She is my baby!

Derek didn't know where to drive. If he went to his mother's house, he would have to explain what led him to appear there at that hour with his daughter on her pajamas. If he went to a hotel, he would probably be located by Addison. He was very angry, so he couldn't hear Katie, who was sitting in the car, questioning him about what was happening.

"Daddy… What's going on?" the girl asked, "Where are we going? I wanna my mommy."

He couldn't believe what was happening. His foot pressed the accelerator while the image of Mark with his naked body on top of his wife appeared on his mind.

"DADDY!" he heard Katie's voice bringing him back to reality.

Now, a car was arising in front of him, frightening him, causing him to turn the steering wheel trying to sidestep it and immediately step on the brake. The car stopped violently on the roadblock, while the other cars followed their way, honking, as he was rebuking himself for the lack of attention driving. Derek's breath, which had been stopped until then, was released. His heart was beating so hard and fast, he had the feeling he could hear it loud and clear. The silence took hold for a few seconds until the sound of a child crying behind his back robbed his attention.

"What am I doing?" he thought.

"Calm down…"

He turned to look at the girl who had a frightened face.

"It was nothing. It's all right."

"Let's go home..." Katie asked for, crying and wiping her tears with the sleeve of her pajamas.

"Sweetheart, calm down. Come here with daddy…" he said, pulling her hand.

The girl was shaking a little and was scared because she was in a dark and silent street with her father. She passed between the front seats and sat on his lap hugging him.

"I'm sorry…" Derek said against her hair, "Daddy didn't wanna risk your life, I…"

She was still crying.

"Shiiii… It's ok. Daddy's here with you…"

"I wanna go home, daddy…"

"Close your eyes, princess."

"Are we gonna home?"

"Just close your eyes."

Katie continued to cry for a few minutes with her father's arms hugging her back and his hands stroking her hair until her sobbing became a low and fickle moan. Then she slept.

The silence gave Derek a time to think about what was happening. He still didn't believe he'd found Addison and Mark in his bed. Not even in his worst nightmares, he could imagine something like that. Of course his heart was hurt. Even though he didn't want, he just couldn't help but think about how Addison was at that very moment. "Did she call the police?" he asked himself, caressing the hair of the sleeping girl on his chest.

He picked up his cell phone, that was in his coat pocket, and searched for Richard Webber's number, who was one of his mentors many years ago during his residence period. Since he became chief of surgeries at the hospital where he worked in Seattle, Richard tried to form a great team of surgeons and occasionally contacted Addison and Derek inviting them to take over the head of their specialties.

"Richard Webber…" he heard the voice on the other side of the line.

"Richard? It's Derek Shepherd."

"Shepherd! How are you?"

"I'm sorry for calling at that time…"

"What time?" Richard asked, "It must be dawn in New York, but here in Seattle... Three hours less, remember?"

"Of course."

"But... Tell me... Why are you calling?" Richard asked curiously.

"That job you had for me... Do you still have?"

He heard the noise of movement as if Richard were sitting on his chair before speaking again.

"Yes! Of course!" Richard said immediately, "Whenever you want."

"What's the position?"

"Head of the neurosurgery department. Is this little for you?"

"No. Far above the job I have here."

"Right. You just need to make a visit to Seattle to meet the hospital, bring your salary proposal and..."

"I'm going to Seattle now."

"Are you coming to Seattle now?" Richard asked with a surprised tone in his voice, "Now, now?"

"Yes, I just need to buy a ticket and book a hotel..."

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah…"

"Why didn't you guys call me earlier?"

"We didn't wanna bother you."

"Did something happen in New York?"

"No… Is everything okay."

"Right. So, I'll wait for you guys in Seattle."

Richard imagined that Addison would be with him.

"I'll contact you as soon as we get there."

"I can't wait for this."

Derek threw the phone on the seat next to him, kissed his daughter's forehead, then got out of the car and sat her on the back seat. She stirred.

"Shiiii... Keep sleeping, sweetheart."

