Dear diary, I had another nightmare and I can't go back to sleep, so I decided to write to rake my mind off things. I hope today goes well. I still feel sad ever since that incident, bit I can't remain sad forever so day I'm turning over a new leaf. Or old leaf I should say, because today is where I go back to my old self, doing things I used to do. I'm sick of crying and secluding myself, no that shit stops today. It won't change anything and it won't bring them back. So today I'm just going to smile and say "I'm fine, thank you", even though I feel dead inside. I know I said I'm turning over a new leaf, but change is hard, life is hard. There's still a few hours before school so I'm gonna try and sleep.
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I wake up to the feeling of someone spooning me, I don't even have to look, because I know who it is. It's my twin sister, she must have come in after I fell asleep, we used to do this as kids all the time, I guess we never grew out of it. I make a move as to get up, but she pull me against her tightly.
"Come on, its time to get up", I said.
"No...sleep more", she said
I pull myself loose and laugh at the lazy groan sound she made. I walk over to the curtain and open it.
"Noo!", she shouted and covered her face with the blanket.
I ignore her her and start to get ready, first things first bathroom. I walked out of my room and went to the bathroom. On my way there I open my little brother's door and walked in. I walk up to his bed and shake him awake.
"Hey Jeremy, it time to get up", I say.
"Ugh...already?", he groaned.
"Yeah school starts the same time as always", I say on my way out.
"Why?", he complained tiredly.
I know it was a rhetorical question, but I answered anyway, "because the world hates teenagers"
"So true", he agreed
I closed his door and turn around to go into the bathroom, it's just opposite his room. I turn on the shower, undressed and got in. I like showering it's a good place to think about the most random shit ever, like who invented popped corn. I get that it's delicious and I can't live without it, but I can't help but wonder, what the person who discovered popped corn was doing to the corn.
I loose my train of thought when I hear the door open, it's just Jeremy. We are comfortable around each other, so we don't mind being naked around one another. I hear him lift up the toilet seat, then the sound of him pissing.
"How long are you still gonna be?", he asked.
"Um a few more minutes, I guess", I answered, I don't really like being rushed.
"Cool", he said as he finished.
I hear him take off his boxers, then he opens the curtain and gets in behind me.
"What do you think you're doing?", I asked slightly irritated.
"I couldn't wait, not like you mind anyway", he said smugly
"Yes I wouldn't if you were not my brother, but you are, so I do mind", I said.
"Big deal", he said.
Arggg sometimes I hate him, he just laughs at my frustration. Anyway I finish up and step out, I brush my teeth, dry off the remaining water and wrap myself in the towel. I walk out the bathroom and go to my room, it's empty. Hmm she's probably getting ready, well at least I got some privacy for now. I get dressed in my usual outfit everything black, black skinny, black crop top and black converse. I brush my long hair and put it in a ponytail, I also put on my favorite purfume. I know its a bit much for school, but you gotta look and smell fabulous. Suddenly jeremy come in my room completely naked.
"Ever hear of knocking?", I ask
"No, have you?", he answered
"Touché, what do you want?", I ask, but I didn't really have to, because he's already opening my drawers.
"I'm out of jocks", he said simply and grabbed a pair of jocks and put it on, "and you look good by the way, more gayer than usual"
"Get out!", I said irritated, as I pushed him out.
He just laughs at my actions and goes to his room to put on the rest of his clothes. I make my way downstairs, to get some coffee. I put on the coffee maker and waited for about five minutes maybe. Just as I poured myself a cup I hear footsteps and I see Aunt Jenna and Elena coming downstairs.
"Toast. I can make toast.", Jenna said.
"It's all about the coffee, Aunt Jenna." Elena said as I poured her a cup, "thanks Harry, your the best"
"Is there coffee?" Jeremy asked as he come down.
I giggled at the face he made, "yeah I made enough for everyone"
"Awesome", he said happily
Aunt Jenna was in a rush today, she must've over slept.
"Your first day of school and I'm totally unprepared. Lunch money?", she asked
"I'm good." Elena replied
"Anything else? A number two pencil? What am I missing?", Jenna hurriedly asked
"Don't you have a big presentation today?", I asked
Jenna looked at her watch and said, "I'm meeting with my thesis advisor at...now. Crap!"
