It was the worst night of my life, I tried to be gentle with her last night but it was no good I was like a hungry animal and Guinevere was prey.
The next day they came in to check our sheets but she didn't bleed when I asked her about it she swore to me that she was untouched. A part of me wanted to believe her but I couldn't so I avoided her she would spend her days with Merlin and at night we shared a bed together but I wouldn't touch her. I need to find peace for a while.

"My husband thinks that I'm impure but I would never lie about that, I don't know why I didn't bleed."

"Don't fret over it, he's just stubborn and doesn't always follow his first mind, don't pray to them Gwen you have to start praying to our temple of gods." Merlin said

"Why should I do this?"

"Because once you marry into your lord's house his temple becomes yours."

"Let's not talk about this anymore and stop reading my thoughts Merlin, it's rude."

I watched them from where I was they were laughing together being merry and I frowned at that, I didn't want her to smile with Merlin I wanted her to try and fix things with me but in many ways she was still so childlike.

I walked through the forest feeling for where he would be and I called to him my dragon.

"Kilgharrah."

"Something troubling you?"

"Yes I guess it's sort of obvious."

"I thought you would be celebrating your marriage to-."Kilgharrah stopped himself

"How do you know about Guinevere?"

"Never mind that, how about we go on a flight.

I didn't press any further so I climbed on his back and we flew off, a dragon is what would be my guide through this world I thought it was because of my surname being Pendragon but no, Merlin's were serpents and he could speak with fire.

When I finally returned it was nightfall and I was extremely tired.

Guinevere

"He's not here yet?"

"Wat 'n vark om nie by die huis kom." Sefa said.

"Sefa please you shouldn't speak that way about your king."

"A man who treats my queen this way is a pig."

I couldn't blame her for her for being angry, I was angry too it wasn't until a show bird flew into my window that I calmed down.

"Sefa daar geen rede tot kommer Arthur het terugkeer, and you must leave." I said to her, she bid my goodnight and I paced back and forth.

"You weren't here for supper where you were?"

"I went out."

I don't know why he didn't tell me about Kilgharrah I already knew about him but fine if he wanted to keep his secrets then I will keep mine, I walked past him and he caught my arm I turned to glare at him.

"Let go of me."

"Where are you going?"

"I'm staying here."

"I won't ask you again woman."

The ground started to shake and I tried to stop myself but I couldn't I was upset and he was hurting me not just with his words but with his thoughts.

Soon he released his hold on me and I ran out of our chambers, I kept on running rushing past servants and guards until I made it back to the grass field where I would spend my days with Arthur and Merlin.

"Don't let him find me." I said to myself in the deep part of the forest closed in around me covering me for the night.

I woke up with the sun blinding me and wolves kept me warm during the night.

My thoughts however were plagued with Arthur I know he cares about me but he doesn't understand me.

"You can't follow me Maan." I petted her head and her and her other wolves left.

I was hungry and I needed to bathe but I didn't get too far I knew Arthur would come and look for me and I could see Merlin riding beside him along with Gwaine, Leon, Percival and Sefa was behind them holding my cloak.

Arthur

Why did the ground start to shake I never felt anything like that before, I was so distracted by it that I let go of Guinevere's arm I tried to look for her during the night, I even asked Kilgharrah to search for her but he told me she couldn't be found it's like she vanished.

In the morning I had the horses prepared and I brought my most trusted knights to help me find my wife. Merlin insisted that he come along.

"Sefa we are going to search for your mistress, bring along her cloak." I commanded.

"Yes sire."

While we were riding I could see her, though she was small I would know her from anywhere.

But my worries turned to anger and all I could see was red. I jumped off my horse.

I didn't know if I wanted to hold her or choke her but I thankfully chose neither, I asked Sefa to hand me her cloak and I draped around

Guinevere.

"Come, I'm sure you're hungry."

She nodded.

While we were eating I looked up at her every once in a while. She was dressed in her usually entire, and I don't know why I couldn't say something nice to her.

"Gwen my council has been talking about the way you dress, it's too revealing." I said.

"Oh, well it's the way I've always dressed."

"Yes but this is the north and the ladies here are more covered and the way you look is inappropriate."

"Wat is jou problem?"

"And that's another thing, you must also speak English this is your home now so you might as well get use to it."

"As you wish my lord."

"I'll have a seamstress come to you at once."

She pushed her chair back and walked to dress behind a screen and got back into her night gown as she waited for the seamstress.

After my council meeting was over I had Merlin stay behind.

"If you keep going on the way you have been you're going to lose her is that what you want?"

"I don't mean to hurt her but I don't know what to say to her, it was easier when we were children now she stands before me as a women and she's so intense I can't explain it."

"Are you in love with her?"

I gave him a strange look, I don't know if I was in love with her.

"I have to go and have supper."

"Arthur just remember to be kind to her." Merlin said.

"Gwen." I called to her.

"I'm here Arthur."

My eyes widened at the way she looked, though she was dressed more conservatively she looked stunning Merlin was right I was in love with her.

A/N: Arthur being mean but don't blame him it's just his way on life and Guinevere isn't having none of that chapter 3 well be up right after this.