The Incident

"It was a Monday night, I was out with my boyfriend then, Keith. When we started dating he was so nice. My best friend approved, Tommy approved, even Phil did. I thought things were perfect with him. We had been dating for six months, and hadn't had one fight. We spent most nights together, usually at his place. I had even moved in. I met his family and they loved me, I didn't think anything could go wrong. But on this day, I found something out. Something that could change our whole relationship, so I asked him to take me out so I could have possibly one last good night with him, and this is how it went..."

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I walked up to Keith's apartment and knocked on the door. He opened it and smiled at me "Hey babe, I wasn't expecting you until later."

I gave him a kiss and walked through the door "I think we should go out today. Spend the day together, you know? Like we use to."

Keith shut the door and walked over to me, putting his arms around my waist "Sounds good. Where do you want to go? The movies, a romantic picnic in the park?"

"Anything. I want to do anything. I just want to spend the day with you." I gave him a smile and tried pulling him closer to me, but he was already as close as he could get.

"So movies, a picnic, and then anything you want?"

Keith knew how to treat someone. It was rare that he told me no. If I wanted to go out, he would take me out. If I didn't want to see a certain person, he would make it his goal to help me avoid them. "Can we go now?"

Keith nodded and grabbed his car keys "This should be a good day."

I nodded and looked down at the ground while we walked out of his apartment and down to his car. I wanted this day to go as perfect as possible, maybe he won't be so mad about the news. Maybe he'll even be happy.

We pulled into the theater parking lot and he got out to open the door for me. I smiled at him, he was so sweet to me. We walked hand-in-hand into the theater and he bought our tickets. I looked around the lounge of the theater for the familiar face of Phil DeVille, he worked there at the time and he knew what I had to tell Keith. I was hoping to see him so I could have some courage for later.

We walked into the theater just as the movie was starting and he picked out seats. He put his arm around me as we watched the movie and I couldn't help but get this sinking feeling that I was never going to feel it again. I shook the feeling off and just enjoyed the feeling of being close to him.

When the movie ended we walked out and my eyes fell onto Phil who looked over at us. He gave me a reassuring smile and I smiled back in return. Seeing Phil's smile had a way of comforting me.

Instead of a picnic Keith took me out to dinner. Picnic or not it was still romantic and he was sweet as could be. I was sitting there, listening to Keith go on about some family reunion he has coming up and how he wants me there. I smiled to him, I loved that his family counted me as part of them.

I looked at my watch and sighed. It was getting late and I had work in the morning, I had to tell Keith soon or I'd lose all nerve I had.

We walked back into his apartment and I gave him a kiss "Thank you for tonight."

He kissed me back more passionately than before "It's no problem at all. I'd do anything for you"

I backed away from him and started pacing. I was looking at my hands and moved them in all kinds of directions when I started talking "I woke up this morning and I felt really sick. I didn't know why but then it clicked in my head, so I went to the store and I got a test and it came out positive and I wasn't sure how you'd react so I wanted to spend one last perfect day with you."

"Slow down, Kim. What are you saying?"

I took a deep breath and looked him in the eyes "I'm pregnant."

I watched as Keith started hesitating. He looked uncomfortable. He started messing with his hands and avoiding all eye contact with me "How do you know it's mine?"

"Because I've only slept with you."

Keith shook his head "It can't be mine, or you're playing some sick joke with me."

"Do you really think I would do that?"

"Right now, yes!" Keith stepped closer to me.

I looked into his eyes and could see anger. Anger that just kept rising. I have never seen him so mad before. I opened my mouth to say something but was stopped. Stopped by his fist hitting my stomach. Hard. Not once, not twice, but repeatedly. "I don't want some stupid kid. This is all your fault, you should have been on some kind of pill!"

I had tears running down my face and I kept repeating that I was sorry. My stomach was hurting from the multiple punches it had just received. In my head I hoped that the baby would be okay, but in my heart I knew the baby was now gone. How could someone be so heartless?

"You're fucked up, Kim. Did you think having a kid would keep us together forever? That's fucking messed up"

I kept shaking my head, saying no. The baby was an accident, I thought it was good news. Keith went to grab my arm but I managed to pull away and head towards the door. I had a hand on my stomach, and I was doubling over as I walked because the pain was becoming unbearable.

Days passed after that and I found out I had miscarried, which wasn't a surprise. She hadn't told anyone what happened yet but she was staying with Phil.

All she told him was that her and Keith broke up. I felt miserable and empty and I was home alone. I walked into the kitchen where I grabbed a knife, I wanted it all to end and that's when I cut my wrist.

Phil found me later and immediately got me help, he quit his job, and has been there for me ever since. I told him about miscarrying but I didn't tell him the reason why.

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"Is that what really happened?" Doctor Parker asked.

I nodded slowly, wiping tears away. I hated having to think about that night. No matter how many months went by it still hurt to think about. Doctor Parker handed me a tissue and I thanked her. "It was traumatic. I'm never going to be the same after that."

"You got lucky, Kimi" Doctor Parker said leaning forward "He could have done more damage than he did. You're one of the lucky few"

I nodded understanding what she meant. I looked over at the clock and stood up "Time's up for today."

Doctor Parker stood up and followed me towards the door "I'm glad you opened up today, Kimi. We're making great progress."

"I'll see you next time, Doc." I said giving her a small smile.