pained

by keniii

modern day AU..kaoru loves kenshin and kenshin loves kaoru. Typical Kenshin feels unworthy for dear Kaoru and decides to dismiss the thought away and stick with Tomoe only to then regret never telling Kaoru what he feels. Kaoru learns the beauty of letting go and Kenshin tries to win her back..will it be too late?written in POVs

2. Chapter 2

hiii again...so this is chapter 2 dudes...pls enjoy!

standard disclaimers apply:D

CHAPTER II

I have grown to understand the fact that no matter what I say or do, I will never be the one you would bear to love. It killed me everyday knowing how you would never return the same feeling I feel for you. I kept hoping for someday, kept telling myself that you were worth the wait. And everyday that I kept waiting for you, I felt that same hope within me start to crumble apart.

Loving you has taken away everything from me. It's a wonder how I can still muster up the courage and face you with her. All these years that I have loved you, and all these years that I have blinded myself, all I ever did care was letting you realize that I was here and that I loved you. And I still do Kenshin…. I always HAVE loved you. But just as everything was going great for you-how you told me you won Tomoe-san's heart- everything for me has grown from bad to worse and this time, I knew that winning you now was impossible.

Tomoe-san was everything that I can never be. She is every man's choice for a girl-beautiful, smart and very lady-like. I wouldn't even amount to what she is-a childish, sweaty little tomboy. Not the typical girlfriend you would be proud of. I can never measure up to someone like her and never would I dare to compete with her.

And so I kept everything to myself, never told you how I much I have loved you from the very start you came up to me. I was never much of a good liar but still, you were always fooled by the smiles I manage to show you everyday.

You always knew better than me, Kenshin. But how come you are easily convinced with what I show you? Can't you see how much I love you? How much I suffer everyday? I should hate you for hurting me this much. You deserved my hatred and anger.

But every time you looked my way, it's then that I understand that what matters most to me is not my own happiness but yours. And I know how happy you are with her... I know it as you never fail to remind me everyday.

And as I looked at you, I know you loved me too. A love bound for a friend like me. It should be enough, I knew. But I wanted more, wanted something I can never have.

I knew you love me… and everyday you wouldn't know how much I wished that it could be enough.

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