A/N: So here's chapter two. The morning after... Not as long. But hope you all enjoy!
The next morning, Kurt woke up to an empty room. Sebastian's clothes were gone and the room was completely silent. There was a note written on the motel stationary taped to the TV. Kurt got up and went to read it. It had Sebastian's name written on it along with a phone number underneath. He looked around confused. Why would he just leave? He grabbed his phone and sat on the bed, debating on calling him. After a few minutes, he gave in and called the number.
"Good morning Princess Dianna." A voice said on the other end.
Kurt rolled his eyes playfully. "Hey...Why'd you leave...?"
"I...Don't think this is a good idea Kurt..."
"Why?" Kurt asked quickly. "I want to see you..."
"Kurt...Too many people could get hurt..Blaine especially..." Sebastian rationalized. Since when has he cared about hurting anyone?
"Will you just meet me somewhere? I want to tell you something..." Kurt said quietly.
Sebastian sighed deeply. "Meet me at The Lima Bean..As soon as you can. I'll be waiting.."
"I'm on my way," Kurt said before hanging up and getting dressed. He hated having to put on what he wore the night before but it was his only choice. He made sure he had everything he had brought before getting in his car and heading to meet Sebastian. He pulled into the coffee shop and saw Sebastian, dressed in clean clothes, in a booth in the back. Kurt took a deep breath before walking inside and sitting across from Sebastian. "Before I say this...Can you at least try to be open minded to what I'm going to tell you? Listen to what I have to say before making any decisions."
Sebastian looked up, opening his mouth as if to make a witty remark or snarky comeback, but closed it promptly, nodding.
"Last night...When I told you that you confuse me...I lied about why. Well not really...That did confuse me..." Kurt started. "But I was more confused because even though it started as something to get you away from Blaine...It ended with me wanting to get to know you...If you didn't feel anything, I'll stop and leave you alone. But I felt something..."
Sebastian stared at his hands. "Kurt..." He sighed, unable to find the right words to talk his way out of this and dodge the question. "What exactly do you think you felt?"
"I don't know. But it wasn't just about sex. I want to get to know you...I want to know the man behind that smirk. Tell me this...I'm using one of my questions," Kurt said, looking into his eyes. "If I wasn't with Blaine, would you be saying no? Is Blaine what's stopping you? Or do was last night just sex for you?"
Sebastian rested his forehead in his hand. "I...Blaine is part of the reason yes...And I might have felt...Something last night..I don't know..Nothing I would immediately call romantic..but something.."
"Exactly. So why not take the chance? I don't want to go through my life wondering if this could've been something..." Kurt said, looking at the boy in front of him. "Yesterday, I thought you were someone who just wanted to sleep around. But there's more to you. And I want to know you. I really want to try this Sebastian...But like I said...If you don't want me...I'll just walk out and let you be..."
Sebastian looked down at the table, thinking hard. "This isn't like we're dating..." He said quickly.
"What are you so scared of?" Kurt asked. "Please...Talk to me..."
"I'm afraid of a lot of things Kurt..Getting hurt is one of them.." He said, barely whispering the last few words as he stared down at his fumbling hands.
Kurt reached across the table, taking his hands. "You think I'm not? I have a boyfriend. I could get hurt by both of you. We don't have to start dating or anything. We can just get to know each other. Until you trust me. But Sebastian, you can trust me...I know how crazy it sounds. But I know I'm willing to try. If you don't want to, just tell me now and I'll leave."
Sebastian stared at his hands, a bit taken aback by the gesture. He wasn't used to this. He wasn't used to trust and gentle touches and talking about..Feelings... He was used to meeting a guy in the club, quickies in the back seat of a car. One night stands, no commitment, no feelings, sometimes not even names. Rough nights and leaving before the other woke up. That's what he was used to. This..This was different.
Kurt took a deep breath as he waited for an answer, feeling more and more like an idiot as the silence surrounded them. "I know you felt it...You wanted me to scoot closer and lay next to you last night...Look at me and tell me you don't care and I'll leave. Just say something..."
"I...I felt it.." Sebastian whispered, still looking down.
"Then let's hang out. Get to know each other. We can take things slow and trust each other. Would you like that?" Kurt asked.
