A/N: Here it is chapter two for you all!! ^^ cuz I couldn't just leave it like that right? And I'd like to know if you'd like something to happen, or if you've got any ideas, I'll just considerate them cuz I have already the story done, so I may just change details and stuff ;)

Chapter 2: The sexual orientation thing…

It was some time ago when Roxas asked me why I didn't kiss Larxene. Of course I told him it was cuz she didn't want me to, but then I had to sacrifice myself and start kissing her cuz, c'mon, what kind of couple would we be if we didn't kiss? Roxas would get all nosy. And I couldn't afford an eight year plan to ruin just because little Axel couldn't kiss a girl. Really they weren't real kisses, just… some lip motion, meaningless mouth connection.

Oh and just if you're wondering yes, Roxas did asked me once if we did it. And I can't believe you doubt the answer, of course! But it was just once and the context had been funny actually. It was this night we were watching a movie about… hey wait a minute, it would look suspicious if I just stood there spacing out for this long. So I turned the TV on and started zapping, not really paying much attention.

Well where was I? Oh yes the movie.

I told Roxas, in a joke tone, I was dying for some sex, and it was true, but sex with him. So he said "hey you've got Larx why don't you…" so I told him "no way that's disgusting" and he said I was a pussy and blah blah. So I told him "hey I'm not a coward Rox, we've already done it" just so he shut up. And long story short Larxene found out and she made me do it with her as a punishment for opening my huge mouth, she said.

"Hey Axel, what you say?" Asked Roxas coming out of his room and standing in front of me with an ashamed look.

He was wearing a sleeveless black shirt with black jeans and black and white vans… god I can't really express myself. Everything he touched, everything he looked at was holy for me. I can't describe the thoughts that came to my mind in that instant I saw him standing there expecting my answer, biting his bottom lip. It's just that moments like that one made me wish I was strong enough to confess, to be able to not hide my desire anymore, to just kiss him if I felt like doing so. Then I decided, Roxas was worth it, if I had to be strong for one time to have that, I would risk it all for him. I would confess that night.

But the rational part of my mind took me back to reality. That wasn't possible. Yes it is true that Roxas once said something about respecting homosexuals and even considering himself bi, but… if Roxas was the least bit interested in me he would have already mentioned it. He is straightforward, he is brave and isn't afraid of gossip. There was no way he would be interested in me. But I was there nonetheless, taking my hopes up just cuz he said he liked me, or cuz he hugged me when he was scared. I was a masochist I know, I couldn't leave him even though I knew someday he'd break my heart into so many pieces that it'd be impossible to put it back together. And the reason I was there was exactly moments like that. He was expecting, not a kiss, not a confession but me. Maybe he wasn't interested in me like a boyfriend but like his support, his advisor. The person he trusted the most. And if that made him happy, I'd be selfish if I didn't say that makes me euphoric, too.

"You're asking to get raped" I said flatly, it was the truth after all.

"You're an idiot" Yes he loved me so much. He called me such cute nicknames. 'Idiot' was his favorite, and mine. "No really, I think I look gay"

"Is that bad?" Was me talking out loud?

"Yes! C'mon I don't want to be out there looking gay!"

"Rox, you look good. Hey look at me! It's not like I look manly or something" I really hoped I didn't look manly… yuck! He ran his eyes up and down me slowly and smiled. He closed his eyes and shook slightly his head while turning and entering his room again.

Was that a bad sign? Did it mean 'you look too hot to describe' or 'you look beyond disgusting?' God, Roxas, he always left me in suspense, ugh! I was so gonna kill him. Well. At least this gave me the opportunity to stare at him without it looking weird.

I turned the TV off, it's not like Roxas was putting so much attention to what I was doing, and stood up. I entered the kitchen beside the living room and opened his fridge. He had a lot of food; I decided to take a piece of chocolate cake. I grabbed a fork and went to my place in the living room tasting the product of Roxas' hands. God, just imagining that I was licking directly his delicate fingers… mmh… oh no here it goes again ugh! I had to grab my jacket again. Heh little problem down there. However I had a piece of cake almost in my mouth when I looked up, Roxas was out again, expecting my opinion, and then my cake fell from my hand to my lap. God it was so embarrassing cuz he looked at me like a retarded and turned to watch his reflection on the mirror beside the TV.

"Yes I know I'm ugly but you didn't have to do such thing" He said calmly, it wasn't a joke, it wasn't serious… some kind of mix of both.