Elena laughed then said, "Then go. We'll be fine." She looked at Jeremy and asked, "You okay?"
"Don't start.", he said as he walked out
Elena sighed and I said, "don't worry, you know how he is I'll talk to him later"
Elena picked up her keys and said, "yeah he always talks to you, anyway I'm going now. Is Bonnie gonna be here soon?"
"Yeah, she's on her way", I replied
Elena just nodded and walked out to her car, I don't have one. Not because I don't want one, it's because our parents dead before I could get one. Now it just feels wrong to get one, like I'm still waiting for them to come home, even though I know they're not.
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I was watching TV when bonnie hooted, it was some missing person's case, I don't care really, wasn't actually watching anyway. I grabbed my things and left, I lock up behind me and climbed into the car.
"Hey girl, I can't wait to tell you what happened!" Bonnie said excitedly
"Hey don't tell me Tyler is still chasing after Vicki" I said, slightly depressed
"Damn you still got the hots for that boy?" She asked slightly amused
I stared at her in disbelief and said, "What he's hot and he's sweet and funny…"
"He's a jerk" she interrupted in the same tone of voice as me
"Yeah I was getting to that" I said quietly
"Sure you were" she said sarcastically
After that we chatted about random things, how was your summer, what did you do, were their any boys, oh my god you got his number, that so cool. I just started zoning out and she kept talking.
"So Grams is telling me I'm psychic. Our ancestors were from Salem, witches and all that, I know, crazy, but she's going on and on about it, and I'm like, put this woman in a home already! But then I started thinking, I predicted Obama and I predicted Heath Ledger, and I still think Florida will break off and turn into little resort islands...", Bonnie said, then she saw I spaced out, "Harry! Back in the car."
I napped out of my daydream and said, "I did it again, didn't I? I-I'm sorry, Bonnie. You were telling me that..."
"That I'm psychic now.", she finished
"Right. Okay, then predict something. About me.", I smiled
Bonnie giggled, "I see..."
A crow suddenly hit the car. I got a shock and Bonnie noticed, "What was that?! Oh, my god! Harry, are you okay?", she asked
"It's okay. I'm fine." I assured her
"It was like a bird or something. It came out of nowhere.", she said, not buying it
I sighed, then said, "Really, I can't be freaked out by cars for the rest of my life."
Bonnie smiled at me, then said, "I predict this year is going to be kick ass. And I predict all the sad and dark times are over and you are going to be beyond happy."
I just laughed, not really believing her. I know she's just trying to cheer me up, but its not really helping. So I just wear my signature fake smile, laugh my fake laugh and hope that she doesn't notice.
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We arrived at school, with a few minutes to spare. Elena found us and I explain why we a few minutes later than usual. We then entered the school, I passed familiar faces smiling in greeting. Everyone ignores us, no one is sympathetic anymore, its not really surprising. We find our lockers, which is conveniently next to each other.
Bonnie was 'surveying the crowd', then she says, "major lack of male real estate. Look at the shower curtain on Kelly Beech. She looks like a hot — can I still say "tranny mess"?"
"No, that's over.", Elena laughed
"Ahh, find a man, coin a phrase. It's a busy year.", Bonnie said
Elena waves to Matt. He ignores her, "He hates me.", she said
I looked at Elena then at Matt and said, "honey that's not hate. That's 'you dumped me, but I'm too cool to show it, but secretly I'm listening to Air Supply's greatest hits.'"
Caroline approaches us, "Elena. Oh, my god."
Caroline hugs Elena, she always preferred Elena, not that I care anyway. I don't need fake bitches in my life
"How are you? Oh, it's so good to see you too.", she smiled at me, bitch. Then she asks Bonnie, "How is she? Is she good?"
"Caroline, I'm right here. And I'm fine. Thank you.", Elena smiles. I know that it's fake, because I'm using the same tactic.
"Really?" Caroline asks, god she's so gullible
"Yes. Much better.", Elena said
"Oh, you poor thing." Caroline cried. OK maybe she's not gullible
Caroline hugs her again.
