I could barely see straight as I drove through the small town of Forks at dangerous speeds. There was so much on my mind, it was as if my thoughts were warring with themselves. Fighting for dominance over which thought was more painful.

They all were to be honest.

Pictures of him, of us fighting assaulted my senses as I drove down the street toward my childhood home. By the time I pulled into the driveway I could barely hold it together, sobs were bubbling up my chest and out my mouth violently.

It was all I could do to get the car stopped before I crashed into something. Once I had the car stopped Johnny was out the door at full speed.

"Bella! Bella baby what's wrong?" He asked in a panic as he ripped the door open, almost ripping it off the hinges in the process.

He grabbed me in his arms and held on tight, consoling me as best as he could without really knowing why I was so upset.

"Baby what happened?" he looked me in the eye and stroked my cheek to fight away the tears.

"I just saw the bitch from hell." I rasped in a strangled tone of voice as I looked up at him with a red blotchy face and bloodshot eyes.

He looked at me slightly confused but continued to stroke my hair and rock me slightly even though I was still in the car and buckled up.

"And who would that be exactly?" I looked up into his eyes and let a few more tears slip before I spoke finally.

"Esme Cullen."

It was almost like flipping a switch, because as soon as the words left my mouth his eyes grew wide and anger took over his every feature. His eyes were furious, his lips were pursed tightly together and his hands balled into fists. One rested on my thigh while the other rested against the open car door frame.

"What did she say? Was there anyone else? Where did you see her?"

"Johnny calm down! It was just her, I ran into her at the drug store. Alistair was there so don't worry, she wasn't threatening or anything…she just told me to expect a visit from Alice the next time I am in Forks. She was very condescending."

He let out a gust of air and leaned his forehead against his arm to try and calm himself down. I slipped my seat belt off and turned so that my legs were now outside of the car and I was facing him fully. I then began stroking his hair soothingly to try and calm him down, Johnny has one hell of a temper and it does not need to be unleashed right now.

"You didn't see any other Cullen?" He mumbled against his arm, still not looking up at me.

"No, just her. And believe me when I say I would rather have seen anyone else. I'd rather of seen Alice than her, and Alice and I did not leave each other on good terms."

"Did any of you leave on good terms Bella? I mean really?" his head snapped up, his eyes trained on mine.

"Carlisle and I did." I replied sullenly while looking down somewhat guiltily. He knew Carlisle and I were the only ones whom were able to maintain a relationship after everything that happened.

Carlisle was one of the only ones who had truly cared enough about me to maintain contact.

"Can you drive home?" I asked suddenly, causing his head to shoot up like a rocket. Concern deep in his eyes.

"You don't wanna stay for a little longer?"

"I just….I'm really tired Johnny, the trip took a lot out of me. If we stay I won't be much company." I don't want any of them worrying about me, but with everything I've been through it's inevitable.

"Okay baby, you jump in the passenger seat and I'll go grab Chase and tell everyone we're leaving."

I nodded my head weakly and did as he said, keeping my hand on the car all the way to the other side just so that I wouldn't fall over. I didn't even notice Johnny's eyes on me until I was sitting in the passenger seat.

The look in his eyes said it all….he was scared for me. Yeah, well I was scared for me too but I was more afraid for my son. I haven't gotten my test results back yet, and it makes me nervous because I haven't felt like this since I was sick the first time.

I rubbed my right shoulder where my tattoo was as I laid my head back on the seat, I was so tired. Before Johnny ever came back or anyone came to say bye I was out like a light.

Sitting in the middle of the living room cross legged, my jeans, heels and scarf long gone and replaced by jean shorts, leg warmers, and a grey beanie. I was busy sifting through the many boxes that we have yet to get halfway through. We have been home for a few hours, I slept the whole way here and another hour after we got home, so to say that I was behind is an understatement.

Johnny and Chase got most of Chase's bedroom unpacked and it looked really cute. It was dinosaur themed just like back in Chicago except I had it painted a different color. There were two boxes left in his room but it was already past his bedtime so I made him go to sleep with promises that he could finish tomorrow. That appeased him easily.

Thankfully.

"Hey you find the blankets and pillows yet?" Johnny asked as he strolled into the room, sipping on his beer.

"I'm trying, I found the movie and book boxes though. I swore I put a blanket in one of them but I thought wrong."

