I was taken away by his beauty. "I can't talk about it Edward it's too hard." He looked at me with such love and passion in his face and in his touch. He put my face in his hands and looked me straight in the eyes, "You know eventually I will see into your mind, I know you have been able to hide your thoughts and memories from me." He was right, there would be a time when I let my guard down and he will see what happened and it will disgust him. I mean why and how would he understand it wasn't my fault.
I started to tell him I can't talk about it and Edward kissed me before I could say anything. It was a soft kiss at first then it started to heat up, but before I knew it he was pulling away from me. "Edward?" I said. "Angel we can't really have something special if you can't share your past with me, and besides I want to know what makes you awake screaming at night. What nightmare are you reliving? "He was right He had shared with me that he was indeed a vampire and that his whole family was. He told me that they don't prey on humans but that his father was a Doctor and would bring donated blood home from the hospital, not like they were noticing
I was remembering that fateful night. I had come home from school; our home was over the bar my mother and step-father owned. My mother wasn't home she was working that night. I hated being alone with my step-father and half brother. They would get drunk and act stupid even though my brother was under age they still let him drink at home.
I went into the kitchen made myself a sandwich and went straight to my room never looking back at the living room which I could already smell the aroma of beer and whisky. I ran up the stairs and into my room, shut the door then exhaled. "Wow that was shitty" But before I could think about it I started doing my homework, I had a history paper due. I finished my paper and my sandwich and decided to go to bed, it was about eight-o-clock and I didn't feel like running into them! So I undressed and got into my night gown. (I was still in that little girl almost teenager period).
I was fourteen and didn't really see the big obsession that the girls my age had about boys. I mean sure they were some hotties in my class but I had my eye on the bigger picture. You see my mother was a drunk and so was my step-father, and they were turning my older half brother into one. I felt sad for him, he was really talented with his guitar but was wasting his talent, anyway I was laying in bed with only my bedside light on so I could read, when all of a sudden I heard them coming up the stairs. Laughing and slurring there words. OH wow these were the times when I wished my mother was home not that she wouldn't be sloshed with them but at least I felt safe! I heard them coming down the hall towards my room, I quickly shut my light out hoping they would just go back down stairs. I had it with my step-father sneaking into my room at night, he would just watch me and I would pretend to be asleep but I knew he was there. This night was different I could tell, he was drunk and my mother wasn't home. That left me alone with him which I was so uncomfortable with.
I heard my door open but it wasn't in a quiet sneaky way, Al kicked open the door and was laughing while he and my brother walked into my room. My brother was drunk also, he had always had a sick obsession with me, I can't explain it but it was like he wished I was more to him then a sister.
I sat up in horror, Al was walking towards me, "Well if it isn't little miss innocent! I bet you think your mamas going to come and get you out of this, well your wrong. She's working and can't hear you." I didn't understand what he was talking about. Why would I need my mother, but I would soon find out why
Al came at me and I tried to run but he grabbed hold of my wrists and flung me back onto the bed, my head hit the head bored and I could tell it was bleeding because it felt warm and liquid was running down my head. "You think your little miss goodie toe shoes don't you?" he slurred "Well I'm here to tell you you're no better than the rest of us!" He was angry and also there was something else stirring in his eyes. Lust! That's what it was, my heart started to beat faster as I was aware of what he was going to do. I freed myself from his grip and started towards the door when my brother closed the door. I couldn't believe it my own brother was in on what was about to happen. Just then I felt a arm around my waist," Come on baby you know what you need? I tell you for one you need to be knocked off your high horse you're on and I'm going to do it, come here!" He pulled me down to the bed I was screaming for Adam to help me but he just stood there. Al started to rip my nightgown off! "You know you want this Wendy!" No this couldn't be happening, this was wrong, and the worst part is no one could hear me over the music that blasted in the bar. Al ripped my nightgown off as I was fighting and pleading for him to stop. "You little whore you now you want this" then he was going for my underwear and he ripped them off me and started to try to kiss me, Oh god did he smell of beer and whisky and cigarettes. He unzipped his pants and put his dick in me! He was raping me! He entered me hard and fast, the fact I was a virgin meant that It hurt even more, I screamed out in pain, begging him to stop that it hurt, but he kept pounding in me over and over again. I felt as if my body stopped feeling and my ears stopped hearing and then I fainted.