She yawned and found a good position to sleep setting.

"That…"

Derek kissed her forehead again. He closed the door and went back to the front seat, picked up his cell phone again and saw Addison's calls. A new call arrived at that moment. He ignored it, took a deep breath, and began to drive.

When he arrived at the airport, he took the sleeping girl from the backseat, took her backpack, and slammed the car door. The place was practically empty at that hour, but he felt like the people who passed around him, noticed the fact that he was carrying a girl in her pajamas. Derek walked to the counter without standing in a line and opened his wallet with difficulty.

"I want two first-class tickets to Seattle." he asked, handing his ID and credit card to the desk clerk.

She looked at him with one eyebrow raised. It was suspected that a man appeared in the middle of the night with an unconscious girl in his lap, wearing her pajamas, asking for tickets to the other side of the country.

"I need some document from the child, sir."

"She's my daughter."

"I'm sorry, sir, but I need a document proving this or an authorization signed by the child's mother."

Derek took a deep breath.

"She's my daughter! What…? Can not a man travel with his own daughter in the middle of the night?"

"I-I'm sorry, sir... I really can't sell you a ticket if you don't prove what you're saying."

He opened his daughter's backpack on the counter, realizing there was a dress, toothbrush, liquid soap, shampoo, a small notebook, and a crayons box. Just what she needed to stay at the nanny's, but nothing to prove that she was really his daughter. He searched for a little longer until he found Katie's emergency card, school and vaccination card. He handed it to the clerk, who checked against his document.

"Mr. Shepherd, what is the child's name?" she asked.

"Do you do this to all parents?" he countered.

The woman was embarrassed.

"Try to understand, sir. This is a protocol."

"Am I going through a kidnapping protocol?" he asked.

She didn't answer.

"Very well... Her name is Katherine. Katherine Beatrice Forbes Montgomery-Shepherd. She is 5 years old and was born on October 16th in a c-section. Her blood type is O+, people often say she has my eyes, but she's sleeping, so..."

"Ok, sir..."

"She prefers mashed carrot instead mashed potato. Her favorite milkshake is strawberry. Sometimes she talks to Dora the Explorer, but she's ashamed of it, so I pretend I don't see. She wears seven-year-old clothes because she's a little bigger, but..."

"Sir, it's all right." the woman said embarrassed.

"She's my daughter! She's my child! She's my baby!"

The woman nodded and handed the documents to him.

"Sorry for the embarrassment, sir, but…"

"It's all right. You're doing your job."

"The next flight leaves in 40 minutes. Do you confirm the purchase?"

"Yes."

"Okay. So, I'm gonna print your tickets and..." she took out the printed papers, "Have a nice flight."

He smiled, adjusted the girl's backpack on his arm, and walked into the departure lounge to wait for the flight. Then he remembered the car in the parking and walked to the public phone, since he had left his cell phone in the car, and dialed his insurer number.

"Hi, good nigh… Morning… Good morning, I need you to get my car in a parking lot."

"What's your name?"

"Derek Christopher Shepherd."

He heard someone typing on a computer keyboard.

"Mr. Shepherd, where's the parking lot?"

"I'm at the airport, JFK, but I'd like you to connect to my emergency contact only after the sunrise."

"Okay, Mr. Shepherd. Do you confirm this request?"

"Yes."

"Then after 6:00 a.m. your emergency contact will be called, sir."

"OKay."

"Thank you very much for the call and have a good trip."

"Thank you."

He returned the phone to the hook and sat down with his daughter again. Meanwhile, at his car, once again Addison's smiling picture appeared on his cell phone screen, meaning that she was anxious to know where he was with their daughter.

###

Savvy seemed to hear a desperate cry before she falls asleep on her bed next to her husband. For a moment she thought it was just an impression to believe that it was Addison's voice, but something told her that she should get out of bed to look out the window. And that's what she did. She got up, trying not to wake her husband, but failed the attempt, as Weiss shifted in bed and turned to his wife as she set her foot in a comfortable slipper.

