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I slammed my car door shut and started to cry,Its obvious he isn't coming back but i don't need people telling me when i already know, he made it very clear that day in the woods i shake the thoughts away and prepare myself to go to school.

"suck it up Bella there's nothing more you can do but just live."I hoped telling myself this would start the process of letting him go but that just made me sadder .

I start driving towards school but i find myself taking another road,i start approaching the house he used to live in.I get out of the car taking in the sights when i made it to the front door i looked around for a key maybe Esme left a extra key as always its under a fake rock next to the house next to the plants. when i went inside it looked the same all the furniture is covered with white plain sheets,its so quite you can hear a pen whistle in the air as it dropped.

Am i really that hopeless im sitting in my ex boyfriends living room reminiscing about our times together then all the happy times fade into anger and sadness it hurts so much that i feel my finger nail digging into my hand breaking the skin causing blood to surface into a medium sized dot on my hand. As i go to the kitchen to rinse my hand off i find my self not feeling to hot my stomach is doing twists and turns making me sick,I better leave before my sadness gets the best of me.

I glanced at the time,i still have time to get to school,I hop in the truck and drive to truck plus into the parking lot of forks high school as always everybody stares into the i get out of the car im stared at by multiples of people,this is a small town so eventually people will find out about what happened. Whispers fill the hallway and all i want to do is roll my eyes and get on with my life ,the bell rings for first period i go straight to my class and sulk,i begin to feel weird like i did while i was at his house i shook it off as nerves but for the next 20 minutes my stomach felt like it was doing twist and turns.

" can i go to the bathroom?"I raised my hand and as i asked the question people stared..like is it a crime to ask to go to the bathroom,he nodded and carried on with the lesson.I stopped by the vending machine to eat something to see if that would help my stomach,i pulled out a dollar and got a snickers something quick and satisfying i chewed it didn't taste as i remember like it used to it tasted like dirt the caramel in the bar tasted like vile so i swallowed and all it did was make matters worse the half eaten bar started to come back up.I hauled my way to the bathroom and threw up everything that's in or was in my stomach.I heard a knock at the door.

"Bella?"Said the voice behind the stall.I didn't say anything.

"Its Angela."I got up and opened the door,walking past her.

"Is everything ok,did you just throw up?"I nodded and washed my hands.

"Do you want me to take you to the nurse or drive you home?"

"No Im fine i just ate something and i guess it didn't agree with me."I weakly laughed it off.

"How are you holding up?"Its obvious she's heard.

"Im fine i mean it is what it is no use in crying over something that's not gonna change right?"Im not trying to get questioned more on the subject on how feel about this whole breakup situation.

"Yea bella i guess but its not healthy to hold everything in like this i -"

"You know what im feeling much better Ang thank you for checking up on me but ive been out longer than im supposed to."And with that i walked out of the bathroom and into class and let him continue with the rest of the day slurred in together one class after another,finally lunch.

I carried my tray with me to a isolated table,i sat and stared at the food not wanting a repeat of earlier.I believe i stared for a good 10 minutes until actually eating again the food tasted wrong but what lunch food doesn't.I practically force myself to eat but it can back up and again i ran for the bathroom of course heads turned but i didn't my lunch was deposited into the toilet i sighed and checked myself out and went home.

Before i went home i stopped by the store.

"This is crazy but everything in my life is out of wack so whats the worse can happen."I asked myself as i looked at every brand of pregnancy test they had.I quickly paid and was on my way home.I hurried into the bathroom and followed the instructions,now all i had to do was wait.I anxiously waited that's when my phone rang it said jacob.

"Hey jake."I havent seen him in a while.

"Hey bella are you busy?"

"No just home why."a few more seconds left.

"Well i wanted to know if you wanted to hang?"I looked at the test...positive."Well Bella?"

"O Crap."I sunked down next to tub in silence."

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