Full Circle
Chapter 2– Truth
AN: for this I have used Olivia's speech to Jake. I do have issues with that as I'm firmly on the fence on whether or not it was the truth or if she was saying it save Jake. I want to believe that it was all truth and Jake was coincidental but I just know Olivia and Jake will be back at it making me throw up. No copyright intended.
He's not here, why isn't he here? He's the best man he should be here. The press know he is the best man he needs to be here. Olivia sits around and looks at all the people coming into the church. Happy smiling faces. Is she really about to go through with this, ruining Vanessa's wedding for what? To leave with a man she doesn't love and break the one that she really wants to be with. Then it hits her, how many times has she been here? How many times has she thought she was doing the right thing because she thought she didn't deserve his love? To keep pushing him and pushing him to make what she is doing to him rational in her mind. She needs to talk to Jake.
Standing outside where the main event is taking place Olivia feels a sense of calmness that she hasn't felt in months.
'Liv what's going on?'
Olivia stares at him for a few minutes and thinks to herself how could I have almost been so stupid? How have I been so stupid? What I've been doing to Vanessa is the very thing I hated when I was with Fitz.
'I'm not doing this anymore Jake. This, whatever it is ends today. Marry Vanessa. I'm not leaving with you'. 'What happened did he get to you what did he say to you to change your mind? I love you Liv, I want you' Olivia wanted to laugh. Love. He thinks he loves her. 'This is me Jake. No, this can't be fixed. I think I want something, I think I want to be with you, be normal and Jake I cant be with you. It's not even that I cant I don't want to. So you should just be with her. Marry Vanessa. You're not good enough for me. You're weak. You need me too much. Need me to tell you what to do and how to feel and you were never an option to me. You're an escape. Someone to toy with. You're a yo yo. A booty call. A sidepiece and frankly its embarrassing that you still haven't realised after all this time that if we were together actually really together I would tear right through you. Destroy you. I'm not scared anymore. I may be horrible because I'm abandoning you because I always abandon you but I'm not scared. Not the least bit. You're wrong and pathetic. And you know what I could tell you 5 minutes from now that I want you that I want to save you and you would crawl back to me. Forgive me. Every single time. Do you honestly not know by now? I'm in love with Fitz. I don't love you Jake, I love him. When I'm with you all I think about is him. Fitz is who I choose he's who I will always choose. You're just a lesser version of him. A sad reminder of the man I truly deserve. If I couldn't make it work with him why the hell would you think I could make it work with you?'
Olivia finishes and feels relief flood through her veins. She finally said it. He looks sad, upset, hurt for a brief minute but then he gets this look in his eyes that tell Olivia it won't be that easy.
'Do you really think it going to be that easy Liv. That he is going to open his arms back up to you especially when he finds out what you did. What you've been doing'
'what are you talking about Jake' Olivia asks knowing full well what he is on about.
'I'm talking about where you actually went that night of the dinner, I don't think Fitz will be forgiving you when he finds out that you had an abortion behind his back, how only a couple of days later you called me and we slept together, how ever since then it's been me and you. That before you went to him last night you were with me and I was making you feel things you have never felt before. How I'm the only one that you run to. You say you love him but why am I the one you run to? If you love him so like you claim to why did you leave him?'
For the hundredth time in 24 hours tears were streaming down her face.
'How did you know about that?' she asks
'Being in the NSA does have its perks' he stated so calmly.
'So what you're going to blackmail to follow through with the plan'.
'Yes' he replies.
A million thoughts are running through her head, either way Fitz is going to hate her even more than what he already does. If she leaves she will never have another chance with him it will be over and maybe her secret will stay safe. If she stays she will have to come clean to Fitz about everything but maybe just maybe he will give her, no US another chance and she can really prove to him that it is him. It's always been him.
'Good luck being vice president Jake you're going to need it' and with that Olivia turned and walked away.