by her for some reason. And she didn't know why.
So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
At the end of the song, Lily walked with James back to his table, where Michelle sat waiting for them. She grinned at Lily, and looking at James, said, "James ready to go?"
James nodded, but said under his breath to Lily, "I'll see you at work tomorrow. I have something to ask you."
"Okay, bye," Lily agreed and walked back over to her table, where she grabbed her purse and car keys, and headed toward the door.
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Said she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it
The first thing that came to mind was you
Second thing was how do I know if it's mine and is it true
Third thing was me wishin' that I never did what I did
How I ain't ready for no kid and bye bye to our relationship
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The next day, when Lily walked into work, the first thing she saw was James sitting on her desk. As she approached, James motioned toward his office, where the door was conveniently closed. She nodded her head, and followed him in.
"Okay, here's what I've been thinking about since yesterday. I know that Michelle's been going out with Sirius for awhile now, behind my back. So I was thinking, since we went out for the whole year the last year of Hogwarts, would you pretend that you were asked to become my secretary and go out with me?"
As Lily listened to him with rapt attention, she felt a faint fluttering in her chest, one she thought she would never feel again. She agreed without realizing it.
James looked pleased about something, and she wasn't sure what, but as she headed toward the door, he said, "Thanks, Lils."
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These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I could say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm thrown and I don't know what to do
I guess I gotta give part 2 of my confessions
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A/N: okay, that concludes chapter two of 'Confessions.' Please review and please read the fic mentioned in the first A/N. And review!
Serindraxx
