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I'm sat there, in those leather chairs I know so well, tugging my jacket tight around my cold shoulders and staring up at The Doctor. My Doctor. His clone stood beside him and Donna was behind me. We both stared at him. We both wanted answers. I wanted to know what was going to happen to us, I wanted to know if he would stay with me. But I already knew that answer. He wouldn't stay. He would carry on saving the universe, travelling the lonely galaxies and vast expanses of space without me. I loved him like I had never loved Mickey, like I had never loved anyone. There was a painful wrenching in my heart as I realized just how much I would miss him when he was gone. My mum is behind me, her hand resting loosely on the TARDIS console, not touching any of the buttons or dials, just gently running her fingers over and over the blinking lights.

I barely feel the jolt as we land or hear Donna's voice as The Doctor, as my Doctor opens the door and lets in the cool Norwegian air. I can feel my body shaking as I step past him, my fingers brushing his hand in a reflex action that makes me want to hold his skinny hands in mine forever. And then I'm past him, the icy Norwegian wind cutting through the thin clothes I was wearing like small daggers. He stares after me and I can feel his burning gaze on the back of my neck but then I walk away, standing on the muddy salt and letting the wind whip my hair over my face, blowing the tears off my skin and into the air.

Pain cut through my heart and I stifled the sobs that were threatening to burst over from my tired lungs. I try to raise my hand to wipe the tears away; the wind is cooling them on my fevered skin. I already miss him though he is less than a hundred meters away from me. I know he won't stay, but in my mind I keep trying to convince myself that he will leave everything, let the universe fall into rack and ruin, for me. It won't happen, and I won't leave here for him. As much as I would love to go, to leave this behind, I can't. If I leave I will have no way of getting in touch with my mum, with Mickey, with my dad. I will be alone with a man that will never grow old but will have to watch me wither and die while he can do nothing to stop the march of time.

This universe is collapsing around us and I want nothing more than to beg him to stay, throw myself into his arms and beg him. But I can see in his eyes that he wants me to stay with him, he is thinking about asking me to stay. A slight mist is running over the rolling waves, sending slight plumes of spray inland and over me, the salty droplets landing on my face hide the tears that are threatening to spill over down my cheeks and onto the damp sand. The sun was a slight misted over orb that gave out less light than the bars falling out from the TARDIS windows on the flat landscape. The Doctor and his clone, identical to him in every way, stood together on the flat surface. I marvelled at his ability to keep strong when the world was falling down around his shoulder, for me the whole landscape was bucking and twisting beneath my feet. I could feel myself trembling and I turn away from them all before it becomes obvious, before my knees give out from the stress of having to stay upright and strong.

I will fight to stay with my Doctor, I will fight to keep him with me but I know in my heart that it will not happen because he has to go, he has to save the universe and I have to stay. I have to stay here and defend this world, a world without a Doctor, and a world in need of healing. I can fix his clone, I can make him better after his act of genocide, but it won't be the same, it never will be. I can't have him and he can't have me. But my heart feels wrenched in two because I can have someone exactly like him, identical in every way, and he has to go alone. Without me. In essence we are both alone, sentient beings forever alone as we walk the path of time, the paths diverging away from each other as time carries on.

In my mind I see his face in the point where we thought it was goodbye last time, how tears streamed down our faces in our parting moments. I knew what he was going to say but then he was gone, the hologram he had used to say goodbye flickering out of existence before we had a chance. And now I was losing him all over again, it was worse, the worst I have ever felt. My heart was being wrenched in two with invisible hands that were The Doctor's and his clones, I could feel them there, slowly tearing apart the muscle, my life's blood seeming to still. The Doctor walked past me and I can feel the tingling of the nerves in my hands when I went to reach for him but I gathered up the courage to pull back in the last moment.

I loved him. I loved him so much it hurt. My eyes felt prickly and painful with unshed tears that threatened to spill over and down my cheeks if I moved. He came around behind me and his fingers brushed mine lightly, his breath on the back of my neck moving the soft hair around my shoulders. I could feel his scorching gaze on me, smouldering brown eyes glaring at me even through my clothes. I loved him so much in that moment I knew nothing would ever compare to him, to everything he was and could ever be. He paused by me and whispered in my ear, his voice feather light and quiet so that no one around u could have heard, a moment shared between to two of us.

'I love you.'

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