Broken Pieces Chapter 2: Poke in the ribs, a life with derek fanfic

Disclaimer- I own nothing … well some books on my bookshelf but really that is about it.

I know Derek is slightly out of character right now but he will be more in character soon and he is a lot older so he is a lot more mature in ways. Also I realize that they being together is illegal and I do plan on talking that later on like in several more chapters but for now they are just Casey and Derek step sibs…for now laughs evilly Also Derek is 23 and Casey is 16 so they are 7 years apart i think yes i just counted which isnt so bad and i was going to have Casey a little older but i couldn't because of the length i want the story to be so yeah.

Chapter 2

It had been two weeks since Casey had come to live with Derek and things were going seemingly okay. She wasn't any trouble at all. Derek had told his father this but his father had since he should just wait and see if he was really ready to get cocky about this because it wasn't as easy as it seemed. When he came back one day he went to her room to check up on her. Her door was wide open and he went in. She was sitting on her bed with a laptop that he hadn't seen before. He looked around her room and saw that she had decorated it. There were posters for different musicals including Wicked, Footloose, and Hairspray. There was a bulletin board on one of her walls with from what he could tell pictures of different people probably her friends. She turned and looked at him then.

"Hey," he said.

"What's up," she said.

"Nothing…I didn't know you had a laptop," he said.

"Don't worry it's not internet capable I don't get to have it connected until my mom and George think I deserve it," she said almost angrily.

"Hmmm," he said.

"May I help you," she said.

"No I'll just leave you to your devices then," Derek said leaving and closing the door behind him. He went into his room kicking off his sneakers. He went into his and Casey's shared bathroom and took a quick shower his mind wandering to Casey. He felt bad for her. From what he had seen these past two weeks she didn't the punishment she was being given. As far as he could tell she hadn't deserved the obvious isolation their parents where trying to create around her. He made a decision then that could either backfire in his face or help him out a lot but hopefully it would get her to trust him. He got out of the shower and got dressed. He was making dinner when she came out and set the table. After they ate she got up to leave but he held up his hand for her to wait.

"What," she said.

"Here," he said handing her his laptop. She took it looking at him then placed it on the table a look of disgust on her face and she started to walk away. He stared at her confused.

"What are you doing," he said.

"I'm not an idiot," she said.

"Who said you were," he said confused. She spun around and looked at him her eyes held so many emotions he wasn't sure what was going on in her head.

"Obviously you do," she said.

"What is wrong with you I was trying to help," he said.

"Yeah you were trying to help my ass. I know exactly what you were going to do. As soon as I got off that thing you were going to go in the history and find out what I was doing and who I was talking to I am not an idiot," she said close to tears.

"Casey oh my god you are giving me way too much credit I am not that smart," he said laughing walking so he was close to her but she backed away.

"This isn't funny," she said. He could see the hurt in her eyes but also anger.

"Casey what happened to you," he said and she looked at him once before turning and running to her room slamming he door shut behind her. A few minutes later her radio was blaring. He went over to her door and almost knocked but didn't. He turned around and sat on the floor outside her room leaning against her door. He listened to the song coming from her room. He was surprised by the song it was Good Charlotte's Dance Floor Anthem.

She's going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there's more
Than he gave she's looking for

He calls her up
He's tripping on the phone
Now he doesn't want her out there and alone
Now he knows she's moving it
Knows she's using it
Now he's loosing it
She don't care

Everybody
Put up your hands Say:
"I don't wanna be in love, I don't wanna be in love"
Feel the beat now
If you've got nothing left say:
"I don't wanna be in love, I don't wanna be in love"
Back it up now
You've got a reason to live say:
"I don't wanna be in love, I don't wanna be in love"
Feeling good now
Don't be afraid to get down say:
"I don't wanna be in love, I don't wanna be in love"

He was always giving her attention
Working hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
By most sucka's hated
That girl was fine
But she didn't appreciate him

She calls him up she's tripping on the phone
Now he had to get up and he ain't coming home
Now he's trying to forget her
That's how he got with her
When he first met her
When they first got together

To the beat
To the beat
To the beat

You got nothing to lose,
Don't be afraid to get down

We break up it's something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It's okay
Let it go
Get out there and find someone

It's too late to be tripping on the phone here
Get off the wire
Now everything is good here
Stop what you're doing
You don't wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
Find a new one

No
No

Now you know what to do
So come on
Feeling good

He fell asleep there listening to the song and if he didn't know better he would have thought he could hear Casey crying.

"Its okay Casey its okay," he muttered as he fell asleep. The next morning he woke up to her standing over him poking him with her sneaker.

"What," he said groggily.

"We need to go to the grocery store," she said. That is how he ended up about an hour and half later in the grocery store with Casey. She wasn't speaking to him as far as he knew although that didn't stop her from putting things in the carriage not that he cared. They were in the meat section and she was looking away when he heard her breath in sharply. He watched as she looked down the section at a tall lanky boy with dirty blond hair who didn't notice her at first but when he did the shock was evident on his face. He mouthed her name almost as if he dare not say it aloud. Casey almost as if she had forgotten about Derek walked toward the boy. As soon as she was in arms length the boy brought her close hugging her tightly. Casey hugged him tight and he heard her speak.