"What happened?" Weiss asked worriedly.

"I heard a scream, Addison's voice..." she said walking to the window.

She opened the white curtain and was surprised to see Addison standing in the middle of the street.

"Weiss, come here!"

He got up, still sleepy, and walked to his wife.

"Is not Addison right there?" Savvy asked.

Weiss wiped his eyes to be sure, then he was startled by what he saw. That woman standing, crying in the middle of the empty street, on a rainy night, wearing only a Derek shirt and no shorts, was really Addison. They both got out as fast as they could and left the house to meet their friend.

"Addison! What is going on?!" Savvy asked.

"He took her..." Addison said, crying.

Her lips trembled, making her teeth bit because of the cold wind.

"Addie, you're gonna freeze... Come on." Savvy said, pulling her friend by the shoulder.

"No! I want her back..."

"Who? Addie, let's go to your house and you can explain to me what's going on."

Addison ran a hand over her forehead to wipe the water from her face, then followed her friends until her house. Weiss held a large umbrella over their heads as Savvy guided her.

When they entered their friends' Brownstone, Savvy and Weiss were surprised to see that some wet clothes were thrown near the door; they looked at Addison as if they wanted an explanation, but all she did was crying.

"Something happened, Addie?" Weiss asked, "Do you want us to call Derek?"

Addison ran up the stairs. Savvy and Weiss, who couldn't understand anything, followed her. She looked for her cell phone and dialed Derek's number.

"Addie..." Savvy said, approaching.

"He doesn't wanna answer me…" she said, trying to call again, "Derek... He doesn't wanna answer my call!"

Savvy looked around when she realized her friend was sitting on a bed without a sheet.

"Addie, what happened here? Was it a robbery?" the blonde asked.

Addison shook her head.

"I lost my head completely." Addison said, trying to make another call.

"What are you talking about, Addie?" Savvy asked.

"Mark and I... I didn't resist... I didn't want to, but... He was just here!" Addison said crying, "He's always just here! Derek's never and..."

Weiss looked frightened at his wife, understanding absolutely everything what happened. Savvy already knew the tension between Mark and Addison, but was still surprised with what Addison just said.

"Weiss... Make some tea, a coffee, a hot chocolate... Anything hot or she'll catch a cold." Savvy said trying to push her husband away.

He left the room, still surprised at what he had just heard. As soon as she made sure he had gone down the stairs, Savvy took a warm towel from her friend's closet and helped her dry. Then she led her into the bathroom and persuaded her to take a warm shower.

After drying and putting on clean pajamas, Addison returned to her room with her friend and threw herself on the undone bed by picking up her cell phone to call Derek again.

"What did he do, Addie?" Savvy asked.

Nobody needed to be a genius to realize that Derek had found Addison and Mark in bed. Weiss returned to the room with a hot chocolate cup, sat on the bed next to his wife, and held out to his friend.

"No." said Addison, insisting on the call.

"Here, Addie. You'll feel better." said Weiss.

"There's no way for me to feel better while my daughter is away from me." Addison said.

"What?!" Savvy asked, "Did Derek take Katie with him?"

"He took… And I got a bad feeling." said the redhead crying again, "I want my daughter, Savvy!"

Savvy took her friend's free hand. Then she asked Weiss to give her the cup.

"Addie, drink it... I'm sure he'll be back in the morning with her, you know... You're Addison&Derek!" commented Weiss.

Addison wept again, lying on the bed and shrugging her legs.

"What did I do?" she wondered aloud, "What the hell did I do?"

Savvy didn't know what to do, so she grabbed a sheet in the closet and put on her friend before turned to her husband.

"You have to go to the hospital tomorrow, I'll have an audience only late afternoon." she said, "Get some rest."

"And leave you here alone?" he asked.

"It's better this way. Go, Weiss. I gonna talk to her... Come home."