"I thought you labeled all the boxes B?"

"I did but I think some of them got mixed up. Because I can't find the living room decorations, or the furniture stuff so I think that they might have been put in another room by accident. Besides, a box that is supposed to be in my bedroom was in the kitchen so I am sure we will be finding mix matched boxes for a while." I said with an annoyed eye roll.

This shit would take forever to unpack, probably more than a month. And Chase can't help with everything because there is a lot of breakables. We have all new bedroom furniture and living room furniture so it isn't like we had any heavy lifting like that to do. It's just getting the right boxes in the right rooms along with putting everything where I want it and where it needs to be.

"Well don't stress over it, how about tomorrow we start with Chase's room since it is almost done and then have Charlie or Garrett come and take him for the day and then you and I can go through all the boxes and make sure they are in the right rooms and then we will get with the game plan on what rooms to tackle first. Between the two of us I am sure we can finish before the month ends."

I looked up at him from my spot on the floor and couldn't help but smile. He was so sweet, he always knew how to talk me down…always knew the words to say.

"Thanks Johnny." I leaned my head all the way back and puckered my lips for a kiss. He chuckled adorably before stepping over to plant one on me. He pretty much had to bend all the way at the waist, but hey I was sitting on the floor for crying out loud.

"Anytime sweetie, and hey I saw that new flat screen in your room. Why don't I have one in mine?"

I scoffed as I got up off the floor with his help.

"Because I wasn't paying three thousand dollars for flat screen TV's."

"How much was yours and the one here in the living room?" he asked with wide incredulous eyes. Yeah look at me like that buddy, I wasn't the one who spent five grand on a TV, gaming system and a surround sound.

"Collectively a thousand, two hundred and fifty dollars. Daddy and Garrett got me a good deal, the small flat screen in Chase's room was only two hundred but Garrett bought that. Said it was his welcome home present from uncle Gar." I said with an eye roll as I made my way into the kitchen to grab a bottle of water.

"Damn, what else did those two buy for a welcome home present?" John asked with a smirk as he leaned across the counter. Eyes never leaving my form as I stood across him sipping my water.

"Let's see…Chase's TV, dad bought me a new book shelf, two actually so now I have four, um, Garrett bought a few pictures for my room and my office. They didn't get you shit, and there is a few other things that I just can't think of right now."

I couldn't help but to giggle slightly, I mean I couldn't help myself I had to say it. And the look on his face right now was all the satisfaction that I needed. He was just too easy, his eyes were hard as he squinted at me, those nostrils flaring.

"That was cold Bells…I mean ice cold."

"You'll live." I mumbled as I screwed the cap back onto the bottle.

He was about to make a smart ass remark when he was interrupted by my phone going off. It played 'This Love' which was Alistair's old ringtone. I answered eagerly, I miss my boys so much and I was so excited to see him today. Hopefully I will be able to get together with him and Mir soon.

"Hey long time no see stranger." I greeted with a smile as I leaned up against the counter.

"Hey beautiful, I talked to Miracle a little while ago and he was ecstatic to find out that you were back. Wants to see you as soon as possible." I could hear the smile in his voice even though I couldn't see him.

"I would love that Al, when can you guys meet up? I'm free for a while I don't start my new job here for another month or two so that I can get settled."

"I'm off Monday and so is Mir, that sound okay with you?"

"Sounds great to me, wanna meet here in Seattle or?" Please say Seattle, please say Seattle.

"Seattle because after today I don't want you to have any more run ins with any of the Cullen's until you are ready. Cause I'll tell ya baby girl, I was about as shocked as you were when she walked in that door, she never comes into the Pharmacy, it's always Carlisle so I have no idea why she chose today of all days to come in."

"Hey don't worry about it, I'm alright. No harm no foul. So where would you guys want to meet up or would you just want to come over to the house? I would much rather be in a more private environment you know?"

He was quiet for a moment, he knew how I was when it came to crowds and being around so many people. But, he also knew me better than anyone and so he could hear the nervousness in my voice as I spoke. And after the way today went, he could tell something was up, hell he could tell something was up when I wouldn't call them.

"Yeah that would be great Bells, just send me your address and we will be there Monday."

"Okay sounds good, I'm gonna head off to bed but I will text it to you in the morning okay?"

"Alright baby sounds good, love you Bells."

"Love you too Al, night."

"Night."