So, it's not an one-shot. It's a story. Lol. Enjoy

"I'm sorry…"

"Edward!" Bella sighed. "I told you it's okay, please don't torture yourself."I was sitting on Bella's bed and she was on my lap, trying to convince me that everything was fine, that she did trust me.

But I didn't trust myself. I knew that I couldn't leave, or risk her trust anymore but I still kept thinking that I was so selfish, so weak to leave her. For once again I was convinced that I didn't deserve her at all. She had sacrificed everything, her human life, her friends, her family to stay with me and I couldn't be in pain to save her life.

"But I hurt you." I still couldn't wrap my mind around it. I couldn't help but feel so angry with myself, so furious. Protecting Bella was one my 'jobs' (not that I didn't enjoy it). I had sworn to myself that if someone hurt her I would rip them into pieces. And here I was… full and whole, without missing a hand or a leg.

"You're here now." She said.

"I'm sorry…"

"That's enough Edward Anthony Cullen!" she shouted exasperated, standing up. How the hell did she knew my middle name?

"How do you kn-" I started questioning her before my mind remembered a small, annoying pixie that was always disobeying my orders. "Alice!"

Bella had insisted on learning my middle name before, but I tried not to tell her by lying to her. Well, it wasn't s big lie; I just told her that I didn't have a middle name and –due to my amazing ability on acting- she had believed me. Or I thought that she had believed me. Obviously she hadn't; if she did she wouldn't have asked Alice.

Okay, truth to be told, I hated my middle name.

She giggled. "You wouldn't tell me so…"

"You asked Alice." I said trying to hide my anger and annoyance.

I suddenly felt regret at my harsh tone, as I saw her looking down, biting her lip. I had tried to break up with her and leave her alone in a dark forest and she wasn't even annoyed, and I, there I was, being angry because she learnt my middle name.

"Are you mad at me?" She said, pushing her hands on her jean pockets.

I sighed softly, feeling the remorse covering my body. I was in front of her in an instant, putting a cool finger under her chin, lifting it up so she could look at my eyes. "How could I?" I said leaning forward so I could touch her lips.

At first she was hesitant, as she always was when she tried to control herself but as the seconds passed she started getting more… excited.

I just let this madness go on for some more seconds before pulling back. I almost couldn't feel the burn in my throat, it was just a small noise in the background, but I couldn't help but be careful.

I smiled at her pouting expression and I pecked her lips once more.

I always felt so bad that I couldn't give her what she craved and desired. I tried to control myself as time passed by, trying to get used to her scent and to my big surprise, her scent didn't bother me as much as I thought it would. It was all about practice.

But I still couldn't let myself get too far with her. I was doing as much as I could, trying to see where my limits were, but sometimes I felt really shocked when I could not find a limit.

I reminded myself that if I had some more years with her, I would be able to go on with her and… fulfill my 'boyfriend-duties'. But that would take some time. Step by step, no more mistakes.

Bella wrapped her hands around my neck, standing on her toes so she could reach my lips and I just couldn't… resist her. I bent down, kissing her lips once more but this time she tried to control herself, knowing that if she didn't, this wouldn't last long.

This time I tried to give her as much as possible, as long as the burn in my throat was controlled. I just enjoyed the moment, getting lost for a minute before I heard something that made me pull back. I… some food… rest… work is gettin'…nerves… exhausted.

I couldn't catch all of his thoughts, Charlie's mind worked pretty much as Bella's. But I tried to make a sense out of it. He must have been really exhausted from work and all he wanted to do was get some sleep and eat.

"Charlie's home." I warned Bella, as I heard the key turning into the lock.

"Oh." She blinked, taking a step back.

I just waited for her, as she took some deep breaths to calm herself, patting her hair and straightening her clothes.

"Should I leave?" I said, looking at the window.

I wanted to stay, more than she would ever know, but maybe she didn't feel comfortable, telling Charlie that she had spent the day with me in her room.

"No!" She gasped, her eyes widening. I wasn't ready for her reaction, her heart pumped faster than usual, too fast that it worried me and in an instant her hands were around my neck, hugging me against her. "Please, don't."

My eyes widened. I hadn't imagined that what I said in the forest would affect her like this. I was so worried as her pulse didn't slow. I just wanted to keep her in my arms for a while, telling her that everything is okay. I wrapped my arms around her waist, holding her against me, as her arms tightened around my neck. "It's okay, Bella. I will stay."

I felt her nod in my shoulder, taking a step back. However, I didn't let go of her waist.

She seemed much better now, but I couldn't help but feel worried and extremely guilty that I caused that to her. "Are you okay?"

I hated seeing her like this; every cell of my body seemed to break down every time this look of hurt crossed her face; and knowing that it was me that caused that to her made it even harder. In my long existence, I thought that I would be able to put my mistakes right, I thought that I would be convinced that I wasn't a monster anymore.

But all these efforts collapsed in that moment that I saw her hurt look. How could I be convinced that I wasn't a monster after I did this?

"I just overreacted." She shook her head.

"I'm not going anywhere, I promise." I was pleading with her, looking into her eyes. I was sure that my look was burning, I had no intention of making my look so intense but I couldn't help it. Every time that I looked into her eyes, something like a fire full of passion and love was growing in my chest, causing my intense look.

"I know." She sighed softly, resting her head on my chest. I pressed my lips on the top of her head, feeling the fragrance of her skin blinding my senses. I had never imagined that I would love strawberry so much. The smell of strawberry in combination with her scent made the fragrance even sweeter, the sweetest thing I had ever smelt.