Unsuccessfully, Weiss left the cup of hot chocolate on a piece of furniture and said good-bye to his wife before to go back home. Savvy came down to lock the front door, grabbed the wet clothes on the floor, and took them all to the little laundry room. Then she returned to her friend's room and realize she still in the same position, with the phone against her ear, waiting for Derek answer.

"Addie... It's okay." Savvy said gently picking up the phone from her hand, "Look, he's upset, trying to put himself in his place... But it'll all pass." she said, stroking her friend's hair trying to calm her, "Everything will lighten in his head and he'll return home."

"He'll never forgive me."

"Of course he will. You're Addison&Derek!"

"I guess… We aren't Addison&Derek anymore."

"Don't say that! Of course you're Addison&Derek."

They stared at each other for a few seconds.

"Come here. Give me a hug." Savvy said, pulling her friend away.

Addison hugged her tightly, crying again.

"I'm feeling a bad thing." Addison said, "I'm feeling... I'm afraid Savvy. Derek got out of here furious, he ran off with the car... If anything happens to him... If anything happens to Katie... I'll never forgive myself."

"Calm down." Savvy said, "Nothing's gonna happen to them, okay? Now try to rest."

"I can't sleep anymore." Addison said, laying her head on her friend's thigh, "As long as my daughter isn't here with me... I ain't gonna sleep anymore."

###

"Did you call, sir?" asked the air hostess, standing in front of Derek's seat.

"Yeah. I want a blanket. The most comfortable you have." he said, running a hand over her daughter's arm to warm her.

"If you like, you can regulate her seat, so she'll be comfortable..."

"No. It's okay. She's just cold. I need a blanket. I'm traveling without luggage."

"Just a minute, sir."

The woman pulled away and Derek again kissed the girl's forehead while she still sleeping in his arms after she shivered.

"Shiiiii... Keep sleeping."

After a few minutes, the stewardess came back with a blanket and helped Derek put it over the girl, who now seemed more comfortable resting her face on his father's chest.

"Thank you."

"Anything else, sir?"

"How long until we get to Seattle?"

"We'll be in Seattle in an hour and a half, sir."

"Thank you."

The woman walked away again, leaving him alone with the girl. Derek looked at his daughter's unconscious face and pressed her against him. She brought him peace, made his thoughts empty, and brought him to reality. "What am I doing?" he asked himself again.

"I love you..." he whispered before kissing her forehead again.

He tried to sleep, but he couldn't. He stood with his eyes open until he heard the commander announce the landing in Seattle. He looked at his wristwatch at 07:00 in the morning, Katie would wake up at any moment, but when he left the plane with the girl unconscious in his lap he was surprised to realize it was dark in Seattle and was raining a little. "Three hours less in Seattle." remembered.

He walked in the airport and thought to call Richard, but he didn't know his number and had left his cell phone in the car in New York so he wouldn't have to answer Addison's calls. He got in a taxi and asked the driver to take him to a hotel.

After checking in, Derek can finally lay her daughter down in a warm, comfortable bed. It felt good only to see her sleeping soundly and being covered by a clean duvet. He walked into the bathroom, washed his face, took a quick hot shower and lay down beside her to watch her sleep since he couldn't sleep at all.

Through the half-open curtain of the front window, Derek saw the Seattle dark sky turn gray. Different from New York, it would bring them a beautiful day with blue skies and sunlight coming through the window, in Seattle dawned cloudy, with thin drops of rain beating against the glass. With the start of the day, he saw his daughter's eyes opening and she looked at him serenely.

Katie didn't remember much from the day before. At that moment, with her father lying in front of her, looking into her eyes, she believed that what she remembered was nothing more than a nightmare. When she had slept, she was in a car, crying on her father's lap; now she was in a comfortable bed, which she was sure was the bed in her parents' bedroom.

"Morning, daddy."

"Good morning, princess." he said, kissing her forehead.

She got up with difficulty and sat on the bed to realize that this wasn't her parents' room and that probably the day before wouldn't have been a nightmare.