Elena laughed then said, "Okay, Caroline."
"Oh! Okay, see you guys later?" Caroline said, then she left us
"OK! Bye!", Bonnie shouted after her
We waited until Caroline was out of ear shot, then elena said, "No comment."
"I'm not going to say anything.", Bonnie smiled
We laughed at what just happened. We then walked toward our first class. I saw, Jeremy with Vicki. They were talking, that's when I saw Tyler, he approached them. They now appear to be arguing, Tyler put his arm around Vicki and made out with her. My heart sank and I sighed sadly.
"You still have a crush on Tyler?", Elena asked
"Huh...what? N-no I don't", I said, blushing
"Yeah he does, he told me", Bonnie said smiling
"Wha-...Bonnie!" I slapped her arm lightly
"She didn't even need to tell me, it's written all over your face", Elena laughed, then she continued to say, "why? He's a jerk"
"Ha! I told you so", Bonnie said
"Shut up guys", I said, they drop the subject and we carried on walking
We walked passed the school office, when Bonnie stopped us.
"Hold up. Who's this?", she said
Elena and I looked and saw a guy, "All I see is back." Elena said confused
"It's a hot back." Bonnie said dreamily, "I'm sensing Seattle, and he plays the guitar."
"You're really going to run this whole psychic thing into the ground, huh?" I said
"Pretty much." She laughed
"Jeremy, good batch, man." We heard some random guy say
Elena sighed and said, "I'll be right back."
"I'll go with you" I said, and we walked toward the boys bathroom
Just as we left I heard Bonnie say quietly, "Please be hot."
We enter the bathroom and Elena rushes to Jeremy like a panther, its quite funny really. When she is mad, she becomes super sister. She is the protective one, me I'm just the quiet one. Elena grabs Jeremy's face, looking into his eyes to see if he's high.
"Great. It's the first day of school and you're stoned.", she said
"No, I'm not.", he denied
Elena searched him like airport security and said, "Where is it? Is it on you?"
Jeremy battered her hands away, "Stop, all right?! You need to chill yourself, all right?" He said
"Chill myself? What is that, stoner talk? Dude, you are so cool." She laughed sarcastically
Jeremy moved backward, "Look, stop! I don't have anything on me. Are you crazy?" He said
"You haven't seen crazy, Jeremy! I gave you a summer pass, but I am done watching you destroy yourself. No, no, no, you know what? Go ahead. Keep it up. But just know that I am going to be there to ruin your buzz every time, you got it? Jeremy, I know who you are. And it's not this person. So don't be this person." She finished, then she left. It must've gotten too much for her.
We see her walk out, then I turn back him, "why Jeremy, why'd you do it?" I asked
He hates it when I look at him with disappointment, I see he's at the brink of crying, "I don't know...I don't need this." He says before leaving
I'm alone in the bathroom now, I look down trying to comprehend the situation. I sighed, then I turned to leave, but I bumped into someone. I apologized without looking at him, but he grabbed my shoulders. I got a shock, like a cold shock. I quickly looked up at him.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"Yeah, fine" I said quickly, I moved away from him to the door quickly, I don't know how but he just felt like death
He looks at me suspiciously, "you sure?"
"Yeah" I said and I exited.
I saw Elena standing next to the door, she waited for me. We just stared at each other not saying anything, then we just walked to class together.
A few minutes of class and I'm already bored, but that's history for yo. Tanner just makes it worse and he's not even hot. I swear of he wasn't such a dick, he'd probably be able to get laid. Yeah that's what he needs, he needs to get laid and I sure as hell ain't volunteering. Crap he's looking this way, I pretend to be listening.
"Once our home state of Virginia joined confederacy in 1861, it created a tremendous amount of tension within the state. People in Virginia's northwest region had different ideals than those from the traditional deep south. Then Virginia divided in 1863 with the northwest region joining the union."
Ok he's not looking anymore, god that was close. I look at Elena, but she's got he eyes on someone else. I follow her gaze and I see its that guy from the bathroom.
My phone vibrates, it's from our group chat
Bonnie: E, HAWT-E STARING U.
