A/N: Hello! Hope this is okay for you guys. Sorry if it's not...
The Doctor flinched back as if Rose's presence had burned him. He starred, opening and closing his mouth slightly trying to produce intelligible sounds. Martha's anger was accompanied by confusion. "Rose, as in the Rose the doctors always mentioning?" She asked her voice tinged with jealousy. Rose just nodded keeping her gaze on the Doctor.
Suddenly he sprinted back through the door he had just entered. Martha stared at Rose accusation in her eyes. She must think Rose had done something before to upset him. One last glare and Martha took off after him. Rose tried to blink back her tears of rejection but failed when one tear rolled down her cheek. She walked to the main centre structure, placing her hand on the panel, she half expected to receive a shock to show that the TARDIS didn't want her either. To her relief she hummed kindly at the touch.
"I'm guessing your from my future yeah?" She didn't need a reply. "So what happens to me?"
The monitor burst into life showing Rose her future with little video clips. It showed the Doctor and herself stepping out of the TARDIS, duffel bag on Rose's back. The Doctor took her hand and they headed towards a block of flats. It then skipped to Jackie, Rose and the Doctor watching T.V, all the channels saying something about ghosts. The Doctor and her mother stepping out of the TARDIS to be greeted by people with guns.
Mickey with a huge gun...Wait a minute Mickey! How did he get back? The images changed to Daleks and Cybermen.
She couldn't work out for the life of her what the TARDIS was showing her. Hearing her thoughts, the TARDIS sent the Doctor's memories straight into her brain. The old girl didn't want to resort to this because she knew the Doctor would not appreciate it. Plus in using this method Rose would receive every emotion that he had felt at that time, the TARDIS hoped the Doctor wouldn't be angry later. But really she had nothing to loose, Rose's memory would almost certainly have to be edited.
Rose gasped stumbling backwards as she felt the Doctor's grief and sorrow wash over her. She felt so angry and lonely, she felt like she would destroy the universe for being so cruel. Rose had no idea that he felt, or will feel, all this because of loosing her. How could a human mean so much to a Timelord? Rose couldn't explain it but she knew everything almost as if they had already happened to her. However, knowing all of this did not explain why the Doctor ran away from her a few minutes ago. Sighing she sat down on the captains chair and waited until the Doctor returned.
-~DW~-
Rose looked up as she heard footsteps entering the console room. It was the girl, what did the Doctor call her? Maria? Martha? Yes, Martha, that was it.
"How is he?" She asked concernedly. Martha glared at her a little. "I can't find him," Martha admitted through clenched teeth.
"Where did you look?" "The kitchen, his bedroom, the swimming pool..." "Why would he be in the swimming pool?" Rose asked confusedly. Martha replied with a small shrug.
"Didn't you check the garden?" She asked. Martha shook her head, eyebrows furrowed. "He has a garden?"
"'Course. He goes there all the time when he's upset. Hasn't he ever invited you in?" Martha shook her head sadly. Rose looked at her a little sympathetically.
"I'll go find him." She decided standing up, she decided waiting around wasn't her style and she needed to talk to him. "Haven't you done enough?" Martha challenged.
"I haven't done anything! I know this ship like the back of my hand, I Can find him quickly." "Are you saying you know this ship better than me?" "Well, considering you didn't know there is a garden, it seems that way." "Oh, because you're so important. The precious Rose." Martha spat bitterly. Rose glared at her, their eyes meeting in a furious battle.
"This is stupid." Rose said. With that she left the room and headed down the corridor. Martha exhaled angrily and sat down in the chair Rose had just vacated.
-~DW~-
The garden was peaceful and beautiful, exactly the same as the one in her time, except now she noticed the rose patch next to the garden swing was missing. She spotted the Doctor easily. He was sat on a bench overlooking the large pond, the waters were a clear blue.
"Hey," she said softly, sitting next to him. He nodded silently, still gazing out at paradise. "I know what will happen to me. The TARDIS has shown me." She explained. Yet again he nodded his eyes fixed ahead. "Please talk to me. Or at least look at me." She pleaded gently. He looked at her and she could see how tired he looked.
"Can't." He said and looked away. "Why not?" "Because you will have to go back into your time line and I can't go through loosing you again."
"Talk to me about it. I wont remember anyway 'cause the TARDIS is gonna take my memories, I'm not stupid, I wont be allowed to go back to the you from my time while knowing how I get separated from you. I know it's hard but it will help 'cause you obviously haven't talked to Martha about it." He swallowed hard and shook his head. "Please don't be like this."
"Rose, I spent two years looking for you. I wouldn't eat, wouldn't sleep, 'cause if I did sleep I would see you repeatedly loose grip on that lever. I would hear your scream in my head for days afterwards. Only, in my dreams Pete never came for you. I watched you fall to a fate worse than death over and over again." The Doctor said loudly, his voice breaking and a tear making its way down his cheek.
"I even tried to kill myself once. Just after I said goodbye to you on Bad Wolf bay-" "Bad Wolf bay? The TARDIS didn't show me that one...hang on you tried to kill yourself! Are you insane? The universe needs you! You would just throw away your life like that?" Rose asked angrily. "You were my life, still are. You're still my first and last thought everyday." He said quietly looking at his clasped hands in shame. Rose saw another tear snaking its way down his cheek.
"Carry on what you were saying, after Bad Wolf bay..." "After Bad Wolf bay a Ginger woman in a wedding dress named Donna just appeared in the TARDIS. It's a long story but there was a giant spider with her children down at the centre of the earth. I broke the flood barrier to the Thames to drown them without another thought. I just kept drowning them. I was just going to stand there and let the water drown me too. I couldn't even think of a life without you. But Donna, gobby that one," He smiled proudly despite himself. "She told me that I could stop now and so I did."
Rose nodded. She mentally reminded herself to thank her one day, although she knew that wouldn't be possible as she would be in a parallel world with no recollection of this chat. "So what happened on Bad Wolf bay?" She asked gently. "I managed to send an image of myself. I called out to you and you went all the way to Norway just following my voice."
"Of course I did. Or will... whatever. I know that I would climb up Mount Everest if you were up there." "We talked about how you were going to work for Torchwood. Things like that and you said-" His voice cracked. "You told me you loved me."
"Well, thank god I finally managed to!" He looked at her confusedly. "I have always loved you... Just it was never quite discussed... Anyway what happened next?" "Well, I made the most stupid mistake by saying 'quite right too'. I should have told you I love you straight away. I said 'If it's my last chance to say it... Rose Tyler' And then I ran out of time and never got to tell you."
"You-You love me? Wow..." Rose said breathlessly. "Rose you will have to go back..." "I know... I just wished we had told each other sooner. Hold on, how long do I have left in my time before..." She trailed off not needing to continue.
"Where have you just been?" "2012 Olympics," The Doctors face looked grim.
"How long?" She whispered, voice filled with dread and pain "Two weeks."
"No..." She barely murmured, tears coming to her eyes. "I'm sorry." Tears poured more as she cried silently.
"We should have never had this conversation." He concluded and got off the bench. He only took a few steps when he felt a hand on his arm. Her touch made him feel like he was coming back home for the first time in years. "Doctor, I am glad we did." She said solemnly. He felt all his defenses totally crumble away, and he quickly pulled her into a close embrace.
"How can I let you go again?" he murmured sadly into her hair.
Very angsty wasn't it? Bless them. And I would say I'm sorry about the slight Martha bashing but it was too irresistible to feel guilty! Review if you want to make me happy.