"Where we are?" she asked rubbing her eyes.

"In a hotel room."

She looked around curiously until her eyes found the curtains half-hidden.

"It's raining?" she asked.

"Yeah... I read that it rains a lot around here." Derek said.

"On here?!" she asked confused.

"Princess, look at daddy for a minute." he said, pulling her face lightly, "We need to..."

"What's going on?" Katie asked interrupting him.

"Yeah... We'll talk about it now." Derek said, stroking her face, "We're not in New York anymore, we're in Seattle."

"Seattle?"

"It's a city on the west coast. I'm sure you're gonna really like to move here."

"Where's mommy?"

"Mom... She... M-Mommy had to stay in New York."

"Why?"

Derek didn't know how to answer that question. Then he was silent.

"I wanna go back to New York. I wanna go home, daddy."

"We're gonna have to stay here for a while, baby... You know, daddy has a job offer here."

"And mommy too?"

"N-No, baby... Your mother will continue to work in New York."

Katie tried to figure out what was going on, but she couldn't put any logical thoughts in her mind.

"I'll never see my mother again?"

"Of course you will... It's not that, sweetie, just... Of course you'll see your mother again, but we'll have to stay here in Seattle for a bit."

"Why didn't you let her come, daddy? She was crying..."

"Your mother did something, princess."

"What?"

"It wasn't with you... It was with me..."

"What did she do?"

Derek was silent and took a deep breath.

"Nothing to hurt you, okay?" he said pulling her onto his chest, "Your mother would never do anything to hurt you."

"I want her here too..."

"Let's just forget about that for a minute and consider this a trip of our own?" Derek asked trying to cheer his daughter, "Look, you have a dress there in that backpack. Put it and we're gonna buy some things for us and visit some people."

"Who?"

"Daddy's friends."

Katie obeyed. She got out of bed, walked to the bathroom and, after a quick shower, put the dress she had in her backpack. When they went down to the hotel hall, they saw that the day was still beginning in Seattle, but the girl's body was very well awake as in the rare times she could sleep until afternoon in New York. Derek rented a car, in which they drove to meet the city's streets. Then they stopped at many stores to buy clothes, shoes and, in Derek's case, a new cell phone. Forgetting the day before, Katie had fun shopping with her father, then they went to a restaurant and returned to the hotel to drop off the bags.

"Yes, it was! We got lost five times until we got here!" Katie said as her father left the bags on the bed.

Derek laughed.

"It wasn't so much."

"Yes, it was! I counted!"

"What? You're not ashamed to count your father's misfortunes, aren't you girl?!" he asked, tickling her.

Katie laughed struggling in bed until her father walked to the bathroom. It's been a long time she wasn't happy that way with Derek, so for a moment she completely forgot about the day before.

###

10:40, marked the clock on Addison's cell phone, which she checked every five minutes to check if she had any messages or calls from Derek. Savvy was still in front of her friend, who had red eyes and nose for crying all night. They were silent until they heard the doorbell ring, making Addison immediately rise from the bed and run downstairs. Savvy followed.

When they opened the door, they were surprised to find themselves in front of Derek's four sisters. They entered the house without asking permission and looked around. They were all shocked at the physical state in which their sister-in-law was. They had never seen Addison so miserable in broad daylight.

The only one who didn't have black hair and blue eyes, but a short brown hair and brown eyes, took a step forward and threw her hand against the face of her sister-in-law, causing everyone to utter a yell of surprise.

"What are you doing?!" Amelia asked, pushing her sister.

"Nancy! Why did you do that?!" Kathleen asked, standing in front of her sister.

Amelia quickly walked over to her sister-in-law and held her tearful face, now with a red mark on her left cheek.

"What happened yesterday?" Amelia asked.

"It was my fault..."

"Of course it was your fault!" Nancy exclaimed.

"He took my daughter. I want my baby back!"

"You should think of it before..."

"Nancy!" Kathleen scolded.

