Chapter 2
It took Sesshoumaru a minute to recover from the fact that I'd just socked him and come into the living room. He sat on the couch opposite me, looking aggravated, and spoke,
"I left to protect you."
I was silent for a moment, digesting the bullshit he was trying to feed me, outraged. I sacrificed my pride and ruined my vacation and possibly my relationship with Kouga only to hear such a boldfaced lie. This motha fucka really must think I'm stupid or something.
"Wrong answer." I said as I braced the balls of my feet on the floor and launched myself at him, fists raised, Rojo still in my hand.
"Wait, wait!" I heard Sesshoumaru call out, standing to stop me and grabbing my hands, effectively doing so.
Keeping my hands in place, I dropped my torso and, balancing on one foot, I lifted the other and kicked Sesshoumaru on his head with the side of my foot; a trick I learned from Sango. Then, swinging my foot back around, I placed it on his chest and kicked back as hard as I could, effectively getting him away from me. Then I pushed him to the ground, dove on top of him and proceeded to punch every part of him that I could reach, yelling.
"You stupid, arrogant, apathetic, asshole! How dare you force yourself back into my life only to lie to me some more! I swear I though you had some actual sense!" Among other, more colorful things…
I'm not sure when I started crying, but after a few minutes of letting me beat the shit out of him; Sesshoumaru grabbed my wrists and sat up. He went to pull me to his chest but I pushed my feet against his chest again, propelling myself backwards this time, somersaulting away and landing in a crouched position, left leg extended to the side, Rojo dangling from my extended right arm.
"Do not think you can hold me Sesshoumaru. You have told me nothing but useless lies. Leave unless you're willing to tell me the truth." I said standing.
Sess got to his feet as well, eyeing Rojo with a strange expression in his eyes.
"Is that Red?" He asked suddenly.
"It's Rojo." I corrected reflexively.
"Whatever." Sesshou said dismissively. "Why do you still have him?"
I was silent for a moment, debating whether I should answer or not, and then came up with an adequate solution. "You answer my question and I'll answer yours."
"Deal." He said at once. "Now what is your question?"
I rolled my eyes in aggravation. "Why did you really leave me?"
"I just told you why." Sess said, frustration leaking into his voice. "That's the real reason."
I opened my mouth to argue, but he beat me to the punch, "Alright look, you remember when you went with Yasha and Roku to the crabs safehouse?"
"Crabs?" I asked, unfamiliar with the term.
"Crips." Sess clarified. I nodded. "Well one of them heard your voice and got away alive. A while after that, a couple days before we found you in LA, they caught me at a red light on my way home… They asked me where you were."
"They know me?!" I cried out, alarmed, my entire body tensing and my eyes searching instinctively, as though I expected one of them to come out of the balcony or something with a gun.
"No." Sess said soothingly, reaching towards me. I pulled away from him, and saw the hurt in his eyes, but nowhere else. "They do know that you're somehow associated with me and they know your voice… but like I was saying, I debated for months, trying to decide what to do… I made plans to leave, just in case, but had no plans to do so until the night before I left. In my eyes, you're too good… to perfect to be hurt because of someone like me…"
I was silent for a moment, digesting all of this. For two years I thought of Sesshoumaru as this evil deceitful bastard, but now all my judgments were bouncing back in my face. The only thing clear in my mind came out of my mouth,
"Why didn't you tell me?" That was the pained question that left my lips.
"Why would I want to worry you when I was leaving anyways?"
"For my own peace of mind!" I yelled, finally reaching my limit. "So I didn't spend eleven months, two weeks, and three days exactly wondering what I could've possibly done to make you want to leave me! I spent a year thinking I wasn't good enough, that you'd found someone better than me while I was gone and I ended up looking for and listening for a name obsessively! And on top of all that, I spent that and an extra seven months on suicide watch because I told Miroku that I didn't want to live without you. That there was no point. All because you decided to be selfish and not tell me why you were leaving…" I trailed off, emotionally exhausted already, and allowed myself to slump back onto the love seat behind me, looking down. I saw Sesshoumaru's feet coming close to me. "Don't touch me Sess. You may find yourself falling from the balcony."
The feet stopped and I looked up to his face.
"I would deserve it." He said, his poker face on.
"You would." I agreed.
"I just…" He trailed off, running his hands through his hair. It was a nervous habit I'd noticed years before… so he was nervous…
"I didn't think you'd take it so hard… I thought you'd be ok after a couple months…"
"How could you think that Sess? After all the times I told you I needed you? All the times I told you that life wouldn't be life without you…? Did you think I was lying or something?"
"Not lying…" Sesshoumaru said slowly, as if he was weighing his words. "…exaggerating."
I looked at him in disbelief. He was digging the hole deeper and deeper and I just couldn't figure out why…
"Exaggerating?!" I shouted standing again. "In the first and only song I recorded with you, I told you! Mi Corazon, Alma, amor, y amigo, all day and every night babe, escuche lo que digo.My heart, soul, love and friend, all day and every night, listen to what I say. Listen, Sesshoumaru! Escuches!!
"Lord…" I sniffed, tears coming to my eyes. I put my head in my hands and groaned loudly, spinning on the spot. Sess was silent. "You know all of this bullshit could've been avoided so easily if you'd just trust me." I said, turning to face him once more.
"I do trust you Kagome." Sess argued. "I trust you with my life; I don't know why you'd think I don't…"
"You left me and couldn't even trust me enough to not freak out to tell me why you were leaving!"
"It's got nothing to do with you freaking out or not! I saw no reason to worry you. you'd just been kidnapped and damn near starved to death, because of me, and before that, your dad had pretty much disowned you, because of me, and before that, you spent years lying to your parents, to see me! Are you seeing the pattern here Gome?! And then, after everything was supposed to be good, someone was threatening your life, because of me again!? You really expect me to have put you through that simply because I need you?! No… I'm not worth that and I'm not selfish enough to make it seem like I am Kagome."
I was quiet for a moment, then, "So now the truth comes out, huh Sesshou?"
A/N: I'm glad I finally got this story going. I'm expecting more reviews from you guys!! Since you stuck with me for this long, you must have a good appreciation for this story, and so, while I wont be asking for a quota on reviews, I want some this time!!
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kouga's older woman: Thanks! I've used that many ties. And, as you can see, she basically beat the shit out of him. He did deserve it though!! Hope you liked this chap!!
23Inuyasha23: yes'm. Unkempt Promises is over and done with. And yeah, I like writing this from a girl's perspective. You have no clue how hard it was for me to try and dip into the simply complex bowels of the male mind. *shudder* it was kinda scary. Lol. And yes, you're looking for this story now…
Kattana, Kattana, where art thou?
~Bella~