Memories in a Garden
Nadeshiko's POV
You know, I made this garden almost seventeen years ago. Just for her. I wanted it to be something we could do together. Mother and daughter. I know it's all she has left, of me. Silly clothes and shoes don't matter. Not anymore they don't.
It rips me up inside, to see her this way. I wish I could be there. I really am. If she would just look hard enough. But she cant. She's been blinded by her pain.
Its hard for me to look at them, my family, and to see how I've caused pain. Thank the gods they have each other. I hope they don't blame me. If I could, I would be there. But it was Fate. Fate and Destiny. I've met them you know. They're both very nice people, but I don't like them. Just because they've caused my family pain. Its not fair. Not for them. Not for me.
Fairness is something you cant get out of life. It's like bittersweet chocolate. Or something you want badly, but cant have. Nothings fair anymore. But I cant change that. And I wont, as long as Sakura has people around her that care.
Clow Reed. He's so great. Such a friend. He used to come and visit me in my dreams. We were soul mates. But only in my dreams. When he told me of my future, yes I was heartbroken. I've missed so much in my children's lives. I wish I could make up for it. But I'm just a lonely spirit. I can only look down on them. Pray that they can feel my presence.
When I found out about my future, I wrote her a letter. I was almost one month along. I had just found out. I told her all that I could, without telling too much. I told her how much I love her. How much I would miss her.
Sometimes I wonder if she knows how much I love her. As many times as her father says so. As many times as everyone else says. But does she listen to them? Does she listen with her heart?
No matter what she thinks, she's such a lucky girl. So many people love her. But they don't love the real her. Do they even know the real her? She lives behind a fake mask. She smiles fake smiles. Lives a fake life. She's lucky to have Eriol. He's just like Clow Reed. I know he wont do her wrong.
Cheery blossoms. They fit her perfect. They were my favorite flowers. Still are. In the middle of my garden is a Cheery Blossom tree. It was just a baby when I left. Now it stands strong and beautiful. Just like my Sakura.
The wind rustles her hair around. Her hair is getting almost as long as mine. It's down to her mid-back. Not quite as dark as mine. It's like her aunts. Just longer. She looks happy. When she's happy, I'm happy. She's trying. She's trying to feel me. She does. She knows I'm in the garden. I always have been.
Our peaceful moment ends when we hear voices coming. Her friends are here to have a picnic. She rushes off to meet them, attaching herself to Eriol's side. They're so perfect together. Such a sweet couple. He'll take good care of her.
Once again the wind blows around them. 'I'm here Sakura,' I whisper. She smiles.
~fin
A/N: Sorry it took me a while to get this out. And sorry it's so short. It's kinda hard to write in first person about a character you don't really know. But oh well. Someone told me that Sakura's mum died when she (Sakura) was three. I figured that, but it's a lot easier to write about this when her mum died when she was almost one. (Is that ok? ^^) Thanks to my reviewers. I would name them all but I forgot. (^^;) R&R, C&C, and all that other stuff too.
Disclaimer: All CCS characters belong to CLAMP. I'm just using them to help take over the world and turn everyone into little green peas. (Not really.)