A/N: I own nothing but Alex Riggins. I imagine Alex as looking like younger Leighton Meester. Also, Jo will be coming in very soon. Wait just a little longer. Enjoy! And please review!

Well Dean got no sleep that night. He dragged himself down to the kitchen at eight to grab some breakfast. When he saw Sam who was staring at the photo. The photo that kept Dean up all night.

"This is why she had the attitude." Sam said with a sad smile.

"Yeah, and she blames us." Dean replied guiltily.

"They looked so happy. I thought Alex reminded me of Jo."

"Yeah, me too. It was my first observation about her."

Both boys quickly became when Alex entered the room. She stared at them for a moment before grabbing the book off the table.

"The weather isn't getting better, you can wait out the storm." Sam and Dean nodded at this.

After asking Alex, Sam went up to take a shower. Leaving Alex and Dean alone again. They sat in silence for a few moments when Alex finally spoke up.

"I knew Jo since I was a baby. Our parents were friends. Ellen was like another mom and Jo... she was my bigger sister and best friend. My parents died on a hunting accident and my brother Nate took care of me. I got emancipated when I was 15 in case anything ever happened to him, so I wouldn't end up in the system. Anyway, Jo always came to check on me, and she called twice a week. Then, after some incident in Duluth, Jo started hunting with and dating called it off when the apocolyse hit. Jo went with Ellen and my brother went God knows where. Then, Bobby called and told me about Carthage. I haver divided my time since helping hunters, looking for my brother, and trying to get over the loss of Jo."

"I'm so sorry. I didn't know you were so close." Dean choked out.

They sat in a few more moments of silence. Dean honestly didn't know what to say. This girl like Jo had lost all of her family and then she lost her friends too. And he was partly to blame.

"I just want her back. I need my family." Alex said as she held back tears.

"I get that. She isn't ghost but Jo still haunts me. I have nightmares. Nightmares where I go back to that night and she keeps dying and there is nothing that I can do." Dean said also trying to hold back his tears.

Alex watched his eyes brim with held back tears and felt guilty about how she had treated them.

"Worse are the dreams," Dean continued, "In the dreams I save her. Or she never died. And I'm happy. She's happy. Sammy and Bobby are happy and we are a family. And then I wake up and remember it was only a dream. And that is the worst part. Knowing it wasn't real and will never be real."

Dean tried to get up and leave so he could pull himself together,

"I'm sorry." Alex said as she stood up too. "I don't blame you. Jo wouldn't want me too."

Then Sam came around the corner and entered back into the kitchen. He was freshly showered and he pointed to the window showing that the storm had cleared.

"Well we better getting out of Alex's hair. WE have a drive ahead of us for the hunt and I bet Alex is so ready to have you out of here." Sam said laughing.

Alex gave Dean a nod and the boys went to get their stuff. Sam loaded all the stuff into the Impala and gave Alex nd awkward hug and a 'thank you.' Dean gave Alex a smile and a hair ruffle and got into the driver's seat.

"So, am I going to see you boys again?"

"Do you want to?" Dean relpied.

"I actually wouldn't hate it."

And with that the boys were off. Dean made himself promise that he was going to call Alex.