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Bella

"What's with the tattoos Bella?"

"What you don't like them?"

"I didn't say that. I'm just wondering why you got them."

"Because I could. Because I didn't have you telling me not too." My voice was cracking. I couldn't take this. I needed to shoot up. "Edward please why are you doing this? Why won't you just let me be happy?"

"Are you happy Bella? Does it make you happy to know that Charlie cries at night? Does it make you happy that you've completely ruined your life? Do the drugs really make you happy?"

I stared at him and then washed my hair. He handed me a towel when I turned off the water and I scrubbed myself dry. He handed me my clothes and I put them on. I needed to get out of here. I'd walk if he wouldn't drive me. I grabbed my wallet out of my jeans and shoved it in the pocket of the sweat pants I was now wearing.

I went for the stairs and Edwards arm shot out and blocked me. "Where you do you think you're going?"

"I'm hungry. Take me to get food." The words popped out of my mouth. But hey it was a good idea.

Edward nodded. Couldn't let the poor human starve I suppose. I looked at his eyes. They were coal black.

"You need to hunt."

"I'll be fine until the others get here." He grabbed my arm and led me to the car. I was getting twitchy and restless.

We drove to the diner but I refused to go in. Edward parked right in front of the diner and went to get me my food. He would catch me if I tried to run. He went inside and I made a show out of flipping through his CD's. I grabbed one and tried to take my wallet out with as little noise as possible. I hummed, hopefully it would distract him. Even if it didn't he would have to come out human slow. I took the little baggie of smack out of my wallet and dumped it on the CD. I didn't have time to make lines. I grabbed a rolled bill and brought the CD to my face. He saw me. I had maybe 10 seconds. It was gone in five. It was a fucking lot of smack but I knew it would take a few minutes to kick in. Shooting up was better. I flipped Edward off and he shook his head. There was no reason for him to come out here now. He got my food and came back out to the car.

"Are you fucking kidding me Bella? You couldn't resist for six fucking hours?" he was pissed. Poor Edward couldn't save me from myself.

"Come on Eddie boy. Have a little fun. Let's go get tattoos!" I was mellowing out. The twitching had stopped.

He sighed. "Eat some food Bella."

"I'm not hungry." I was never hungry anymore.

"No I guess you wouldn't be. So what was that Bella? Half a gram? You buy pure I'll give you that much. Where are you getting the money Bella? Stealing from Charlie? I mean you just snorted some good shit. What did it set you back? $100 bucks? More?"

I listened to Edward but I didn't care about what he was saying. I felt better now. My high was here and I felt calm. It hadn't been enough to give me a real jolt, just enough to keep me from crashing. I needed to find a way to get away from Edward before I started going down again.

He carried me into the house because I didn't care enough to move. The rest of them arrived three hours later. I was still riding my high, but it was more of a low now. Edward had done this to me; he deserved to see me like this. The others didn't. I loved them. It wasn't enough though. Not to make me stop. I needed the drugs.

Esme came to give me a hug but I just sat still and stared at everyone. Jasper was sending out waves of calm but I only smirked at him.

"Jasper no offense but your mojo has nothing on what I snorted." I gave him a jab of anger and he stepped back.

"Bella!" Oops I'd made Edward angry again. "You don't have to be a bitch. They want to help you."

"I don't think you understand Edward. I don't want help."

"You'll die. Alice saw it."

"Well thank fucking god. I mean before you left it seemed like I was always getting myself into near death experiences. I can't seem to die now even when I try."

I'd never seen a shocked vampire before but I had seven of them staring at me now.

"Bella please don't say things like that. We love you so much." It was Alice now. Yeah, send in the pixie. Don't play fair or anything.

"Alice you left too. You all left. And Edward wanted me to live. Well I'm sorry if I didn't choose the right kind of human life." I got up and walked out into the backyard. No one stopped me. I sat down on the big rock by the river. It was a good half an hour before someone came after me. I was losing my high.

"Hey Bells."

"Hey Emmett."

"So…how's life?"

I laughed, "I can't believe you just asked me that."

"You need to quit Bella."

"Oh Emmett. Quitting is easy. I've done it a hundred times."

"You need to try again."

"I'm not insane Emmett. That's the definition of insane you know. Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I don't expect different results anymore. I don't expect anything."

"Bella."

"Fuck you Emmett. What would you do if Rosalie left you huh? I don't know, maybe you could handle that. Maybe I could have handled Edward leaving. But imagine if you lost you family too. You're future. Because I was sure of my future Emmett. You guys were my future. And you all fucking left me."

"Bella we still are your future. Alice see's two things happening. You are either going to die or you will become one of us.

"Liar."

"He's not lying Bella." It was Alice and Jasper. I was cold and my arms hurt bad. Alice sat next to me and I laid my head down on her shoulder.

I didn't want to try to get clean. I just wanted another hit. One more line. But I knew it wouldn't happen with all of them here. I needed to play along. It would suck. Withdrawals sucked. But if I played along they'd leave again and I'd throw myself a party. Line after line. Shot after shot.

I nodded to Alice. She looked suspicious but she couldn't know anything. I was an addict. Of course I would think drugs were in my future.

Edward

Hearing Bella talk to Emmett had almost killed me. Because she was right, this was my fault. I left, I made my family leave. Maybe if she had still had them she wouldn't have done this. Our leaving had turned out to be more dangerous than if we had stayed. It hurt me to look at Bella, to smell her. She didn't look alive and she smelled…numb…was the best way to describe it.

I saw Bella nod to Alice in Alice's mind. She wanted to try to get clean. Thank god. They walked inside slowly. Bella was obviously uncomfortable.

She walked straight to Esme and gave her a hug and then she gave one to Carlisle. Emmett, Alice, Jasper and even Rose got hugs. She didn't even look at me. She sat on the couch; her fidgeting was getting worse by the minute.

Bella

It was still bearable, the pain wasn't too bad. I dug my nails into my thighs. Trying to draw blood. I wanted Jasper to bite me. The others would pull him off so he wouldn't kill me. I was betting that being a newborn still filled with human blood would be the only thing better than shooting up.

Edward had once compared the scent of my blood to heroin. I was Edward's own personal brand of heroin. It's funny how things work out.