Elena look at that guy again, then looks to the front.
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It's five and I just finished my homework, it's just Jeremy and I at home. Elena is out, she always goes somewhere after school. I look over to the lounge, Jeremy is there, he's watching something on TV. Most people think he's my older brother, because he is taller than me. Well most people are taller than me, but that's not the point. Maybe it's because he acts like my guardian most of the time. He hates it when I'm disappointed in him, because he wants to look out for me, even though it should be the other way around.
I pack my books away and I walk to the lounge. I stand in the doorway for a few seconds, then I sat next to him. He's watching something, I think its a movie. Its only been about five minutes and Jeremy brakes the ice.
He sighs, "I know you want to talk to me, so why don't you?"
"Shh, I'm watching", I said, I'm not actually
"Really? Then what just happened", he asked
Crap he got me there, "uhm...well...you see, he had something..."
"Yeah something", he laughed
"Fine I'm not watching, you got me", I pouted
"So what bothering you?", he asked
"You know what's bothering me", I said not looking at him
"The drugs? It's just how I cope, you wouldn't understand", he said
"I do understand, we all have different ways of coping, yours just happens to be drugs", I said
"Yeah, and yours is crying yourself to sleep", I looked at him questioningly and he continued to say, "my room is next to yours and you're not as quiet as you think"
"Sorry...", I say automatically
"Don't apologize, we all have different ways of coping", he smiled and he put his arm around me
"Just try and stop, please", I asked
"I will, eventually", he said
We sat like that for about a half hour, then he got up.
"I'm going to the mystic grill" he said
"Ok, I'll stay here and wait for Elena", I said.
"Yeah...well see you" he said as he left.
I decided to take a little nap, school is very draining.
I woke to the sound of talking in the kitchen, it was Elena and Aunt Jenna. I don't know how long I slept for, I yawned and went to the kitchen.
"Hey there sleeping beauty, how was school?" Jenna asked
"You know that question is always answered with fine, right?", I said
"Funny" Jenna smiled
"Harry, we're going to the grill, Bonnie's there already", Elena said
"Okay, have fun. Wait, I got this. Don't stay out late, it's a school night." Jenna said as sternly as she could
"Well done, Aunt Jenna." Elena laughed.
Elena and i go to the door and she opens the door, "Oh."
The guys from the boys bathroom was there
"Sorry, I was about to knock." He said
"It's ok, um Harry this is Stefan, Stefan this is my twin brother Harry", Elena introduced
"I wanted to apologize for my disappearing act earlier. I know it was...strange." Stefan said
"No worries. I get it, blood makes you squeamish." Elena said
"Um, something like that. How's your leg?" He said awkwardly
"Oh, it's fine. Just a scratch, barely. How did you know where I lived?" Elena asked
"It's a small town. I asked the first person I saw. Um, I thought you might want this back." He hands her, her diary
"Oh, I must have dropped it. I-thank you.", she smiled
"Don't worry, I didn't...read it." He said quickly
"No? Why not? Most people would have." She said, that is surprising
"Well, I wouldn't want anyone to read mine." He smiled
"You keep a journal?" She asked
"Yeah, if I don't write it down, I forget it. Memories are too important." He said
"Yeah. I'm just gonna...umm, you don't have to stay out there." She said as she went to put her diary away.
He looked at me then said, "I'm fine. Sorry, were you guys going somewhere?"
Elena smiled and said, "Yeah, I'm meeting a friend. Do you want to come?"
"Sure" he said
"I'm gonna go on ahead, Bonnie's probably worried" I finally said, eying Stefan
"Ok", Elena said
And with that I left to the Mystic Grill.
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Mystic Grill, the place to be for teens, they like the vibe and the alcohol. Personally it think this place is a piss hole, I just entered this place and my nose is already scrunched up by the smell of cheap beer. I looks like the usual crowd tonight, oh god Tyler's here. He doesn't see me, who am I kidding he never sees me. Feeling depressed I sit at the bar and order a orange juice. I see Bonnie and Matt talking and I decide to eavesdrop
"How's Elena doing?" Matt asked Bonnie
"Her mom and dad died. How do you think? She's putting on a good face, but it's only been four months." Bonnie answered sadly
"Has she said anything about me?" He asked hopefully. Hm nope not a word Romeo, she's currently busy with the grim reaper
"Oh, no. So not getting in the middle. You pick up the phone and call her." Bonnie said
"I feel weird calling her. She broke up with me." Matt said
Bonnie smiled and said, "give it more time, Matt."
