p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"When he felt like Sam was ok with that , he let out a sigh of relief - that he didn't recognize he was holding back - and the tension in his body started to fade away /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" You need to get some sleep Sammy ! Alan did his best to fix you without hurting you ..what you have been through was so great that nobody was able to fix it , but he did . So from now on you need to take it step by step until you fully recover " Dean said seriously while he was in the protective **big brother** mood ./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam was going to answer when he looked at the TV and saw news about the falling stars " Dean ! What the hell ? Did the angels.."/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Dean cut him off" Yes , Sammy ! *They did fall* , but you are not going to worry about that now . We are going to figure it out like we always do . So just get some sleep " he said trying to be kind /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" What about Cas ? " Sam asked feeling tension risingin his body again as he became nervous in his - hesitated- tired mood /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" He is fine , but not fine at the same time ! " he tried to explain but it was hard for him /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" Dean .." Sam pushed /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" The writer of god tracked him - like he did to us all - he took his grace and now he is only huma .. "/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" Oh god ! This can't be happening! " Sam said while he lied down back in bed /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" Just don't worry about that , ok ?! He is going to get himself here and if he wasn't able to I would go and get him . Alan is also here I guess he can help " he said with a small smile looking at Alan who crossed his arms against his chest again " Sure I will ! Whatever I can help with ." He said seriously with a small smile ./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam watching him, wondering how he was able to be like that ? He was everything and it's opposite at the Same time. Soft and hard , serious but funny , damaged but looking new , so old but also so modern , too tired but so powerful. He felt like he was a mixture of a lot of things all at the Same time . Sam wondered what he was and every time Sam looked to his eyes he felt like Alan's eyes were oceans and he was drowning in them ./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" What about having some sleep like Dean offered ? This is really going to help your soul and your body to recover faster . " Alan offered /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" I ..ah .. I need to get back to the bunker " Sam said as he tried to stand up . His shaky legs and his heavy -drudged- head didn't help him to stay upright; he was going to fall down. Dean got nervous and tried to get him but, Alan was faster. He put one of his hands behind his back and that was it. Sam didn't fall and his shaky body rested on Alan's hand /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Alan helped him to sit down and then he knelt in front of him and he said seriously " Look at me Sam ! I am so sorry that I can't help you to get rid of your misery as quick as angels . I need you to know that it is taking me so much power just to be here, this human shape is not a vassal, it is me forming my power to be like that and that thing around my right hand is kind of a seal. If I use too much power it will break and you will not find this world again after that ! I am that powerful and I can't help that . It is just the same with your soul , I use too much power and you are not here anymore or if you are here you will be not good anymore. I am cursed, but you are pure so I won't take that chance . Just let us take it step by step from here , ok ? " /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam looked at him deeply. He seemed to be wounded and bleeding from the inside. He seemed to have a lot of cuts but nobody was helping him heal them. He seemed to be lonely; he just seemed to be like him !/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam cleared his throat " You ..ah ..don't seem to be cursed " Sam said with sad sneer on his face and tears in his eyes . /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" I am the one who is cursed " Sam said that to himself /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" You are not ! I am going to show you " he felt that words from Alan just inside his mind . Alan didn't move a lip ,but even with that he was able to give him comfort./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Alan smiled a small sad smile and then half of his covered eye appeared . It was not silver like the other , it was full of clouds !/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Alan thought that it was going to frighten Sam so he covered it quickly and looked away. He was wearing something off from his neck ./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam didn't find his eyes frightening, some how he just found it beautiful and he didn't think he was cursed so he whispered to him "It is ok " /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Alan took off two parts of silver ring that were around his neck . He helped Sam to wear a half of the silver ring around his neck and he gave the other half to Dean then he started saying " You keep those around your necks all the time. When I am away you hold them tight and you call me. When I am out of control you put the two parts together then I will go back to the place I came from and for you Sam this is going to help your body and your soul heal. So you got that ? " he asked/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"They both nodded. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"He smiled at them, a small smile and said " I am going to wait outside until you and Dean are ready so we can get you home " he didn't wait for their answer he just went out to let him have some privacy and some brotherly time./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" You need to get some sleep Sammy ! Alan did his best to fix you without hurting you ..what you have been through was so great that nobody was able to fix it , but he did . So from now on you need to take it step by step until you fully recover " Dean said seriously while he was in the protective **big brother** mood ./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam was going to answer when he looked at the TV and saw news about the falling stars " Dean ! What the hell ? Did the angels.."/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Dean cut him off" Yes , Sammy ! *They did fall* , but you are not going to worry about that now . We are going to figure it out like we always do . So just get some sleep " he said trying to be kind /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" What about Cas ? " Sam asked feeling tension risingin his body again as he became nervous in his - hesitated- tired mood /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" He is fine , but not fine at the same time ! " he tried to explain but it was hard for him /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" Dean .." Sam pushed /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" The writer of god tracked him - like he did to us all - he took his grace and now he is only huma .. "/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" Oh god ! This can't be happening! " Sam said while he lied down back in bed /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" Just don't worry about that , ok ?! He is going to get himself here and if he wasn't able to I would go and get him . Alan is also here I guess he can help " he said with a small smile looking at Alan who crossed his arms against his chest again " Sure I will ! Whatever I can help with ." He said seriously with a small smile ./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam watching him, wondering how he was able to be like that ? He was everything and it's opposite at the Same time. Soft and hard , serious but funny , damaged but looking new , so old but also so modern , too tired but so powerful. He felt like he was a mixture of a lot of things all at the Same time . Sam wondered what he was and every time Sam looked to his eyes he felt like Alan's eyes were oceans and he was drowning in them ./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" What about having some sleep like Dean offered ? This is really going to help your soul and your body to recover faster . " Alan offered /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" I ..ah .. I need to get back to the bunker " Sam said as he tried to stand up . His shaky legs and his heavy -drudged- head didn't help him to stay upright; he was going to fall down. Dean got nervous and tried to get him but, Alan was faster. He put one of his hands behind his back and that was it. Sam didn't fall and his shaky body rested on Alan's hand /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Alan helped him to sit down and then he knelt in front of him and he said seriously " Look at me Sam ! I am so sorry that I can't help you to get rid of your misery as quick as angels . I need you to know that it is taking me so much power just to be here, this human shape is not a vassal, it is me forming my power to be like that and that thing around my right hand is kind of a seal. If I use too much power it will break and you will not find this world again after that ! I am that powerful and I can't help that . It is just the same with your soul , I use too much power and you are not here anymore or if you are here you will be not good anymore. I am cursed, but you are pure so I won't take that chance . Just let us take it step by step from here , ok ? " /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam looked at him deeply. He seemed to be wounded and bleeding from the inside. He seemed to have a lot of cuts but nobody was helping him heal them. He seemed to be lonely; he just seemed to be like him !/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam cleared his throat " You ..ah ..don't seem to be cursed " Sam said with sad sneer on his face and tears in his eyes . /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" I am the one who is cursed " Sam said that to himself /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"" You are not ! I am going to show you " he felt that words from Alan just inside his mind . Alan didn't move a lip ,but even with that he was able to give him comfort./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Alan smiled a small sad smile and then half of his covered eye appeared . It was not silver like the other , it was full of clouds !/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Alan thought that it was going to frighten Sam so he covered it quickly and looked away. He was wearing something off from his neck ./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Sam didn't find his eyes frightening, some how he just found it beautiful and he didn't think he was cursed so he whispered to him "It is ok " /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"Alan took off two parts of silver ring that were around his neck . He helped Sam to wear a half of the silver ring around his neck and he gave the other half to Dean then he started saying " You keep those around your necks all the time. When I am away you hold them tight and you call me. When I am out of control you put the two parts together then I will go back to the place I came from and for you Sam this is going to help your body and your soul heal. So you got that ? " he asked/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"They both nodded. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica;"span style="font-size: 12pt;"He smiled at them, a small smile and said " I am going to wait outside until you and Dean are ready so we can get you home " he didn't wait for their answer he just went out to let him have some privacy and some brotherly time./span/p
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