Part II

On the way to her car Erica let the tears flow and did nothing to stop the. She didn't care who saw, she didn't care at all. She just let them flow no holding back. On the way back to her apartment Erica had to pull over because her eyes got so watery she couldn't see anything. Finale her eyes were clear and dry from crying so much was on the road again.

Erica got home about 30 minutes later, and now her eyes had another set of tears in them, she sat on her couch and cried. How could she be so cruel to Callie? The girl that you know you want to spend the rest of your life with. But again how could Callie pick Stevens over her? How could Callie sleep with Mark only a few hours after having mind-blowing sex with you? These were the questions that were bouncing around in Erica's head all night.

Erica went to bed that night craving Callie to hold her. After everything that Callie did to her, she still wished Callie was there to hold her. A while later, after what seemed like forever, Erica gave up on sleep and went into the kitchen. She poured herself a glass of red wine and sat in the living room and just began to think.

All she did for Callie, she would give Callie the world if she could. She always understood Callie out, and never underestimated. She would never leave Callie in a nervous breakdown or a revelation, never. But now reflecting back, what did Callie do for Erica? Yes Callie was there for her, when it was her best friend speaking, but girlfriend, Erica was unsure. Callie was sleeping with Sloan, and her excuse was always, "This is new, and it's scary." Yes it was new and scary for Callie; it was also that way for Erica. But never did she run off to find herself a "sex buddy" for when times got hard and confusing. But again, Erica had to love the way she smiles even if you do something really corny. Or the way her hair smells, or the way she looks at her. She loved the way Callie would curl her toes when she would have an orgasm. And so much more is what make Erica fall fast for Callie.

But Erica knew if she was going to be happy, Callie would make her happy, but not if Callie decides to keep doing this. Erica needed her there when times get hard; to talk to her, not go sleep with Sloan. She felt like she could not trust Callie anymore, and Erica didn't think she could live with that. She knew what she had to do.

The next morning Erica was wide awake by 7am and Erica knew she had to do this. She picked up the phone and dialed the numbers she knew by heart.

It rang a good 3 rings till someone finale picked up.

"Hey big sis! How are you and Callie?" Hearing Callie's named, Erica just wanted to hang up and cry her eyes out. But Erica needed to do this.

"Hey Nicole, I was wondering if I could ask you a favor?"

"Sure. Is everything ok?"

"No not really. I need to get out of Seattle, like today. Callie and I are not working and I need to get away, and I don't think I can come back. I was wondering if I could stay with you. I was hopefully going to try to find work there, and rent my own apartment. But till then I will need a place to stay."

"Umm, yeah you can stay with me till whenever, my home is big enough. Do you want to talk about what happened, I mean are you sure you want to leave everything behind in Seattle?"

"Nicole, I don't want to talk right now. And yes I am sure, this is what I need, I can't live like this." Now Erica was really about to cry, as much as she wanted to she had to stay strong. At least till she gets to her sisters.

"How are you going to get everything here today? I really think you should wait, at least just a few more days…"

Erica cut her off, "Nicole, please, I need to do this today. I can't stay her any longer. I hurt every minute I am here. I will be there today, don't worry. I know people; I will get down there in one piece. Plus I am the world's cardio goddess."

"What ever you say Erica, you always know best…call me when you plane is going to land. I have to go I will be late for work it's almost 10:30. Love you, see you soon I guess."

"Alright, love you too. I will call you when I land. Bye"

Next Erica booked a 6 o'clock one-way flight to her sisters. It was now 8:00am giving her only 10 hours to get everything packed and on their way. Good thing she didn't have too much stuff around her apartment.

Erica ended up calling her good friend from grade school, Tommy, he owned a moving company with his brother.

"Hey Tommy, its Erica."

"Hey Erica, what can I help you with?"

"Well I'm moving…today."

"Wow so fast. So you need moving service, right?"

"Yeah, can you have your people here by 4? I have a flight at 6 so I will be leaving by 5:30."

"Sure, so we will be driving you?"

"No, I'm going to take a cab to the airport and leave my car with my mom. Just till I get it to my sisters. But thanks Tom, you're a life saver."

"I know, just promise you will visit."

"I will try my best to." Erica knew though, once she was out of Seattle she would not be coming back. It would be too hard, or if she does come back and sees Callie, who knows she may never leave. And Erica knew she had to leave and stay away.

"Alright see you are 4 then. Bye."

"Bye."

Erica hung up the phone and grabbed her keys; she was heading to the hospital.

She stormed into the front doors and straight into Chief Webber's office.

"Dr. Hahn what brings you into my office so quickly?" The Chief asks look at an out of breath Erica.