Then the dazzling pair enters and the crowd looks at them for a brief moment. Bonnie is taken aback, mouth slightly open.
Matt sighs then says, "More time, huh?"
He walks over to Elena and Stefan, "Hey, I'm Matt, nice to meet you."
"Hi. Stefan." Stefan said
"Hey." Elena greets awkwardly
"Hey." Matt says before getting back to work.
We found a table, it was just me, Bonnie, Caroline, Elena and Stefan. We ordered drinks and talked about ransoms things. Then the true topic came up, Stefan.
"So, you were born in Mystic Falls?" Caroline asked
"Mm-Hmm. And moved when I was still young." Stefan answered
"Parents?" Bonnie asked
"My parents passed away." He said, I think I may have detected a hint of anger. Meh must've imagined it.
"I'm sorry. Any siblings?" Elena said
"None that I talk to. I live with my uncle." He said, looking at her
"So, Stefan, if you're new, then you don't know about the party tomorrow." Caroline said
"It's a back to school thing at the falls." Bonnie said quickly
"Are you going?" He asked Elena
"Of course she is." Bonnie answered
"This has been fun, but I gotta go." I said
"Already?" Elena asked
"Yeah..." I said, I look at them, my shift to Stefan briefly then smiled, "I'm feeling kinda tired" I'm not really tired I just don't feel comfortable around Stefan
"Let me drive you" Elena offered
"No I'll walk" I insisted
"Harry its not safe to walk this late alone" Elena said
"I'll walk with him" Stefan said getting up
Shit
Elena started saying, "Are you sure, I d..."
"Its fine, its ok my way. My uncle must be so worried already. I didn't tell him that I was going out" Stefan said
I was already walking out, shit I wanted to avoid this guy. I can't believe he's walking me home.
"Harry wait up" Stefan called out.
I don't, I keep walking. He catches up and stops me.
"Hey is there something wrong" he said
"No, I'm fine" I said
"No you're not, you don't speak around me. Its like you're scared of me" Stefan said
"Psh haha, scared of you. That's funny" I said and I attempt walking. But he stops me again.
"Then what's wrong" Stefan asked again
"I don't know. I just have this bad feeling around you" I said honestly
"Hmmm"
"What?" I asked
"Nothing, let's just go. Its getting late" he answered
As promised he got me home safely and we said our goodbyes. The rest of the night was pretty uneventful.
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Morning finds us in class history class, my favourite subject. God Tanner's looking at me, I think I threw up in my mouth a little. Tanner's in a bad mood today, when he's in a bad mood he tends to ask us questions and insult us, wait that's normal. I hate this class, Tanner is such a dick, I wish I could punch him. Who am I kidding he'd probably kick my ass, but I'd get in a few punches...maybe. This is awful, time is going sooo slow, I wanna get outta here before he asks me
"The Battle of Willow Creek took place right at the end of the war in our very own Mystic Falls. How many casualties resulted in this battle? Ms. Bennett?" Tanner asks
"Um...a lot? I'm not sure. Like a whole lot." Bonnie answers
Tanner laughs like she told him a joke, "Cute becomes dumb in an instant, Ms. Bennett." He said, what an asshole. Now he's looking for his next victim
"Mr. Donovan? Would you like to take this opportunity to overcome your embedded jock stereotype?" He asks
"It's okay, Mr. Tanner, I'm cool with it." Matt answers smoothy
"Hmm. Elena? Surely you can enlighten us about one of the town's most significantly historical events?" He asks
Elena replies hesitantly, "I'm sorry, I-I don't know."
Tanner look at her and said, "I was willing to be lenient last year for obvious reasons, Elena. But the personal excuses ended with summer break." That fucking bitch
"There were 346 casualties. Unless you're counting local civilians." Stefan suddenly answers
Tanner takes one last look at Elena, then looks at Stefan, "That's correct. Mister...?"
