Chapter 2; First Meetings & Impressions.

I got out of the car and rubbed my sweaty hands on my jeans.

My hand was trembling while opening the large wooden door and I was feeling my nerves return in full force.

Opening the door I was greeted with dimmed lights and a really seductive environment. Slow music could be heard reverberating through the halls.

This was awkward; I was already regretting my decision to come here. I mean I knew that I wasn't the most social; person on planet and yet of all the things I could have done I decided to attend a BDSM function. I felt like a fish out of water. I must have been insane; shy little Bella coming to BDSM party.

'This is so not my scene' I whispered to myself. My voice quivering as I stood as still as a statue.

"Really? And what is your scene?"

I looked up to see a blonde man towering over me; he was wearing black pants and was shirtless. He had an amused expression on his face.

He spoke again. "Darling' you don't have to look at me like I am an axe-murderer. Take a deep breath."

I hadn't noticed that I wasn't breathing. Great start Bella.

He spoke again "So whose sub are you?"

My eyes widened in shock as I stuttered, "No, I-I mean th-that I am al-alone."

He raised an eyebrow, "A young girl coming alone to a play party without any prior experience is just inviting trouble, do you realize that?"

My eyes grew wide. "I didn't know that coming alone isn't allowed. I am sorry."

He chuckled. "You do realize that you'd make an excellent sub don't you? Hun, I am pretty sure that Cumming alone without your Dom is truly not allowed, not to mention the lovely spanking you'd receive."

My cheeks heated up with his innuendo.

His eyes sparkled with amusement, "Whoa. Would you look at that blush! Alright Darling, I'll stop teasing you. The thing is that escorts are encouraged so that any newcomer will not be harassed by anyone. Okay? I am Alec and I didn't mean to frighten you."

"I am Bella"

"Bella, that's a lovely name, anyways you are very welcome to my house and I hope you find what you are looking for. But right now I have my sexy sub waiting for me to whip her hard, so I'll leave you to it but do approach me if there's something you need or want" Alec smiled warmly.

"Thank you, you have a lovely house"

"You're welcome Hun." He said walking away.

I turned at the party feeling much better after talking to Alec, he was sweet.

Everywhere there were demonstrations going on, some subs were being whipped by riding crops while some of them were having a show in orgasm control... all these were arousing me to the extent of discomfort. I had to fight the urge to stick my hand in my jeans and relieve the tension. Every sub was being cared for by their dominants. I envied them; they were cherished by their Doms while I had no one to call my own, not even a cat. Now that I was here, I had no idea of what to do, I mean do I approach a Dom or did they seek me out?

'There's hardly any chance of anyone seeking you out, you are nothing, just an average girl who thinks she can be a good sub. Gosh, why would anyone want you when they can have gorgeous beauties? Huh!' My mind snarked at me.

I knew I wasn't beautiful but it hurt when your own brain considered you nothing but trash. My self esteem was definitely lacking. I walked towards the bar, hoping some alcohol in my bloodstream would help me to loosen up.

"One dirty Martini," I told the bartender.

"Dirty Martini for an innocent girl? Seems odd doesn't it?"

I looked to my side to see who had spoken and had to do a double take. The man beside me was the definition of Adonis. He had sexy tousled hair which was of reddish copper color. He had emerald green eyes which sparkled like those of a predator stalking its prey and his lips were curled up into a smirk.

Crap! I had been caught staring at him. He chuckled at my embarrassment as my cheeks (heated) burned up. Out of the majority of the people at the party, he seemed overdressed with a pair of black slacks and a black jacket with a white shirt underneath.

He moved closer to me, I still wouldn't look at him. My heart began to pound.

"Now, now. Don't be embarrassed. But if it makes you feel better I'll stare at your body, after all you did ogle mine." He looked at me as if I were something to eat.

"So, what is someone like you doing here?"

"Someone like me…What the hell is that supposed to mean?" I asked.

"Tut Tut" He clicked his tongue, "Pretty little girls like you should not misbehave. It just gives someone like me a greater chance of spanking that delicious ass of yours till it's red and stinging." He was still smirking.

I gulped and was thoroughly confused by my reaction to this man.

I mean he had just reprimanded me and all I could do was to refrain myself from rubbing my thighs together to alleviate the aching tension.

"I am sorry." I apologized to him.

He smiled, "That's much better, my dove. Now tell me, how come you are here and don't argue, but you look incredibly out of your element so I am venturing a guess that this you're your first BDSM event is it not?"

"Yes, well I was curious and interested in this lifestyle, so I thought I'd check it out."

"Really? And what is your opinion of the BDSM community, do you also think that we are some cruel bastards who get off on beating women?"

My eyes widened, the last thing I wanted was to offend someone, "N-no, I didn't say that."

To my disbelief he chuckled, "You my love didn't have to say anything." His hand cupped my cheek. "Your beautiful doe eyes are expressive enough, and they show fear. Are you afraid of our community?"

Suddenly his mouth was directly exhaling warm breath over my ear. "Or is that fear reserved for me? Because I have to say dove, you fearing me turns me on like nobody else ever has."

He grasped my hand and placed it directly over his crotch. I couldn't help but gasp; he really was aroused if the humongous bulge in his pants was any indication.

'Shit, Shit, Shit'

He really needed to cut this shit out otherwise I was going to end up destroying my panties.

