I'm sitting in the library, struggling through a particularly foul essay for potions. I'm absorbed in a book 'How to decipher antidotes from poisons' when I feel a sharp tap on my head, stupidly, I look up but feel someone slip beside me. Oh my God it's teddy. I try to keep down the blush rising in my cheeks, I manage to utter out
"Hi"
"Vic, why are you ignoring me?"
I try to look defiant and was about to proclaim a resounding 'no' but as I look into his eyes I see he's honestly upset
"I'm sorry; I'm just trying to forget about…what happened"
I open the book, excruciatingly aware of his thigh brushing mine, he's so close to me, I'm sure he can feel my heart thumping away madly because it's deafening to me.
"Victoire, I'm so sorry, I love you and all but just not in that way, but please can we go back to friends? I do miss you"
Surprisingly I find myself looking straight into his eyes, as much as I love him; I know our friendship is too important to lose.
"I'm sorry Teddy too, friends?"
I hold out my hand to shake and he takes it, we laugh and I make to pull away but he holds onto my hand, he swallows and I'm confused, then he's looking at me and really gazing into my eyes and I don't know what to do or think, my minds a blur and then
"Library's closing. Both of you. Out now."
He jumps and the moments lost, I quickly gather up my books and shove them in my bag. Together, we make our way back to the common room. It's noisy in there, I can see James entertaining a couple of his friends, I can't deal with it all, I say goodnight to Teddy and make my way upstairs, I can feel him staring at me and I turn around, hoping to catch his gaze but he's over by James. I frown slightly and go up to my dormitory. Here I can relax. In a daze I undress and slip into bed, I can't stop thinking about that moment but I know it's ridiculous. Hot tears spill onto the pillow as I remember what he said. He doesn't like me, I need to stop imagining he does otherwise it's going to drive me insane. I sigh and try to get to sleep my thoughts are whirring around my head.
I must have finally fallen asleep because I wake later, it's still dark outside, I can just hear the regular breathing of the girls in the room, I sit up and gasp. I can smell Teddy. At first I dismiss it but the dormitory door is slightly ajar and Rita is very finicky with having the door closed, the bed beside me is warm. My breath quickens but then I realize I'm being stupid, he wouldn't come to see me. I laugh sadly at the chance of anything like that ever happening and lie down and drift of slowly into a shallow sleep.