Chapter two telling everyone
As Im waiting for the elevator to tell my team what has happened, holding Jem in her carrier I couldn't help but think about what the future will hold and how I will cope. I knew that you would always be with us but I don't think I can do this on my own
"jethro" I was startled at the familiar voice I just heard. As I looked around and saw nothing I realised it was you, your voice.
"jen sweety" still looking around I suddenly see a faint figure out in front of me. Just as a ghost there you stood. Your slim figure with long red hair standing in front of the elevator.
"jethro you are going to be fine, you are great with children and you are not on your own" you said with a smile of release and stress free.
"I am on my own, you not here anymore" I staid staring into your gorgeous green eyes.
"jethro you are not alone you still have me in here" you spoke placing your small hand on top of my heart.
"you have your daughter and most of all you team, remember" you turned to face our daughter and whispered something in her ear. You seemed to be able to tickle her tummy, as she seemed to smile I couldn't help but smile myself.
"what did you say to her jen" you turned back to face me and simply said "that her mum will always be with her no matter what" and at that you faded away.
The elevator doors opened, me and jen walked in as the silver doors closed behind us. The doors opened again to reveal everyone standing in front of us. Waiting for the new arrival.
"Gibbs" Abby seemed to squeal as loud as her throat would allow her. "abs shhh" I seemed to hiss a bit harsher than it was meant to be
Jem started to cry
"oh is she crying at me…. I didn't mean to make her cry" tears crept into her eyes.
"abs, abs its ok" I spoke in more of a whisper than I would've liked, ducky stepped forward in front of Abby to take a look at the new member of the ncis family.
"hello my dear girl" placing a hand under her chin to tickle her.
"so.. What's her name" Tony butted in with one of his famous grins plastid on his face.
"its…. Its jenny Mari" I managed to stutter out. At once ziva had understood. You were dead. My eyes turned to her gaze in Israel they always used to honour the dead by naming a new born after them. Ziva never met my gaze. She turned and ran up the stairs to your office. Everyone a bit confused turned back towards Jem.
Tony broke the confused silence.
"ok that's strange calling your daughter after her mother, you only usually do that when the mothers d…" he stopped as he realised that you jenny Sheppard…. No jenny Gibbs had died. He now realised why ziva ran of.
"Im go… Im going to f… Im going to go find ziva" he whispered before walking up the stairs to ziva. I felt sorry for him he really cared about ziva, he hated to see her in pain and jen you were her best friend and even thought they both feel the same way I don't think they will ever admit it to them selves let alone each other.
When I came out of my daze of thought everyone who had crowded around to see the new born had either been crying or had left.
Ducky decided to speak first
"oh my dear boy, Im so sorry" he patted my shoulder much like the nurse had done. He took his hand off my shoulder and walked back to autopsy in silence. Most probably remembering all his time spent with you.
Abby had finally stopped crying and was now trying to squeeze all the pain out of me.
"abs you gotta let go I gotta look after jen and I can't breath." at the mention of your name she started to cry again. She let go of her death grip and ran back to her lab to be alone.
After about another 5 minutes everyone had given their condolences and left. Now everyone was alone and dealing with your death in their own way. As for me Im sitting down at my desk with Jem in my arms slowly rocking her.
"you know what jen your right at this moment Im not alone" I spoke into the silence of the bullpen.