"Hey Rox I'm not acting, it's just that you look…"

Extremely fuckable. He was wearing a black and red sweater, and the black jeans from before with black vans. That's my definition of beautiful. Really, this kid needs some therapy. Ugly!? He!? He of all people should know he's not ugly at all! And I didn't say it cuz I was in love with him, nuh-huh. C'mon, blond soft hair, cute big blue eyes, soft pale skin. He was talented also. He was the fastest in the school; he won almost every competition and received diplomas. He was the most intelligent of his class, always having first places in everything. I can't imagine one single person saying he's useless or ugly at that.

"…what?"

"You look… nice" I said, really, I couldn't tell him what the words in my head were screaming, he would faint or something.

"Mmmh okay… but I think my hair's a mess" He whined falling beside me on the couch and burying his face in a cushion. "I'm a mess I won't be on time it's already… huh" He said checking the clock above the TV. "6.30pm!" Wow three and a half hours just waiting for him to get ready, a new record. I sighed and stood up; now that my problem was gone again I still had to clean the cake. "Say Axel…" He said standing up to sit on the coffee table in front of where I was, placing his chin in his hands. "Why are you so formal?"

Why? Because no matter what I wore I would always look weird beside him; his perfection would ruin me! Okay maybe no, not even Roxas could make me look ugly but still, it would be unfair, he would capture all the attention and I'd be forgotten…

"What? Is it too much?"

"Nah it's just that…"

"What?"

Oh no please, tell me he liked it, I spent so much money just so he looked at me, just a glance, that was all I was asking for.

A smile crossed his face as he looked at me funnily. "You never wear boots"

Yes he noticed! Yay! Yay! Yay! Wow this is the happiest day of my life!

"Well it was time for a change, and tonight seemed like a good time to start" I explained as he jumped to the bathroom and started brushing his teeth. He didn't answer right away. I spent the little time watching him brush his mouth and that perfect white line of teeth. He always closed his eyes and hummed a song while doing so, which gave me the opportunity to look at him.

After he washed his mouth and came back to the living room, I stood up, smiling at him and standing in front of him. He put his hands behind his back and smiled back at me.

"I'm ready" He said, the smile never leaving his face.

"Okay let's go"

"Huh…? Oh my god its true!"

"What?"

"You and I…"

Ding…dong

"…were going out tonight"

No, please tell me he didn't forget about tonight! Ugh this can't be happening. Why? Why me?

We stood there not moving, his eyes were locked in mines, but I couldn't look him in the eyes it was, hard, painful. How did he forget about it, huh? What did he think I was doing here dressed like this if it wasn't to go out with him? Didn't he mark it in the calendar with a big red circle like me?

After some time I noticed he wasn't going to open the door. I looked at him in the eyes finally and closed them not wanting to have those beautiful pair of blue orbs in my mind one more second, not like it was possible anyway.

"Hi, you must be Axel" Greeted the blonde girl when I opened the door. I stood there, resting on the doorway and my left arms across the little space of the door frame.

She was sweet, so feminine. She was petite and fragile, like a margarita or something; her eyes were big blue copies of Roxas'. Her hair almost white flew with the light wind from outside. She was smiling slightly and looking up at me sweetly. "Hey"

She stood there for I didn't move my body out of the way. That girl, that little pale monster had stolen my treasure, my blonde! He totally forgot about me just so he could go out with this!? C'mon I'm better, I'm stronger, and I bet you anything I'm more beautiful.

She looked up at me with a confused look on her watery eyes. Yes that was the only thing missing, she crying like a baby ugh!

"Hi Naminé" Greeted Roxas walking under my arm and hugging her. I didn't move an inch. "Your dress is very pretty"

"Oh thanks, heh" She thanked placing a lock of blonde hair behind her right ear, really, that dress wasn't that pretty, some purple dress and a white bag. She didn't fit with Roxas at all! Ugh this feeling was burning my chest; I had to close my eyes to stop shaking. If she weren't a girl, I would have punched the hell out of her!

"Axel…" Roxas turned to me taking Naminé's hand. He looked at me apologetically. I tried to move, really, to just say "hey don't sweat it" and leave but I couldn't. Why he, my best friend? The one I trusted almost all my secrets, who knew me up and down? Who shared all the bad moments and the good ones with me… why of all people? "Hey you can stay here if you want you've got your… key"

"Nah, just…" I said not looking at him and heading out. I walked passed them and got to my car. I had specially washed it so today wouldn't smell like cigarettes or alcohol for him. Everything for him. Every stupid thing I did was always meant for Roxas to like me. Every move was always worth it if Roxas wanted it. But I should have known better. Being his best friend was suicidal, I needed a shoulder to cry upon, and I needed it immediately.

A/N: Remember this is not over yet my friends ;) Aaaaaand there's still the best to come !!!