"Nathan oh my god Nathan," she said. Derek realized then that he was probably Nathaniel. The boy let go of Casey and studied her then.

"Casey you're here," he said.

"Yeah I am," she said.

"PJ went to your house and talked to your sister umm Lizzie but she said they sent you away after..," Nathan said his voice trailing.

"Yeah well after my little stunt my mom thought it would be best if I left said I was getting poor influence from my friends like it was your guys fault," Casey said wiping away tears.

"I feel like it was our fault Casey everything," he said looking down.

"How was it your fault Nate what were you going to do," she said.

"I could have saved you I could have listened instead of just telling you to forget but I didn't want to remember him I needed to forget," Nathan said.

"Nathan I am so sorry but I just couldn't forget when he left it was like he took a piece of me with him and I just couldn't handle it. I just wanted to stop feeling I wanted to do like you said to get rid of him out of my head but no matter what I did he was still there everywhere I looked," she said.

"And now?" he said.

"And now I don't know what to do it wasn't supposed to go so far," Casey said and Derek could hear the pain in her voice even from where he was but he didn't move pretending to read the label on the chicken in his hand.

"How is everyone else," she said.

"Everyone is okay. They really want to see you though," he said.

"Yeah well I don't know when that will be possible but maybe I can try and be good and I'll get some free time form the wardens," she said and he laughed.

"Yeah well be good okay and take care of yourself," Nathan said hugging her again.

"We can't lose you too Casey," Nathan whispered in her ear.

"Bye Nathan later days," she said and Nathan grinned at her.

"Later days Casey," Nathan said walking away. Casey slowly walked over to Derek who was still pretending to read the chicken package. After about a half hour they finally left the store. Once home Derek finally brought up Nathan.

"So that was Nathaniel," he said and he saw the shock go across her face.

"Yeah it was," she said trying to keep her voice steady.

"You going to tell me what he had to do with the mess you're in or not," Derek said.

"I am not in this mess because of him," she said angrily.

"Well he is on the list for a reason," Derek said.

"Yeah because my mother is completely clueless about my life so she figured cutting off anything around me would help," she retorted.

"So it's your mom's fault," Derek said.

"Yeah maybe it is maybe if she wasn't to busy being super mom and super wife to everyone but me maybe this would have never had happened," Casey said looking at him her whole body shaking in anger.

"So if she spent more time with you everything would be okay," Derek said calmly.

"I didn't need her for that much all I needed was for her to be there for one space of time. For her to be there for me for one minute telling me it would be okay," Casey said.

"Telling you what would be okay?" Derek said. He was standing in front of her now.

"Everything. I just needed her to realize for once I needed her to be there. My life was falling apart and she didn't even notice until she found me on my floor almost dead," Casey said.

"What are you talking about," he said.

"I tried to kill myself Derek I tried to kill myself so I wouldn't have to deal with it anymore so I wouldn't have to deal with everyone telling me to forget about it," Casey said sobbing. Derek moved forward then and wrapped his arms around her.

"Sshh Casey you can stop now it's okay," he said.

"No it's not," she said sobbing.

"Why did he have to die he wasn't supposed to he promised me he would fight it he promised he would okay but he wasn't and I sat there and watched him die," she said sobbing in Derek's arms.

"Who died Casey who died?" Derek said.

"Patrick he had leukemia but he was doing so good until suddenly he just collapsed one day," she said pulling away from him staring off as if she could see it.

"There was nothing they could do he died the next day and I was holding his hand. I loved him more than anything," she said her eyes hollow as she looked at Derek.

"Casey I…" Derek said.

"Don't know what to say huh no one did. I had been dating him since freshman year and all of sudden like that he was gone. Nathan was his best friend but Nathan had his own way of dealing with it he just didn't talk about it he wanted to forgot but I couldn't. I went around and all I could do was think about him all I could was hurt and I just go so tired of it Derek. I started drinking and that helped it got rid of the pain for a little while but it always came back and I stopped being numb so I just keep drinking more and more. But after a while it was enough so I just decided it would be better if I just stopped it all if I just cut out all the pain and end it all," she said and he realized what she had done.

"You cut yourself so you wouldn't have to remember," he said and she nodded sadly.

"Now you finally know my little secret Derek does it make you feel any better knowing," she said.

(A/N So yeah that was a hard chapter to write because someone very close to me has dealt with both issues drinking and cancer so I wanted to approach it very delicately. Hopefully you guys are okay with it. In the next chapter things will some down a little and the healing process for Casey will really start. Reviews appreciated because I love reading them. Also i just wated to stay this because i am bored i offiaclly hate turkey so yeah just a little info for you.)