"Richard I am sad to say, but I must resign. I can't work here anymore." Erica stated trying to sound as professional as ever, because she was not going to break down in front of the Chief.

"I'm sorry to hear this. I, uh, was it something in this hospital that is making you leave it?" The Chief was confused and he deserved a reason to why the sudden resign.

"It's not this hospital, I love this hospital. Fuck, I actually like the people in this one for once…well better then I did in the past ones. Crap! I may even like Yang!" Erica could see with the last sentence she really had the Chief confused. She took a deep breath, and she just told him, "I love this hospital and I really like the people in it. Days don't go by with out something interesting happening. But the problem is personal and to fix it I must leave this hospital."

"Erica, please reconsider, I mean if you need time off I can give you 2 weeks to fix your problem. But please Erica you are the cardio goddess, I'd hate to not have you working in my hospital."

"Richard, its not that I'm just leaving this hospital, I'm leaving Seattle. And could you do me a favor and if Callie or Mark or anyone comes in here looking for me don't tell them I left. Especially Callie and Mark." Gosh Erica knew Callie would break down in front of the Chief once she heard the news. Erica couldn't do that to Callie, plus she knew if Mark found out that he would run and tell Callie, that's not good either.

"Sure Erica, but please, when this problem is figured out, think of coming back to Seattle. I will hold it open for as long as I can."

"Thanks Richard and I will try." Another lie there, Erica had strong feelings she was not coming back. And with that said she got up, went to her locker, got everything and left. She walks out of those front doors for the last time. Now she was heading home to pack.

By one Erica had gotten everything packed but her bedroom. She was working around her room, starting with clothes and ending with her bathroom. It wasn't long till she ran across a shirt Callie had left there, long before they were dating.

--Flashback--

Erica and Callie had just gotten in from a long night at Joe's. Callie was way too drunk to drive home, and since Erica left her car at Joe's because she had more then a little bit of alcohol, seemed like Callie was spending the night,

"I am going to lay out some shorts and a t-shirt for you to wear to bed; you can take my bed I will take the couch." Erica said feeling a little more sober then she was an hour ago.

"No way, I take the couch you take the bed."

"No Callie, look we are two adults, and I'm way too tired to fight. Lets just both take my bed it is big enough." Callie just nodded. "Ok I will go get ready, you can use this bathroom."

Erica came out of the bathroom, faced washed, teeth brushed, just to find a sleeping Callie in her bed. Erica slid next to her and wrapped her arms very lightly around Callie's waist trying not to wake her. Callie then slid into her embrace and they fit like two puzzle pieces.

The next morning Erica got an early page from the hospital that they needed her. She left a note explaining why she had to leave, and a change of clothes for Callie in the bathroom. Then she was off to work. Later she came home to find Callie had taken all her stuff with her, but her shirt. Erica was going to return it I guess she just never go around to it.

--End of Flashback—

Now Erica was on her bed in tears of remembering Callie. She knew she needed to let go. Erica also knew she couldn't do that. Not unless she gave all that reminded her of Callie back. Erica set the shirt aside and began packing again. Soon by 3:15 her whole apartment was in boxes, except for a shirt, a picture, and a key that lay on the bed. Since she had unplugged the T.V and everything, she had about an hour to kill. She sat on a chair in the living room, and started thinking.

"Should I call Callie?" Erica was now talking to herself. "She does deserve a proper goodbye…no, no, no I can't. I know I'm weak when it comes to Callie, I just can't. If I see her or hear her, I will end up canceling everything and stay. I can't stay; I need to let myself be happy. How will I get the stuff to her without seeing her? Well I can stop by her apartment but Yang has today off so she will be there, fuck I would hate running into her… Got it, I will put it all in a box and before I leave, leave it outside my door with a note. I know Callie, she will be coming to see me if I'm not in work, she always did. I have to do this; I have to move on…"

Erica got a box and wrote the note. Her moving guys were at her door by 4 sharp and by 5:25 the movers were on their way. On her way out Erica dropped the box in front of her door, and taped the note to it. This was really it; she walked out the lobby of her apartment, got in the cab waiting for her, and was off to the airport. In 30 minutes she would be on her way to New Jersey, leaving everything she knew in Seattle behind. Callie, Mark, the hospital, everyone and everything she knew was going to be a thing of the past in just 30 short minutes.

But what Erica didn't know was, around 5:15 Mark stopped to see how Erica was and to talk some sense into her, that's when he saw the movers, and Erica's suitcase. Mark might be pretty, and cocky, but he was smart. Mark put two and two together and figured out what Erica was up to. He decided to go home, and wait till tomorrow to tell Callie the news; she had been through a lot that day.

"Can I really move on, after everything, could I really leave and be happy?" That was the question that haunted Erica the whole trip from Seattle to New Jersey.