I could feel my throat burning a little more, it didn't bother me too much, but I wouldn't risk my angel's safety. I took a step back. "Charlie…" I reminded her.

With a small smile, she took my hand in hers, dragging me behind as she half-ran the stairs. I could feel the worry rising in me once again, considering her not-too-good-balance.

Thinking of something quickly, I pulled my hand out of hers, resting my arm around her waist instead. "That's better." I muttered to myself. She kissed my cheek in response and I could feel the electric stings that her full lips left on my skin.

"Dad!" Bella called, as we entered the living room, finding him sitting on the couch, watching baseball games, as always.

Bella? "Hey, Bells. I thought you were in the forest…?"

And that was when I understood that I had forgotten to remove the note from the fridge. Damn it, damn it, damn it! Bella bit her lip in confusion and I decided to take matters on my own hands, so Charlie wouldn't suspect anything. "Yes, actually, we did, sir." I said in the kindest tone I could manage. To be honest, Charlie didn't particularly like me after Bella had to leave the house because of James. He always eyed me with a look of disgust and sometimes… hatred. I tried to pretend that I didn't notice, but I couldn't help but be sad that he regard me like that. I felt sad that Bella's father didn't trust me, at all. "We came back some minutes before. Obviously, Bella forgot to remove the note." I smiled a little, trying to convince him.

"Is that so, Bells?"

"Of course, dad." She nodded.

Hmm… I wonder… Oh, well. I was glad that he let it go; I didn't want him to remind Bella of the forest events. "I ordered pizza, kids. It should be here in some minutes."

I was about to refuse, using an excuse, as I always did when he suggested eating together, but Bella spoke. "Actually, dad we have already eaten. Sorry." I was surprised at her acting… I almost believed her.

And then her words sank into my mind. We have already eaten? She wouldn't eat?

"That's okay, Bells." He shrugged. "So what are you guys up to?"

I looked at Bella, not sure how to answer this question. It was up to her after all. "We were about to go shopping at the supermarket, actually."

"That's fine. We are running out of milk and coffee, by the way."

As we walked outside, I could see that Bella was tensed, her eyebrows were knitted together and her lips pursed. At an instant, I understood what this was about. "Forget it, Bella. I drive and we're taking my car."

"Come on, Edward! You're always driving!" She complained, stopping in front of her truck.

"Bella we need to be back before midnight!" I teased her, making my expression serious. She seemed to like that game. She pretended to be hurt and mad. Oh God I loved her.

"I don't drive so slowly!"

"Bella. I. Will. Drive."

"No, you won't."

"Yes, I will."

"No!"

I enjoyed it as much as she did and I tried to control the smile that threatened to appear on my face. "I will make a deal with you."

"Bring it on."

"Well, you will drive, but I get to buy you the Audi."

Her jaw tightened in the word 'buy' and she sighed in defeat, walking to my car.

I smiled.

We were on our way when I remembered what she had told Charlie. "When we come back, you will eat." I ordered.

"I am not hungry."

I couldn't believe my ears. I did everything to keep her safe and she was making it extremely difficult. I wouldn't lt hr die of hunger. "Bella you didn't eat at school either."

She sighed. "Edward, really, I am not hungry."

I shook my head, taking a deep breath. I knew that her stubbornness wouldn't let her give in. I didn't know how to explain it right. "Bella, I don't know much about human diet" I started. "But I do know that a bowl of cereals won't keep you strong for a whole day." I said, looking at her. While I studied medicine, I had learnt a lot about humans but I didn't quite care. But when Bella came into my life, I wished I had. "You're too precious to me to let you collapse from starving. When we get back, you eat."

She sighed in defeat. I knew that when I pleaded with her like that she couldn't refuse. "Fine."

Later at the Supermarket.

I was behind Bella, her back on my chest and my hands over hers pushing the trolley down the corridors. She would stop, occasionally, when she saw the thing she needed.

I watched as she stretched her hand and took a bottle. I read the label. Baby Oil? What the hell was a baby oil?

"Bella, what's a baby oil?" I said as we started walking again.

Bella chuckled. I felt ridiculous, asking her what a baby oil was, but I was just so curious. I almost blushed when she looked at me strangely. I was a vampire that existed for more than a hundred years, I have read thousands of books, I knew at least 7 languages, and there I was, trying to understand what a baby oil was.

Obviously, it was something for babies. But Bella didn't have a baby…

"It's oil for babies."

"Obviously! Why would a baby need an oil more…different than the adults?" I said, leaning forward to press my cheek against hers, resting my chin on her shoulders.

I was trying to understand… Did the oil that adults used to eat, caused… problems to the babies? I couldn't get it… The liquid in the bottle didn't look like oil, though. It looked more like… water.

I was even more confused when she started laughing again. "Edward, it's not cooking oil!"

"Isn't it?" I was even more confused, if that was possible. I had no idea what she was talking about and I would not let it go. I was extremely curious.

"No, Edward." She said, softly. "Baby oil is used on baby's skin. It's anti-allergic because their skin is sensitive."

I felt like a complete full as she explained. Thank God I was human and she couldn't see me blush. "And why do you buy baby-oil?"

She shrugged, pretending to be comfortable but I could hear her pulse and see her blush. I leaned forward, kissing her warm cheek, feeling the blood pumping there. "Grown-ups can use it, too, to keep their skin softer."

I remembered all the times that I had touched Bella, feeling the soft skin, thinking of it affected me. "Let's buy more!"

So, Edward couldn't get all of Charlie's thoughts. In midnight sun he didn't. There are some stories that are so perfect and when Charlie appears, Edward can listen to his thoughts and then the story is spoiled. :/

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