He spoke again, "you feel that little girl? Now if you were mine, I would tell you to kneel here and then fuck your mouth in front of everyone so that each person here would know who you belong to." He moved his hand to the crotch of my jeans and rubbed his thumb firmly over it. My breathing sped up. "Like that don't you? I can practically feel your juices on my finger. Tell me little one, would you like me to make you cum? Huh. You would wouldn't you? I am pretty sure I can have you begging for my cock in no time."

He cupped my sex through my jeans making me moan loudly at the sensation.

This man was making me lose my mind. I wanted my release so badly that I started to move my hips against his finger but he stopped abruptly, grasping my chin tightly he pulled it towards his face and stared at me.

Uh-oh. What did I do?

"Never, ever think that you can cum without my permission. I did not tell you to rub against my hand did I? No I didn't so you should not attempt it. If I wanted that, I would have informed you. But I didn't, so don't make me punish you when I am in a good mood. Clear?"

I nodded dumbly at him, my mind spinning with the abrupt change of his mood.

Yeesh! If this was him in a good mood, I couldn't imagine what a bad mood will entail.

'Oh no, you seriously are not considering him as your Dom are you? How stupid can you be? Can't you see that he is a jerk and is wayyyyyyyyyy more dominating than you need? He will break your heart and crush it.'

But my heart was already in pieces so it didn't matter then did it?

I was brought out of my reverie by Alec.

"Oh Edward, you sure don't waste time do you? I see you've already snatched up Bella."

So, his name was Edward.

'Edward' turned to reply. "Couldn't help myself". He shrugged.

Alec sauntered over to us and smiled cautiously. "Well, I guess I should introduce you guys. Bella, this is the famous Edward Cullen. And Edward this is the gorgeous Bella."

Crap! Edwards Cullen? The architect?

What have I gotten myself into?

Alec turned towards Edward, "Ed, man be nice to her okay? It's her first BDSM event and I would appreciate it if you kept your asshole persona to yourself. Don't scare her."

Edwards laughed, "Alec, Its not my fault if I can't control my 'persona', as you call it, and I knew that she was here for the first time otherwise I would have noticed her before"

Alec then turned towards me, "Bella, frankly if Edward wants you as a sub than you are one in a million, because trust me he is one Dom that every sub wishes to have, not to mention the countless cat fights that have occurred because of it." He checked the time, "I have to go check on something, and I'll be back in a second."

I slowly turned back to Edward.

He smirked at me, "So Bella, What made you decide that you wanted to try out this lifestyle?"

"Well, lets just say that the other lifestyle wasn't working for me."

He raised an eyebrow at me, "Really? Not working out means that a normal guy couldn't make you cum, doesn't it?"

I flushed.

He laughed, "Bella, shyness does not work here. Alright? And if someone else couldn't make you cum, I am quite confident that I can."

My cheeks were burning bright by now. He certainly wasn't shy, maybe a little arrogant, but god help me, I liked it.

"Bella, tell me, are you really looking for a Dom?"

"Yes, yes I am."

A slow smile spread across his face, "That's awesome, now I would like to have lunch with you tomorrow to discuss the possibility of you submitting yourself to me, because I have a pretty good feeling that we'll be perfect for each other. Is that alright?"

Was this guy for real, I mean how could he want me?

'he does not want you, he wants someone to obey him.'

Breathing deeply I decided to ignore my brain.

"Yes, that's fine."

"Very well than."

We exchanged our office addresses.

Just as Edward was about to say something, his Blackberry rang, interrupting him.

He looked at it and sighed. "Bella, I am sorry but I have to take this. Don't go anywhere. I won't be pleased if I have to search for you." He walked away leaving me alone at the bar.

As soon as he left the bartender came to me." I wouldn't accept his offer, if I were you."

I looked up surprised that he had been listening to our conversation. "Why not?" I asked him.

He smiled, "Because you look like a nice girl and he is renowned for having a short attention span when it comes to girls."

I felt the anger build inside me, "you know nothing about me."

He rolled his eyes, "No but I do know Edward Cullen, and I am pretty sure that by now he is probably screwing someone."

I was appalled. This jerk had no right to make assumptions either about me or Edward.

I walked away from the bar intending to go and look for Edward.

The party was winding down due to the late hour but I couldn't find Edward anywhere.

Where the hell did he go?

I opened a door to reveal a couple engaged in a passionate embrace.

I was about to close the door when I noticed the man.

I gasped upon seeing it was Edward. He looked up and his eyes widened as he recognized me.

I staggered as the shock tried to settle into my confused mind. Just downstairs he was flirting and making plans with me and now he was hugging a gorgeous redhead, who unlike me actually looked like she deserved to be with him. I was worthless and 6 years hadn't made a difference to my status of being useless.

I ran all the way to the door tears clouding my vision.

"Bella wait I can explain."

I couldn't stop even if I wanted to. I ran all the way to my car still hearing him calling behind me. Unlocking my car I stepped inside and sped towards home, wanting to get away from him.

At reaching home I couldn't take it anymore and broke down, curling into the fetal position.

His words echoing in my mind.

"You bitch!You are nothing, absolutely worthless. You are lying to yourself if you think that anyone will ever love you! You are nothing but TRASH! You hear me? You'll never be more than rubbish or a piece of junk."

I cried myself to sleep that night, wishing I had never gone to that party, never met or liked Edward Cullen enough to trust him..