"Salvatore." Stefan said
"Salvatore. Any relation to the original settlers here at Mystic Falls?" Tanner asks
"Distant." Stefan replied
Tanner gave a little smile, "well, very good. Except, of course, there were no civilian casualties in this battle."
"Actually" Stefan interrupted, "there were 27, sir. Confederate soldiers, they fired on the church, believing it to be housing weapons. They were wrong. It was a night of great loss. The founder's archives are, uh, stored in civil hall if you'd like to brush up on your facts, Mr. Tanner."
Finally someone out staged the bastard, but that's totally gonna bite him in the ass later. Tanner just hummed in response, very smooth. Anyway nothing much happened throughout the rest of the day. Time just fly from that moment on.
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Tonight's the night where everyone gets completely smashed, I wonder what's gonna happen this year. Something always happans at these kind of parties, nothing too drastic though. The party is buzzing, Elena and Bonnie are talking, Jeremy is just drinking, Tyler and Vicki are making out and I need a drink. I drink two shot of tequila and I grab a glass (by glass I mean shitty plastic cup) of whiskey on the the rocks. I don't know what to do now, so I decided to stand by Bonnie and Elena.
"Just admit it, Elena." Bonnie said
Elena laughed and said, "Oh, okay, so he's a little pretty."
"He has that romance novel stare." Bonnie said dreamily
I laughed at their chatter, they saw me and laughed too
"So where is he?" Bonnie asked
"I don't know. You tell me, you're the psychic one." Elena laughed
"Right, I forgot. Okay, so give me a sec. Grams says I have to concentrate." Bonnie said
"Wait, you need a crystal ball." Elena said playfully
She picked up a bottle from the floor. She gives her the bottle. Bonnie takes it and touches Elena's hand. Bonnie spaces out for a while, comes back to her senses, and abruptly pulls her hand back.
"What?" Elena said surprised
"That was weird. When I touched you, I saw a crow." Bonnie said
"What?" Elena said, now sounding slightly scared
Bonnie think for a bit and says, "A crow. There was fog, a man. I'm drunk. It's the drinking. There's nothing psychic about it. Yeah? Ok, I'm gonna get a refill."
"Okay? Bonnie!" Elena said, confused
We look at each other and shrug our shoulders, I decide to follow her. When I caught up with her she was by the makeshift bar.
"Hey" I said
"Hey, if you're here to ask about what happened, I don't know" Bonnie said quickly
"I wasn't gonna ask you" I said
She breathes, "good"
"I actually have something to tell you" I said
"Well, shoot" Bonnie said
"I think I might be psychic too" I said
"Haha, very funny Harry. If you're trying to cheer me up, its not working" she said
"I'm serious, when stefan touched me, I felt...something" I said
"That's called butterflies Harry" she said
"No, it wasn't that, it was cold and I frightened me, and now I get this bad feeling whenever I'm near him" I said with slight terror in my voice
"Ok now you freaking me out" Bonnie said
"Yeah..." I said, Bonnie smiled and wondered off again
I looked to see where Elena was and I saw her with Stefan on a bridge, they look like their gonna kiss. No Stefan turned away and is now walking away, I wonder what happened.
I see Tyler at the makeshift bar, he looks slightly angry. I take a breathe and I walk over to him, he doesn't notice me.
"Hey" I greet
He looks at me, "uh Elena...no Harry, what's up"
"I came to see how you doing, you looked ticked off" I said
"Haha nah I'm just drunk" he said
"Yeah, so what are you like sober" I laugh
"I'm less ticked off" he smiles
I laugh and he looks at me with a smirk, a sexy smirk
"What?" I ask smiling
"There a rumour going around, they say you have a crush on me" Tyler said.
I just gasped
"So it's true" Tyler laughed
Now I'm nervous, I need to go, "I sho-i should go...find er...J-jeremy, yeah Jeremy"
I start walking away, but Tyler grabs my arm.
