Disclaimer - i do not own GG or any of its characters.

Okay thank you to everyone who reviewed the first chapter. i have one policy i want to introduce for my stories. 'If you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all.'

i was in melbourne for the last 2 weeks and i didn't bring my lap top so i couldn't write. i hope this chapter has made up for my break.

Enjoy!

Chapter 2

I walked downstairs after closing Crystal's door.

I took the short steps downstairs so I could have a conversation with Lily and Serena.

I was kind of dreading it seeing as there was going to be lots of questions about who her father was and why I left and all sorts of things.

I walked down to the table and sat.

I picked up an apple and Lily looked at me horrifically.

"You aren't going to eat that like that are you?" She asked.

"Yes, why? It's perfectly normal." I said.

When I left, I went to Paris and stayed with Daddy and Roman in their little chateau. I was already 1 and a half months pregnant when I left. I stayed there for the entire pregnancy until I got a text from Serena begging me to come home.

So I did. I came home and brought Crystal with me.

"But no one has cut it up for you." She stated.

"Lily when I left I stayed with my Daddy and Roman and I had to do everything myself. I ate apples like this, it's no big deal." I said and took a bite out of my apple.

"Oh." She merely said and asked the next question. "So, umm... Who's the father?"

I really didn't know whether to tell Lily or not. I couldn't let everyone know Chuck was the father and if Gossip Girl got her fingers on this little secret, Chuck would take me for full custody and take Crystal away from me.

"Umm... Lily, her father is dead." I stated.

She looked at me horrifically. "He's what?" Serena interjected.

"He died." I said again and played the actress that I am and pretended to cry.

"How did he die?" Lily asked sympathetically.

"He was a pilot." I said making this up off the top of my head. "He was flying to Spain. I was living with Daddy at the time. I got a call from the hospital the next day telling me I was pregnant from the test I took in there and that Michael was dead."

Lily looked at me sympathetically and Serena kept weary eyes.

But that was all interrupted by the elevator dinging and Chuck Bass's voice echoing through the lobby. "Lily, guess whose back? I can't believe she even has the guts to come back here given all she's..." He said trailing off as he rounded the corner and saw me sitting at the table.

His anger must have actually Rose to boiling point because he walked to the table right across from me and smashed it with his fists, causing a chip in the wood. "I can't believe you. You come to my family to stay when you left me."

I sat there stunned. When I finally spoke it made him angrier. "It was your sister who asked me to come back otherwise I would have stayed away forever."

He turned and looked at Serena. "Thanks a lot Sis, you bought my ex-girlfriend back and he little bastard of a child."

I then lost it.

"Actually Charles Bass. She is a bastard. Her father died in a plane crash and I knew coming back here was wrong. I knew you would never change. It was why I left you. You never cared what I wanted." I said with so much fury.

"Oh, but you never seemed to care what I wanted. We had everything Blair. I never did anything wrong..." I cut him off mid sentence.

"Actually you did. You diminished my choices. I wanted a child and you didn't want one. That's why I left. Don't you remember our conversation about it in the park? You hurt me bad, really bad and you didn't even care." I spat the words at him.

"I cared Blair. Trust me I did and I had good reason. But you wouldn't talk through it with me. You packed up and left." He said, his eyes burning.

"What was left to talk through Chuck? You didn't want me to have children and that was my dream." I said nearly crying.

"Yeah well you got your dream. You have a child and the child's father is dead, nice work Waldorf." He said and then turned and left.

I put my head in my hands and let a single tear fall on to the wooden table.

He was right. But only about some things.

I did get my dream but only half of it.

I'm not married. I do have a child but she doesn't have a father. And I lost the man I love most and he hates me and I still kind of hate him.

I looked up and saw Lily with a shocked expression and Serena with a expression that almost matched but also contained anger.

"Oh, Blair, I didn't know he was going to come here. I haven't spoken to him in weeks. I'm so sorry." She said really sympathetically.

"It's okay Lily. It was expected." I said. I didn't want any sympathy from anyone.

"What did Chuck mean by that?" Serena asked.

I sighed. "Chuck and I were walking in the park one day and I said I wanted a child in the future and he ripped into me and told me that I'm never allowed to have one and if I fall pregnant to get it aborted. So I left hoping I could find someone who would want children and love me."

Serena softened at my words. "B, how come you never told me that? We're best friends."

"I felt humiliated. It was the only thing that I felt I could do." I said. I could feel the tears burning in my eyes.

"Oh Blair, honey, it'll be okay." Lily said trying to soothe me.

I shook my head. "No, Lily, it won't. Nothing will be kept secret. I say give it 1 day and Gossip Girl will have posted it to everyone what happened."

"Don't worry about Gossip Girl B. No one cares about her anymore." Serena said gently.

"Actually, they do. I have had 7 new e-mails already asking who they father is from randoms that Gossip Girl has posted and they all go to Constance. Plus I've been asked out by 3 boys from the senior year of St. Judes. It's horrible." I cried.

Crystal chose that moment to cry out.

"I'll see you tomorrow, I'm a little tired. Thank you Lily and Serena for letting me stay.

I walked away from the table. Away from Serena and Lily's sympathetic glances and up to my crying angel.

I picked her up. "Shh... it's okay sweetie. You're all right." I cooed at her.

I rocked her for about 5 minutes before drifted off to sleep again.

I set her down in her crib and reached for my phone which had been vibrating in my pocket. I flipped it open and found Gossip Girl hadn't given up on my case.

Gossip Girl here,

Everyone thought it would take me a while to find B's secret,

But thanks to B's ex, it was done in a night.

It's a little girl, how wonderful, but she's a bastard.

What did you do B; I heard the father died, could he really not handle you?

Somehow I don't think this is true, so don't turn your back, B because I'll be watching...

And waiting.

You Know You Love Me

XOXO

Gossip Girl

I felt the tears running down my face before I even realized I was crying.

It hurt. I thought Chuck would be mad but I didn't think he would go and tell Gossip Girl straight away.

I walked to the bed and set myself down on it.

I slipped my dress off and put a singlet top on and a pair of mini shorts and crawled under the covers of the bed.

I let the tears flow free. I hadn't cried since the night I left Chuck and it seemed now was a good time to let it all go.

I decided that tomorrow I was going to go shopping with Serena and keep my head up high. What's the worst people can say.

I still didn't get how Gossip Girl didn't believe it.

I thought it was pretty convincing. It was long enough for me to be pregnant and run away.

It was the middle of February, winter almost being over.

I was looking forward to getting the new spring fashions ahead of time.

I was ready to bring my status back and return to my Queen B title.

With Crystal being 4 months old, it would be easy enough to do without missing anything important that was happening with her.

She was my baby and my first priority but I had to get my status back and I had to be ready in case there was a battle and knowing Chuck Bass, there will be one soon.

Okay, i have a few things to say.

1. thank you to everyone who reads my stories.

2. a big thank you to everyone who reviews my stories.

3. i'm going to try to write fster but i'm finding it hard to when i'm juggling school certificate work and exams. so i'm sorry if it takes me a while to up date.

i hoped you enjoyed this chapter and look forward to the next one.

XOXO