Sebastian looked up as Kurt squeezed his hands. "Y-yeah…That sounds good."
Fuck, this wasn't like him. He was cocky, sexy, confident Sebastian Smythe.
Kurt smiled at him. "It's going to be okay. I don't know what you've been through. But I'm here for you, okay?"
"Okay.." Sebastian nodded. "Fuck..Two days ago we hated each other..."
Kurt laughed lightly. "I know. It's crazy. But I really want to try this.."
Sebastian smiled. "Me to..I-" he started, but Kurt's phone rang. Teenage dream.
Kurt pulled his phone out. "I'm sorry. Just give me a minute please..."
He answered his phone, looking down at the floor.
"Hey Blaine.."
"Hey baby..What are you doing?" Blaine asked cheerily.
"Hanging out. What's up?" Kurt asked, giving Sebastian an apologetic look.
"I wanted to see my beautiful boyfriend today.." Blaine said. Kurt looked up and Sebastian's eyes were on the ground.
"Want to meet around three?" Kurt asked quietly.
"Sounds good gorgeous. I love you. " Blaine said.
"You too...I'll see you then." Kurt said before hanging up and turning back to Sebastian.
"I'm sorry about that...What were you about to say?"
"I can't remember. It's not important." He said standing. "I'm..I'm gonna go get some coffee..Do you want anything?"
"Nonfat mocha, please," Kurt smiled softly. "I wanna talk about something when you get back.."
Sebastian nodded, going off to buy the coffee.
He came back and Kurt thanked him.
"I just want you to know, I'm not going to go back and forth between you and Blaine. I'm not like that. Will you come over tonight? I want to open up to you. Let you know things I don't tell just anyone...If you want to..."
Sebastian smiled. "That sounds..Really great Kurt.."
Kurt sipped his coffee. "What are you thinking?"
"Just that it...Might be good to open up to someone..I haven't in a really long time."
Kurt smiled. "I'm more than willing to listen. I know what it's like to keep things bottled up. I'm always here, no judgments."
Sebastian smiled as Kurt grabbed his hand again. "Thanks Kurt..."
"Any time. I mean that," Kurt said softly.
It was actually nice to talk to Kurt without them jumping at each other's throats. They actually got to know each other a little better, personal interests and all that before it was a little while before Kurt had to go see Blaine.
"You're gonna come over right?" Kurt asked again.
"Of course.." Sebastian said smiling. "It was really cool to actually talk to you.."
"You too," Kurt smiled. "I have to go for now, but I'll see you tonight," he said, squeezing Sebastian's hand once more.
Sebastian stood up, hugging Kurt. "I'll see you tonight.."
Kurt gave him a quick, light kiss on his neck before smiling and walking to his car to meet Blaine.
He went to meet Blaine at his house. The younger boy was outside washing his car when Kurt pulled up. He grinned, holding up the hose and squirting it at Kurt's car playfully.
Kurt gave Blaine that famous bitch stare. "Don't even think about it Anderson!"
"Come out!" Blaine smiled. He was shirtless in a pair of basketball shorts.
"Please don't get me wet," Kurt said, after rolling his window down.
"No promises.." Blaine said slyly.
"You're an ass," Kurt said, smiling as he got out.
Blaine smiled, setting the hose down and hugging his boyfriend. "Hey baby.."
"Hey," Kurt said softly. "I missed you."
Blaine captured Kurt's lips in a deep kiss. "Mmm..I missed you too.."
Kurt sighed happily. "How was Britt's?"
"Same." Blaine giggled. "We spent half the time looking for Rory's pot of gold.." Blaine giggled, picking up the hose and continuing to rinse off his car.
Kurt raised an eyebrow. "I thought it was him trying to get her 'pot of gold'..."
"Well, she took the term more literally..." he put the hose down. "Besides..If I'm going to get anyone's pot of gold, it'll be yours.." Blaine smiled, wrapping his arms around Kurt's waist.
Kurt blushed. "You're ridiculous. But I love you."
"I love you too..So what did you and Mercedes do last night?" Blaine asked smiling.
"Watched musicals. And she made fun of me when we got off the phone..." Kurt lied.
