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Sam's POV
I wake up the next day and get out of 'bed'. I feel the sharp sting in my wrist from my newest cuts. I go over to my drawers and pull out some clothes that I'm pretty sure need washing and change. It's 11 and Bill normally gets here around 11:20 so I need to leave before then. I walk out into the living room and find my mum passed out in the chair and smashed glass all over the floor. I sneak past her and run out the door as fast as I can hoping not to wake her. As I close the door I see Bills car pulling up down the road and I know if he sees me he will beat me again so I run down the road in the opposite way. I run so fast that I'm pretty sure I stopped breathing and I make my way across town to Carly's.
Freddie's POV
I'm sat in Carly's apartment watching TV, Carly and Spencer both went to groovy smoothie and they said I could stay here because I'm trying to avoid my mum. I hear someone banging on the door over and over obviously desperate to get in so I unlock the door to Sam. Not the normal Sam though. She looks pale and out of breath and a little scared, she looks on the verge of tears. She pushes me out of the way and enters the apartment locking the door and putting the chain on before walking over and sitting on the couch.
"Hey dork, what are you doing here?" She asks me in between breathes
"I was just hanging out, what's wrong?" I ask her placing my hand on her shoulder which is returned with an evil death glare.
"Off." She shouts, shaking her shoulder free.
She seems to be scared of my touch, it's like she thinks I'm going to hurt her.
"Sam, what's happened?" I ask her. "You look scared."
"I'm fine nub, just leave me alone."
She stands up and walks into the kitchen to the fridge and starts rummaging through for food.
I can tell there's something not right but I know she's not going to talk to me, there's no point in trying.
Sam's POV
Why did he have to be here? I just want to escape from people making me feel bad about myself, but no he's here. Reminding me that no matter how much I hope he's never going to feel the same about me. He even knows that there's something wrong but he doesn't care enough to try find out, he asked me once and then just left it. Didn't try force it out of me or anything. Not that I would have told him but it would be nice to know that he actually cared a little. I feel so pathetic being so into someone who hates me and doesn't care the slightest bit for me. He keeps looking over at me with those big brown dumb eyes, I'm scared to look directly into them or I might end up falling even more for him, if that's even possible. Even now I feel stupid, he's never going to love me I'm stupid and worthless. I finally pull my head out of the fridge after pretending to look for food and turn around to see him staring at me again.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I ask him.
"Like what?" He laughs.
Then he just stares at me, even though it's from across the room I can feel all the tension building up. He opens his mouth to say something and just as he's about to speak Carly and Spencer walk through the door. I never thought this would happen but I actually want to kill Carly Shay right now. I'm so interested in what he wanted to say. Guess I'll never find out now.
This keeps happening, I get my hopes up for something and wait for something to happen then just as it's about to something comes along and ruins it. Story of my life. It's like every day I feel I'm living a punishment the only thing is I don't know what I'm being punished for.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Chapter 2 already? I'm pretty proud for uploading so quick. Hope the readers of IAnorexia like this story just as much. Please review and let me know what you think of this story. I do listen to your comments even if there telling me it sucks and giving me ways to make it better, what i can't stand is when I get people just saying "it's crap" and "Downer". Is there really a point to that? If you're just gunna hate then don't read. Please review tell me what you think, and how I can make it better. Follow me on twitter crazyforskittle :) Laters :) :) :)