"What?! You're gonna come to her defense now?! Didn't you hear what Weiss said? Derek met her and Mark in bed!" Nancy said.

Addison felt embarrassed, then just lowered her head. Savvy also felt ashamed to hear that it was her husband who was spreading the gossip.

"We have to listen to her…" Liz said, "That's why we came here for."

"No! We came to know... What the fuck's going on in your head, Addison?" Nancy asked accusingly.

"STOP IT!" Amelia exclaimed, pointing her finger at her older sister.

"We came here to talk and..."

In an instant, everyone was talking at the same time and Addison was silent between them. Her head started to ache and all she could think about was how Katie was at that moment.

"SHUT UP!" Savvy shouted, causing the four women to shut up, "If you all came here to talk and try to figure out what's going on, sit down on the couch and speak one at a time! But I hope you remember that this is all about Addison and Derek, so she has the right to don't wanna talk with you guys about it."

The four women were silent, looking at Addison, who seemed to be lost without even hearing what was being said there.

"Addie, do you wanna talk to them?" Savvy asked her friend.

With no option, Addison just nodded. She sat in an armchair and waited while her sisters-in-law settled in.

"How are you feeling?" Kathleen asked, being the first to speak.

"Come on! You're not here to work!" said Nancy.

"Shut up! Why are you acting like this?!" Amelia asked her older sister.

"Simply because I woke up this morning with a call from my brother's life insurance, saying I was his emergency contact..."

"Has anything happened to them?" Addison asked, turning around immediately, worried, to her sister-in-law.

"No. They wanted me to get his car from the airport."

"Airport?!" asked Addison, crying again. "Where did he take my daughter? I want my daughter."

"I have no idea where Derek is." Nancy said.

Addison got up and paced back and forth.

"What did I do?" she asked herself in a whisper, "What did I do? What did I do?"

"Do you need someone to explain what you did?" asked Nancy.

"I want my daughter... I'll never see my daughter again... I want my baby back... I want..."

"Don't you have any idea where he might be?" asked Nancy.

"He took my daughter... I want my daughter back, I..."

"Addison, what the hell did you have in your head to go to bed with Mark Sloan?" asked Nancy.

"I want my daughter." she said, pacing back and forth as if she didn't notice anyone in the room.

Suddenly the air seemed heavy coming through her nostrils. She looked around and saw everyone's gaze on her. She saw the distorted images all around her and she could feel the tears streaming down her face.

"I want my daughter..." was the only thing she could say.

Then she saw Kathleen getting up and holding her by the shoulder.

"Addison, breathe…" said the woman with short black hair and blue eyes.

"I want my daughter... Where did he take her? I wanna go get my daughter... I can't live without my baby."

"You should have thought of that before you did what you do!" exclaimed Nancy pointing her finger at her.

Addison put her hands to her ear and ran upstairs, leaving everyone unsure. Savvy and Derek's sisters quickly followed in fear that she would do any foolish. They walked in with her in Katie's room and watched as she picked up a plush owl on the unmade bed and hugged it while she leaned against a wall.

"What's she doing?" asked Nancy.

"SHUT UP!" Kathleen exclaimed, turning to her older sister, surprising everyone.

She was always the quietest person in the family. No one had ever seen her screaming at anyone. But, at that time, she seemed to have completely lost her temper with Nancy.

"She is having a panic attack." explained.

They all felt a shiver. Then they turned to Addison, who was still crouched on the floor, hugging the plush owl, talking to herself with her eyes closed.

"I want my daughter... I want... I want my daughter... I want my baby."

Kathleen walked into the bedroom alone and bent down in front of her sister-in-law. She tried to touch her red hair, but she pulled away.

"Calm down, Addie..."

"I want my daughter..."

"Calm down. Take a deep breath..."

"He won't let me see my baby again."

"This is not true. Derek's gonna put his head in place and gonna come back with Katie, I'm sure. Now calm down and breathe."

Addison approached her sister-in-law and hugged her.

"You're not alone... We'll find out where she is."