"You were kind of loud...It was so hot though.." Blaine grinned.
"You have that effect on me..."
"I love knowing that I'm the only one that can make you feel that way baby..." Blaine smiled.
Kurt bit his lip. "You sounded so sexy.."
"So did you Kurt..." Blaine said, leaving light kisses on Kurt's jaw.
Kurt smiled. "There's something I want to talk to you about..."
"What is it?" Blaine asked, grabbing a soapy sponge out of a bucket and starting to scrub his car.
"So, you know Sebastian..." Kurt said carefully. "Well, he won't be bugging you anymore."
"Really? And why is that?" Blaine asked looking over his shoulder at Kurt.
"I ran into him today...a few snide comments were made. But we talked and settled our differences..."
"How?" Blaine asked, looking very surprised.
"I don't really know. It was weird.." Kurt said, looking down. "It kinda started with me saying I think his cocky attitude is just a front and he's hiding because he probably got hurt somehow. And I don't know what happened to him but him coming after you was hurting me. He actually understood."
"Well.." Blaine said, dropping the sponge back into the bucket of soapy water. "I'm glad that he won't be coming between us again..I was really starting to get annoyed with him."
Kurt gave a small smile. "I know baby."
Blaine wiped his hands on his shorts before holding Kurt again. "I love you.."
Kurt rested his head on Blaine's shoulder. "I love you too..."
"So when I finish washing my car..Let's go inside and cuddle..Watch a couple of Disney movies?" Blaine asked softly.
Kurt smiled. "Only if you sing to me."
Blaine smiled, kissing Kurt's forehead. "Always..."
Kurt blushed, "Finish your car."
"Hey..I like kissing you though.." he said, kissing Kurt's nose.
Kurt's blush deepened pulling him close and kissing his boyfriend. "How's that?"
"Amazing.." Blaine smiled, kissing Kurt again, slow and loving.
Kurt sighed into the kiss. "Come on and hurry. I wanna go inside."
"Impatient.." Blaine giggled, picking up the hose and starting to rinse off his car.
"I wanna hear you sing," Kurt said softly.
Blaine just smiled, finishing his car before scooping Kurt up in his arms.
Kurt giggled. "What are you doing?"
"Carrying my boyfriend.." Blaine grinned, walking towards the house.
"My Prince Charming," Kurt chuckled.
Blaine laughed lightly as Kurt turned the doorknob for him and Blaine set him on the couch.
"Lion King?" Blaine asked excitedly.
"Yes!" Kurt said happily.
Blaine put the movie in and sat with Kurt, smiling as it started. A little later, Blaine rolled off of the couch and crawled around to the end, staring menacingly over the edge of the arm at Kurt.
Kurt eyed Blaine. "Baby, what are you doing?"
"Pouncing.."
"You're silly," Kurt giggled, turning back to the TV.
Kurt looked back down and Blaine was gone.
"Blaine?" Kurt called, looking around.
"Blaine?.." he said again. He sat there for a few seconds before Blaine jumped over the back of the couch, landing on Kurt with an 'oomph'.
Kurt jumped, letting out a squeal. "You asshole!" He yelled before smiling and running his hands through Blaine's hair.
"I am no such thing!" Blaine giggled.
"You're adorable," Kurt smiled.
"And you put up with me because you love me.." Blaine said softly.
"I do," Kurt said smiling.
They lay there for a bit, cuddling and exchanging kisses, Blaine singing to Kurt before it was starting to get late.
Kurt kissed Blaine's cheek. "I have to go baby..."
Blaine pouted. "Why? Can't you spend the night?"
"I would baby. But I haven't been home much lately. Dad wants me home tonight. I can see about tomorrow though."
"Okay... " Blaine said softly. "I love you."
"I love you too, Blaine. I'm gonna go shower and probably turn in early." Kurt said. "Call me tomorrow?"
"Of course.." Blaine said, kissing Kurt again before they exchanged goodbyes.
Kurt went home and had dinner with his family.
"Hey dad?"
"Yeah kid?" Burt asked, pushing around the steamed green beans Kurt was forcing him to eat with his fork.