"Wait, I think its cute" Tyler said
I look at him and smile, he touches my face. We stare into each others eyes, I don't know how much time has past, but right now I'm in heaven. The butterflies in my stomach is overwhelming, I can't believe this is happening. He touches my lips and runs his hand through my hair. He cups his hands under my face and then he moves his head closer. I'm breathing heavily now. His eyes close and his lips are just inches away from mine, this moment is perfect.
"Somebody help!"
Wait that was Elena, "Elena?" I snap out of my daze and turn my head
"Vicki? Vicki, what the hell?!" Matt shouted
That's when we separated, because Tyler ran when he heard Vicki's name
"What happened to her?" He asks
Matt takes Vicki out of Jeremy's hands and shouts, "somebody, call an ambulance!"
"Everybody back up, give her some space!" Tyler shouted
"It's her neck. Something bit her. She's losing a lot of blood." Elena cried
"Put this on her neck." Some boy said, giving matt a shirt by the looks of it
"Vicki, Vicki, come on, open your eyes, look at me." Matt cried
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I can't believe Elena almost saw my face, I thought I could surpress the hunger, but couldn't. I just finished hunting and I went back to the party, but something happened. It looks like someone got hurt, then I saw it. A girl had a bite mark on her neck, Matt was holding her. He looks directly at me and I turned and walked away. Once I was away from the crowd I use my super speed to get home.
"What's going on?" Zach asked, he's my nephew, but he's posing as my uncle
"Someone else was attacked tonight, Zach, and it wasn't me." I said as I ran upstairs
I go into my room and I see that the balcony door is open. A crow flies past me and one person pops into my mind, it's my brother.
"Damon." I say
"Hello, brother." He's says, as he enters my room from the balcony doors
"Crow's a bit much, don't you think?" I say
"Wait till you see what I can do with the fog." He says smugly
"When'd you get here?" I ask
Damon laughs, "Well, I couldn't miss your first day at school. Your hair's different. I like it."
"It's been 15 years, Damon." I say, my temper is slowly rising
Damon smiles, "Thank God. I couldn't take another day of the nineties. That horrible grunge look? Did not suit you. Remember, Stefan, it's important to stay away from fads."
I sigh, he thinks this is funny, "Why are you here?", I ask
"I missed my little brother." He said
"You hate small towns. It's boring. There's nothing for you to do." I say
"I've managed to keep myself busy." Had says nonchalantly
"You know, you left that girl alive tonight. That's very clumsy of you." I stress out
"Ah. That can be a problem...for you." He laughs
"Why are you here now?" I ask
Damon smiles, "I could ask you the same question. However, I'm fairly certain your answer can be summed up all into one little word...Elena."
I look at him wide eyed
Damon laughs at my face and says, "She took my breath away. Elena. She's a dead ringer for Katherine. Is it working, Stefan? Being around her, being in her world? Does it make you feel alive?"
"She's not Katherine." I say
"Well, let's hope not. We both know how that ended. Tell me something, when's the last time you had something stronger than a squirrel?" He says
I shakemy head and say, "I know what you're doing, Damon. It's not gonna work."
"Yeah? Come on. Don't you crave a little?" He says, getting worked up and starts hitting me
"Stop it." I warn
"Let's do it. Together. I saw a couple girls out there. Or just, let's just cut to the chase, let's just go straight for Elena." He says
"Stop it!" I warn louder
"Imagine what her blood tastes like!" He shouts
And I do, I start imagining the taste. I feel my face change
"I can." He says
That push me over the edge, "I said stop!"
I growl as I run toward him, I shoulder bash him out the window and jump out after him. When I landed I look around and Damon wasn't there, then I heard clapping
He laugh, "I was impressed. I give it a six. Missing style, but I was pleasantly surprised. Very good with the whole face..." He made a mock growl, "...thing. It was good."
"You know, it's all fun and games, Damon, huh? But wherever you go, people die." I say
Damon let out a small laugh, then said, "That's a given."
"Not here. I won't allow it." I say adamantly
"I take that as an invitation." He says
"Damon, please. After all these years, can't we just give it a rest?" I begged
"I promised you an eternity of misery, so I'm just keeping my word." He smiled
"Just stay away from Elena." I say
"Where's your ring? Oh, yeah, sun's coming up in a couple of hours, and, poof, ashes to ashes." Then he opens his hand and says, "Relax. It's right here."
