The raven grumbled as he crossed his arms at the other, feeling quite annoyed at Shizuo's rudeness. That was really uncalled for.
"You really don't have to be that rude protozoan. I'm trying to be nice to you and the first thing you do is get angry." Izaya sighed dramatically, already hearing the voices in his head whisper menacingly at the back of his mind.
"He obviously doesn't want to be near you. Why do you try so hard? You're unwanted by everyone...everyone except for us~" The voices in his head got louder and louder. Each one pointing his every flaw; every single reason why he was alone.
"You're a failure if you're stuck here; A lonely man who can't even make friends with another lunatic; You became your own downfall."
Izaya hissed and gripped on the hair of his head; feeling the voices overpower his own thoughts. He couldn't think, he felt like he was being yelled at from the inside, he began to hyperventilate, the weight of everything falling onto him. The former informant whimpered in miserable, agonizing pain; tears rolling down his cheeks as he repeated a mantra to himself, "I'm not alone. I'm not alone. I'm not alone. I'm not alone." He repeated the words until he gradually began to compose himself. The raven wiped the tears away and smiled at the other who looked at him horrified.
"W-What the hell was that?!" It was wrong to ask that but it scared him that someone like..like HIM did that just now. Shizuo felt so much pity for Izaya because he could only guess why he was like this. He seemed like an average annoying pest until he began to just fall apart in a matter of seconds. Maybe he was worse than him.
"Oh that? That was nothing don't worry. It doesn't pertain to you." Izaya grinned childishly, trying to brush aside the episode he just had. He wasn't ready to admit that he was insane. He just wasn't ready to accept the truth not yet and maybe not ever. The raven-haired male wrapped his arms around the other and whined, "Shizuuuu-channn~ Come on do something with me we don't have much time left! I'm not willing to be alone again! Er...I mean I get bored in my room." No one was supposed to know why he was like this. No one was supposed to know why he didn't want to be left alone. He was a broken man and he was in denial of everything that has happened to him. He didn't want to think he was alone.
In his state of thought, Shizuo wanted to ask him if he was alright. Izaya was clinging to him and he didn't want to just push him away but he also didn't want to hurt another person. He frantically pushed him away, making Izaya stumble and fall over.
"Dammit I said no! I..I said get the fuck away from me you fucking freak! I don't need friends like you and..and I just don't need friends in general!" Shizuo snarled at the small raven who was just speechless.
"Get away from me and just stay out of my sight or rip you in half.." The threat was real though he wasn't thinking clearly. He was trying to do the right thing for both of them. Shizuo didn't want to hurt him and he didn't want to live with the guilt.
"B..But..- " As he spoke, one of the nurse's blew a whistle meaning it was time to go back inside. Shizuo glared at Izaya and stomped off angrily inside. What had just happened? He didn't do anything at all and he just threatened him. Izaya stood up and made his way into the building where he was escorted to his room to spend several more hours until visiting hours at three.
Sooo I just updated both this chapter and the name. Please tell me its alright