Chapter II
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"What?" I shout as the birds fly through the air making loud squawking noises
"I just don't know if I like boys or girls I'm still thinking about it." Tears fill his eyes and a small one rolls down his check, I roll over to my side so I can reach Sora's face to dry his tears, this is obviously something that's been bugging him for a long time or he wouldn't be this sensitive.
"Oh Sora" is all I can say I'm too much in shock I kinda guessed this but he has always acted this way, so I thought it was normal.
"If I do like boys would you still like me?" he asks.
"Of course!" I say "we've been friends since we were ten when will this ever change, even if you liked me we would still be friends"
"Thanks"
"I kinda have to like you since we are sharing destinies now" I chuckle a little bit to try to cheer him up.
"Ya" is all he says his voice is so empty I feel bad for asking about his dream now I regret it. But I know it sounds weird and all and I feel weird for thinking about it but I am thinking about it but I think I like like Sora, it makes me feel funny thinking about it.
"Do you like me" it spills I swear I didn't mean it but I said it anyways.
Sora looks at me a tear still on his check from early "what do you mean?"
"Do you like me?" I repeat the words I can't control them I should of said nothing never mind too late now. "More than a friend"
"Don't tell" he sighs what does don't tell mean I don't know all I know my heart is jumping all over the place "please Riku"
"Wait" I pause "So does that mean you do like me"
"Ya" my heart sinks to my stomach and I start to feel the pulse of my heart in my hands, "you'll still be my friend, right?" Sora does like me do I like him for sure I mean he's a boy and I'm a boy and that's not supposed to happen my mom said so, but she all so said if you love someone you have to so it but did she mean that for boys and boys not just girls and boys, but if he was girl I wouldn't have to think twice about it but he's not does it make a difference? What will other people think the same or different of us. No it's not us, I'm not sure if there will be an us. But he makes me feel different I haven't felt this way before, and I'm not sure if I like it. "Right?" he says again
"Oh" I snap out of my daze of thoughts and memories "sorry I was thinking but ya I'll still be your friend."
"But do you like me?" he ask I won't be able to answer his god awful question I would say yes but that would be lying and I never lie.
"I don't know" I shrug my shoulders "when I'm around you I feel special. I can't describe it, I never liked anybody before, and so I can't tell if I like you."
Sora turns and looks up at the sky and whispers "I'm sorry Riku"
"For what you have nothing to be sorry for"
"For lik-."
"No" I cut him off "I'm sorry for not being able to answer your question"
"No" he says "I'm sorry for not telling you I liked you before"
He turns back to his side so we see eye to again. Blue eyes look into mine. It feels like I should… like I should kiss him, Should I? He dreamed about it he likes me, "so kiss him Riku" I demand my brain.
Too late, he stands up and offers a hand to me instead of grabbing my wrist he grabs my hand and I realize how soft and girly like his hands are. "Do you want to spar?"
"Uh…" I snap out of it "ya sure."
M and Sora spar and swim all day, we have lunch and dinner together like nothing happened like a normal day, like he doesn't like me like me at all, when it gets dark we lay on the blanket and watch the stars as he lays on my chest as he did before and wraps his arms around me.
"Kairi is supposed to be back tonight" I tell him.
"Ya I wonder what she'll say when she sees us like this?" he replies, Kairi has never seen us like this before
"I don't know" I take a long deep breath causes Sora's head to move along with my chest "it's not like we are doing anything besides watching the stars."
He laughs as he's ears perk up "I hear footsteps."