I looked at him briefly, the I take the ring and put it on, I look up to see his face in vampire mode. He quickly grabs me by my that and throws me against the garage. He walks to me and leans in close.
"You should know better than to think you're stronger than me. You lost that fight when you stopped feeding on people. I wouldn't try it again.", he says
He walk away and the lights go on inside
"I think we woke Zach up. Sorry, Zach." I hear him saysay
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I am standing with Caroline, Elena and Bonnie, they are talking. I don't hear what they saying, because my minds on Tyler. The ambulance finally arrives and they load Vicki in, matt also goes along with them.
"So, We're gonna go to Mainline Coffee, to wait for news." Bonnie says
"I gotta take Jeremy home." Elena says
"Yeah" I say too
Bonnie looks at Elena and say, "Elena, there's no way I'm psychic. I know that. But whatever I saw, or I think I saw, I have this feeling...
"Bonnie, what?" Elena says quietly
"That it's just the beginning" Bonnie finishes, then they leave for the cafe.
Jeremy is drinking a beer, when we get to him. Elena sits next to him and I stand opposite of them.
"You okay?" Elena asks, but Jeremy doesn't answer, so she continued, "I called Jenna, she's on her way. Those people in uniforms, last time I checked, they're the police." Jeremy throws the bottle in some bushes
"People are going to stop giving you breaks, Jer. They just don't care anymore. They don't remember that our parents are dead, because they've got their own lives to deal with. The rest of the world has moved on. You should try, too.", she says
Jeremy looks at her and say, "I've seen you in the cemetery, writing in your diary. Is that-is that supposed to be you moving on?"
"Mom and Dad wouldn't have wanted this." I say
At the Mystic Grill a while later
"Are you sober yet?" Bonnie asks
Caroline attempts to sit up, but fails, "No.", she says
Bonnie sighs "Keep drinking. I gotta get you home. I gotta get me home."
"Why didn't he go for me? You know, how come the guys that I want never want me?" Caroline says
"I'm not touching that." Bonnie says with her hands up
Caroline ignores her and continues to say, "I'm inappropriate. I always say the wrong thing. And...Elena always says the right thing. She doesn't even try! And he just picks her. And she's always the one that everyone picks, for everything. And I try so hard, and...I'm never the one."
Bonnie sighs, "It's not a competition, Caroline."
Caroline looks up and says, "Yeah, it is."
At the Hospital
Matt is sitting with Vicki in ICU. Vicki wakes up.
Matt takes Vicki's hand, "Vicki...Hey. Hey, it's okay. You're gonna be okay."
"Matt-" she tries to say
Matt stopped her, "Hey, don't try to talk, okay? You're fine."
"Vampire." she says before passing out again
Matt stares at her wide eyed and scared.
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Dear diary, I couldn't have been more wrong. I thought that I could smile, nod my way through it; pretend like it would all be ok.
I had a plan. I wanted to change who I was; create a life as someone new, someone without the past.
Without the pain.
Someone alive.
But it's not that easy. The bad things stay with you.
They follow you.
At Mystic Grill, Caroline is alone at the table. Damon looks at her.
You can't escape them, as much as you want to.
Damon smiles at Caroline. She smiles back.
At the Gilbert house, harry is on his bed
All you can do is be ready for the good. So when it comes, you invite it in, because you need it. I need it.
Harry looks at a picture of Tyler and smiles.
Elena is sitting by her window, she sees Stefan and goes downstairs. She opens the door and he is standing there.
"I know it's late. But, uh...I needed to know that you were ok." He says
Elena thinks for a bit then says, "You know, for months, that's all anyone's wondered about me. If I'll be ok."
"What do you tell them?" Stefan asks
"That I'll be fine.", she replies
Stefan looks at her, "Do you ever mean it?"
Elena smiles, "Ask me tomorrow. It's warmer in the house. We can talk. Would you like to come in?"
"Yes."
Stefan enters the house, Elena waits till he's inside, she smiles to herself and finally closes the door.