"Do you mind if I have a friend over?" Kurt asked, looking up hopefully.
"Sure, who is it?" His father asked, attempting to eat the vegetable and spitting it out in his napkin. "Ugh."
"Dad, those are good for you." Kurt sighed. "His name is Sebastian."
"Wait.." Finn started. "Sebastian...Like...Warbler Sebastian?" He asked as Burt rolled his eyes, eating more of his chicken.
"Yes, Finn." Kurt said. This wasn't going to go well.
"Since when are you two friends?" Finn asked.
"We ran into each other earlier. We talked things out. What's it to you?" Kurt asked icily.
"Umm, last time I checked, he's in the Warblers...Kind of the enemy right now." Finn shot back.
Kurt rolled his eyes. "We won't be talking about Warblers or the New Directions. Look. He just really needs someone to talk to. And I happened to be there. It's not a big deal."
"He's like the world's biggest douche bag!"
"Finn!" Carole scolded. "Who Kurt is friends with is none of your business...Now I suggest you stop.."
"Finn, I'll explain later." Kurt said, sighing. "So is it okay, dad?"
"That's fine.." Burt nodded. "As long as I don't have to eat these." He said, pointing to his plate which was empty save for the green beans.
"Just this once. I'll find something else to replace them next time." Kurt said. "Thanks dad."
Burt chuckled. "No problem.."
Kurt stood, taking their plates to go wash them. "Finn will you help me?"
Finn was about to protest when Kurt gave him a look and he sighed, standing and lumbering off to the kitchen.
Kurt set the dishes in the sink, staring down at them while he spoke. "Please don't tell anyone that he's coming over..."
"Why not?" Finn asked, standing next to Kurt.
"Because they will all freak out like you did. I don't want people thinking that I'm going to leak the set list or anything. He just needs someone he can open up to. And well, you know what I've been through with Karofsky and other people at school. Maybe I can help him," Kurt said as he started running the water.
"Help him with what Kurt? I mean..Dalton has that zero bully policy thing...He can't have it that rough.." Finn said, grabbing a rag.
"But he hasn't been there long. What if this whole cocky, I'm better than anyone thing is just an act because something happened to him? Remember, I went to Dalton because of Karofsky. He threatened to kill me, Finn. I chose to leave. What if something happened to him and that's why he acts this way? He'd never get better if he didn't confide in someone. And I know he is our competition. But this has nothing to do with that. I'm sorry if you don't understand. But I don't want to sit back when there's a chance I could help him."
Finn sighed. "Fine Kurt...I hope you're right.."
"Promise you won't tell anyone?" Kurt asked.
"Does Blaine know?"
"He knows we settled our differences..."
"Fine..I won't tell anyone." He said, nodding.
"Thank you," Kurt said looking up at his stepbrother.
"But God forbid of Rachel finds out somehow.." Finn sighed as Kurt started on the dishes.
Kurt turned and looked at Finn with that stare that scared him. "She's not going to, right? And say she sees me talking to him sometime...Say you didn't know and convince her to not say one word. Got it?"
"Whoa...Uh...Scary Kurt...Yeah...I'll make sure..." Finn said, leaning away a bit.
"Thank you," Kurt said, his tone a little softer.
Finn nodded. "No problem.."
They finished cleaning up and went to sit in the living room with the family before sending a text to Sebastian.
"Hey beautiful. You still want to come over?"
"Sure. Be there in a bit." Sebastian replied.
Kurt gave a small smile before turning back to the TV.
A while later the doorbell went off and Kurt stood quickly, causing everyone to look up.
He walked to the door and smiled at Sebastian. "Hey.."
"Hey." Sebastian said, giving that crooked smile.
That smile sent chills through Kurt's body as he invited him in and into the living room.
"Sebastian, this is my dad and his wife, Carole. And...well...You know Finn.."
Finn eyed him up and down, looking hostile.
"Hey Finn..How are those dance moves coming?" Sebastian asked cockily. "Still look like a dying walrus?"
Kurt looked up in shock. "Seriously? In front of my dad and his mom?"
"What?" Sebastian asked.
Kurt sighed. "We'll be downstairs."
