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Flashback...
She had the time to consider that she was no longer married. Her divorce had been granted. She really missed him. It would take a lot of work to get her personal life somewhat in order. She needed to retrieve her belongings from the loft, find a new apartment and finally come to the realization that she lost him. That would be the hardest hurdle to overcome. Her professional life was the another problem she would hope would work itself out. Other than the meetings at 1PP and the added paperwork for two divisions her job was manageable. At times, it was like she was still a detective. Because she went rouge in her quest to find LOCSTAT when she was promoted to Captain she had been put on a short leash by the top brass. It was only now starting to loosen. She could see that the boys were hit hardest by her divorce. They were in love with the idea that she and Rick had beaten the odds, but now that it fell to pieces she was not so sure if they still understand how it went all so wrong. Lanie on the other hand just about disowned her. There were girls nights she had been invited out to but Kate could not face her after the way she treated her. Lanie kept bring up the fact that she was keeping something from her. One night when they actually did get together and Kate just about had enough of Lanie's bullshit. So Kate called it her on it.
"Lanie you have no idea what is going on between us. Just don't assume you know everything!"
"KATE It's what you are afraid of the most that prevents you from staying in a loving relationship...Communication among other things!.
"Lanie, you have no clue! I'm keeping him safe."
After Kate let that little bit of information slip, she became so angry that she stood up, slapped Lanie and left the bar with her holding her hand to her face.
She thought about calling the Dr. Burke to see if he could make time for a session. She called and he could fit her in but it would not be until tomorrow. So she kept busy until she went to bed. Now as she tried to get to sleep she knows that she had ruined the last friendship she had left.
Javi and Lanie were still an item while Rick and Kate were going through their divorce. She had actually thought that they were getting to a point in their relationship where they would have possibly taken the next step. That was until Javi had come to her to report on the case that they had just closed and delivered the case paperwork for her final signature. As he finished his summary, his eyes were drawn to the final divorce decree laying on her desk. As she looked at him his face went passive. Right, there she knew that he had lost all faith in the sanctity of marriage and the thought of being with one woman for the rest of his life.
"Javi, you know it's not the same for you and Lanie, right? The two of you have something very special."
"Kate do we? Don't be so sure of that, because I'm not. She won't commit. It has something to do at her time before college. I know that much. But she won't tell me what happened."
A couple of days later on a night out one evening, Lanie and Javi touched lightly on Rick and Kate and their situation. On one hand Javi sided with Kate, telling her that Rick could not understand what it was to be a cop. Lanie quickly defended Rick telling him that Rick only wanted to keep his wife safe and be able to come home to him at the end of each shift. The conversation quickly turned into a shouting match before either of them knew it. Angry words were hurled at each other. By the end of the meal, they both had decided that ending their relationship was the best thing they could do. As he lies in bed later that night his mind wanders to Kate, who had so many hopes, dreams, and fantasies about dating and marrying her multimillion dollar writer and then they could be thrown to the gutter so quickly. He sees the pattern emerging once again. His parents had done basically the same thing splitting up and with that split, he never had a father figure in his life. Committed relationships? Yeah well, that worked out just great for Beckett now didn't it?