"It was nice to meet you.." Sebastian nodded to the adults before smiling at the Jock. "Finn.."
Finn rolled his eyes, trying to contain himself so Carole didn't get onto him again.
Kurt saw the look Burt gave him and sighed. "I know. Door open."
Burt nodded as the two boys walked downstairs.
Kurt sat on his bed, rolling his eyes. "So we're back to cocky for now?"
"I don't know what you're talking about.." Sebastian said, looking around the room. Kurt eyed him. His shoulders were squared, smile glued to his face. His eyes looked dull. His walls were up again.
Kurt patted the spot next to him. "You don't have to hold back with me..."
Sebastian looked at Kurt as he stayed where he stood. His tongue darted out to flick over his teeth thoughtfully before his mouth closed. Kurt really wished he knew what he was thinking.
"Why'd you come over?" Kurt asked, looking down.
"Well you asked me to.." Sebastian said. Kurt sighed, knowing he was going to have to work to get the taller boy to open up again.
"Sit down, please.." Kurt said. "I'll open up first...Maybe you'll see that I'm actually trying."
Sebastian said nothing as he sat down, his back stiff and his jaw tight.
"Did you know I went to Dalton?" Kurt asked.
He shook his head, looking up at Kurt.
Kurt took a deep breath before laughing lightly. "We didn't know anything about the Warblers. I was supposed to be a spy. Didn't realize that everyone wore uniforms so I'm sure you can imagine how I looked surrounded by all the students."
'Gorgeous..' Sebastian thought to himself.
"You must be a terrible spy.." He said out loud, chuckling.
"Well to be fair, I didn't know anything about Dalton." Kurt laughed. "But that's how I met Blaine, Wes, and David. Blaine could tell spying wasn't the main reason I was there. I wanted to check it out. I was having a hard time at McKinley...Being bullied, slammed into the lockers...It became a regular thing. You see, I was the only out student there. And well it just got worse. There was this guy...He was the main one that did all these things to me...He kissed me in the locker room then later threatened to kill me if I ever told anyone..." Kurt paused, looking down and shivering at the memory.
Sebastian stayed quiet, watching Kurt intently.
Kurt took a deep breath, swallowing hard. "Well, it was getting close to Dad and Carole's wedding and we were in the choir room. I was teaching my dad and Finn to dance. Well the guy walked by and made some gesture. Dad noticed. He and Finn forced me to open up and tell them what was going on. I didn't say he kissed me but I did tell dad that he threatened to kill me. He got suspended and I just couldn't handle it. I knew it would be much worse when he got back. So...Dad and Carole used their honeymoon money to send me to Dalton..."
"Why did you go back?" Sebastian asked quietly.
"The New Directions were holding a benefit to raise money. Blaine and I went to support them. He could tell how much I missed it. How much I missed my friends. My family...We're not like the families from Dalton. .." Kurt said, looking down. "I knew how much it would've hurt my dad to keep me at Dalton. We wouldn't be able to keep up with tuition. And so I came back for that and to be with my friends. They were the first group of people to actually accept me. They're like a family."
Sebastian nodded, looking down as the thoughts raced through his head.
Kurt took one of Sebastian's hands. "What are you thinking?"
Sebastian looked at their conjoined hands before looking up at Kurt. His eyes a bit softer. "A lot."
"Want to talk about any of it?" Kurt asked.
Sebastian looked back down. "I..I don't know..Maybe.."
Kurt gave a soft smile. "I'd love to listen. Or answer any questions.."
"So your dad..He accepts you?..." Sebastian asked quietly.
"It was hard for him at first. I think winning our first football game of the season helped though. It was hard to tell him. But he said he knew since I was three. All I wanted was a pair of sensible heels..." Kurt explained, waiting for Sebastian to laugh or judge him.
"That..That's really cool.." Sebastian said, looking back down.
"You can laugh at that," Kurt said, looking at Sebastian. "Tell me what's going through your head."
His eyes went to Kurt. "Just..My father.."
"What's he like?" Kurt asked. "If you want to talk about it.."
"Well..He's a states attorney..And..He hates me.." Sebastian said, laughing humorlessly.
Kurt looked up with worried eyes. "He's your dad. How could he hate you?"
"Well ever since I came out to him, he hasn't wanted anything to do with me.." Sebastian sighed.
Kurt squeezed Sebastian's hand. "I'm so sorry..."
"And then he somehow convinced my mother that there was something wrong with me...That this was some..Curable..Disease.." Sebastian said disgustedly.
Kurt brought his free hand to Sebastian's cheek, making the taller boy look at him. "Sebastian, there is nothing wrong with you."
He chucked bitterly. "There's more wrong with me than you know Kurt.."
"Like what?" Kurt asked. "Remember, I won't judge you."
"I..I don't want to talk about it right now..." Sebastian said, turning his head away.
Kurt nodded, "I understand. Whenever you're ready, I'm here."
Sebastian sighed. "I feel like I'm in therapy.."
"I'm sorry.." Kurt said, looking down. "You don't have to tell me anything. I'm only telling you because I want you to know me..."
"I know.." Sebastian said quietly. "I want to tell you..It's just kind of hard.."
"Trust me, I understand. I'm sure I don't know how hard. Other than what I told you about being threatened, I guess I've had it easy. Besides my mom...But you don't have to tell me until you're ready."
"Your mom?" Sebastian asked.
"She...passed away when I was a kid..." Kurt said, holding back his tears.
"I'm so sorry.." Sebastian said, squeezing Kurt's hand.
Kurt swallowed hard. "Thanks.."
Sebastian looked into Kurt's eyes, staying quiet as he examined his features. He was so beautiful..
"It probably sounds stupid..but when I'm sad, I go and lay by dad's dresser. The drawers still smell like her perfume.."
"That's not stupid at all.."
Kurt sniffled, looking down. "Thank you.."
"Your eyes..." Sebastian said quietly.
Kurt looked up, confused. "What about them?"
Sebastian perked up as if just realizing what he said. "I-I..Uhh..I.." he stammered.
Kurt squeezed his hand. "What is it? Is there something on my face?"
"No! Of course not...Just your eyes...I don't mean your eyes are on your face, I mean of course your eyes are on your face, they're part of your face, and there's nothing wrong with that, not that there's anything wrong with your face I mean, look at it, it's a good face, it's a beautiful face, oh god I just called you beautiful, not that you're not, I think you're beautiful and...And I should stop talking..."
Kurt blushed, smiling wide. "You think I'm beautiful?"
"It just came out...Not that I don't think you're not beautiful! I mean you are. You're very...Very...Beautiful that is...I don't know where this is coming from, I've never felt like this before and I can't stop talking and I'm scared...I'm scared..." Sebastian breathed out.
Kurt looked at him, a little confused. "So..you like me but you're scared I'm going to hurt you?"
Well now he was on a roll, Sebastian felt like his mouth couldn't stop moving.
"The only relationships I've had in the past two years have only lasted eight hours Kurt...Not that I think this is a relationship, unless you think it is…Is it? I don't know.."
Kurt couldn't help but blush more. "Well I didn't know how you felt until now. Of course...I am with Blaine currently...but I'm so confused about what to do with him. I mean, he's Blaine...But while I was with him today...all I thought about was you.."
"Oh my god...I'm so stupid.." Sebastian groaned, standing and taking two long steps and he raked his hands through his hair.
"You're with Blaine...And-And you love him.."
"You're not stupid," Kurt said softly before looking at the floor. "Blaine is my first boyfriend...What if it isn't love...?"
Sebastian stopped pacing and looked at Kurt. They stared at each other for what seemed like a long time. "Kurt..."
"What?" Kurt asked quietly.
"I..I have to go.." Sebastian whispered starting up the stairs.
Kurt ran after him. "Why?"
"I don't want anyone to get hurt.." Sebastian said quickly, not looking back at Kurt.
Kurt looked up at Sebastian. "You're not making me do this. I'm doing this because of how I feel. But if you don't want to see me...Okay..." He said, his voice dropping as he turned to walk away.
"Kurt..." Sebastian said weakly, turning back.
"What?" Kurt asked, not turning around.
"It's not that I don't want to see you.."
Kurt couldn't look at Sebastian. He was hurt and felt like he could start crying at any second. Especially after opening up about his mom. "What is it?"
"I...Have only felt like this once...And it blew up in my face…I'm scared.." Sebastian said, his voice breaking at the end.
"I'm scared too, Sebastian...But I have the courage to try...I don't even know why...You keep running...Yet here I am, still trying..."
"I'm sorry...I don't want to make you feel this way..." Sebastian said. "Please look at me..."
Kurt held his breath, trying to keep the tears in as he turned and looked at Sebastian.
"It's hard for me..to even admit I care about someone Kurt...I'm not used to feeling this.."
"I know...I don't do this kind of thing..." Kurt said, walking closer and taking his hand. "But there's something about you...When you don't have your guard up...I can't even describe how you make me feel..."
Sebastian's breathing sped up as Kurt took his hand. "I'm so...Confused..."
Kurt looked up into his eyes, his own tears threatening to spill over. "Me too.."
"Please don't cry.." Sebastian said softly, placing his free hand on Kurt's cheek.
Kurt bit his lip, doing everything he could to hold it back. He let his eyes close, nuzzling into Sebastian's hand.
Sebastian slowly wrapped his arms around Kurt, pulling him close.
Kurt's breathing increased, his heart racing as he looked up at Sebastian with those gorgeous blue eyes.
Their lips were less than an inch apart as they both tried to quiet their breathing. Sebastian closed his eyes, his eyebrows kneading together in distress. "I'm sorry Kurt..I have to go think.." He said softly, turning around and walking up the stairs.
Kurt stood there in shock. What were they doing? He was dating Blaine. Blaine! But Sebastian...There was just something about him...It send chills through Kurt and he loved it... He heard Sebastian's car door slam before the sound of his engine starting and then driving away. He walked over to his bed and laid down as he let his tears come. He didn't know what he was doing. He was with Blaine. Amazing, sweet, adorable, loving Blaine..And he cheated on him..The fact finally dawned on him that he actually cheated on Blaine. And with the guy who was initially out to sleep with Blaine. A guy that Blaine already doesn't even want to look at. Why was he doing this? Did he actually have feelings for Sebastian? He loved Blaine..He loved him so much..But Sebastian..There was something about him. Every time Kurt saw his walls fall there was just..Something.. Kurt got up and washed his face when the tears finally stopped. He sat at his vanity mirror and did his moisturizing routine before changing and slipping into bed.
Sebastian made it home and hurried up the stairs before his parents could say anything to him. Fuck..What was he doing? He curled up under the blankets on his bed, sighing heavily. How could Kurt Hummel..The guy who wore women's sweaters, have such an effect on him? This was crazy. He was terrified of what he was feeling and he didn't like it. He felt comfortable with mostly anonymous sex. He hadn't felt this way since..No..He wouldn't think about him..He hadn't for over a year.. he pulled the blankets tighter around himself, groaning as he tried to sleep.
Kurt tossed and turned in his bed. He couldn't sleep. He felt horrible for what he did...what he was doing to Blaine. But when he thought about Sebastian, he melted. But he was also scared...scared that Sebastian wouldn't come back.. That he'd stop speaking to Kurt because he was scared.
Kurt would just have to try and take it slowler..Lower his expectations of Sebastian's progress..He didn't know why, but he didn't feel like he just had to lower Sebastian's walls..He had to get rid of them completely.
This would take time. And the more time it took, the more it would hurt Blaine if he knew. And what if he couldn't get Sebastian to stay around long enough to get through those walls. He would just have to try..It was really all he could do..He sighed, laying on his back and looking up at the ceiling. "This is crazy.." he said to himself for what seemed like the millionth time. Questions raced through his mind. What did Sebastian think about tonight? Did he want to still see Kurt? Did he really think he was beautiful? He felt dizzy from the thoughts that filled his head. He grabbed his pillow and pulled it over his face. It really couldn't be healthy to keep all of this bottled up. He let out a long, muffled scream, hoping no one would hear. He screamed into the thick pillow until he couldn't anymore, his arms flopping uselessly down by his sides as he finished. Kurt took a few deep breaths, suddenly too tired to even think as his eyes closed.
A/N: What do you think so far? Reviews please :)