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Chap 2

His lips were so moist and tasted of sugar.

I'm ready for this. Ian is mine and I am his. And this way my first time will always belong to him. No matter what.

Almost all of a sudden I felt him pull away and lay back onto the bed.

"I think …maybe…this isn't such a good idea."

"What? I don't understand. I'm ready."

He gave me an odd look.

"Wanda, I'm usually good at figuring out what it is that you're thinking but something is just off about this whole thing." I saw the look of confusion on his face. He really knew me well. Maybe too well. I'd never been afraid of that but what if? What if he knew about my left over feelings? But most importantly what if these weren't left over feelings? What if they were what they would always be? Love for someone else's partner.

"Wanda, it's not that I don't want to but… I don't want to do anything until you are completely ready and I just don't think that you are. Are you ok?" He gently moved me beside him and looked deeply into my eyes while his were full of concern.

I finally looked up at him and felt something so alien to me. Guilt I believe they call it.

"I'm fine. Maybe we should just go get some breakfast." I said as a way to steer him away from his insightful questions. He lifted an eyebrow in a funny way and said, "Let's go then." I knew that he would not let it go that easily and that throughout the remainder of the day he would be thinking of ways to question me to finally get to the truth of my recent actions. Tonight I knew that I would have to admit what I was feeling or do something that I never felt comfortable doing. Lying.

After breakfast was over I went to see what I could do in the kitchen while Ian went outside to help with the garden. It was scorching outside and Pet's skin was way too fair to have to be outside all day but I knew that I still needed to help out in any way that I could. I grabbed a sponge to start on the dishes when I heard the ladies come in to do the very same thing. A few minutes later I was shooed away to do other things because in the words of the dark haired woman "it's just too crowded here. Wanda, will you please see if t here is anything else you could do?" I reluctantly went out to the main dining area to see if maybe I could collect any dishes left on the tables and clean up any messes left on them. I quickly ducked back into the kitchen and grabbed a dish rag to wipe up the tables. I busied myself with the task I had set out for myself. After I wiped clean all the long tables and chairs, I started to set up for lunch. I could smell the soup simmering and the bread baking. My mouth watered even though I was already so sick of that watery vegetable soup. And that was when it occurred to me that soon very soon there would be another raid. I knew that I had to go out and get more supplies including food.

I was lost in thought when I felt that pull of someone. I felt myself being watched and turned to find Jared standing against the door staring right at me.

"Hi" he casually stated.

I smiled my answer but turned to keep finishing up my job.

He walked over to the chair closest to me and sat down.

I had a strange feeling that he had set out to look for me. Without turning to look at him I asked, "where's Melanie?

"She's out in the garden helping to collect the veggies for dinner. She asked me if I had seen you today and after I while I realized that I hadn't seen you since early yesterday right here so I can to find you."

"Yeah, Ian and I have been busy." I made it a point to include Ian in response to send out a clear message not only to him but to myself as well.

I saw him open his mouth as if getting ready to say something but then changing his mind. Interested in what that something might be. I decided to press him." Jared, did you want something?"

He smiled, "Uh yeah, you're really observant aren't you?"

"Did Melanie send you to ask me something?" I guessed.

"No, it's nothing like that. I was just curious about something and I wanted to talk to you for a few minutes"

"Ok. I'll answer anything you want."

He stood up and walked to the door with a slight turn he made a small gesture with his head for me to follow.

This was not good. I couldn't be trusted alone with this man.

I pushed all my feelings and visions of our passionate love making aside. Be strong. I chanted to myself.

"Where are we going?" I asked him. I had never been through these particular tunnels and it looked like we were coming to a dead end. Where was he taking me? I was beginning to get a little nervous when he finally turned to me. "Don't worry these are tunnels that weren't completed so no one comes here. I just wanted some privacy because there is something I need to ask you and I just can't have anyone else hear."

We turned into a small opening that was disguised by the rough facade of the wall. It was a semi circle that wouldn't fit more than three people lying down but it was big enough for us to sit in and that was what we did. We both sat side by side. I couldn't help see the obvious differences in Pet's body and Jared's. Pet's body was so small and child like next to Jared it made me smile.

Seeing the change in my expression he asked, "What are you thinking?"

"I was just comparing Melanie's body to Pet's. There is such a big difference but It just never occurred to me how obvious it is to everyone until I sat down next to you. He chuckled, a sound I had never really heard from him.

"May I?" I gestured to his hand. This was purely for comparisons sake. I lifted his hand along with mine and had to giggle at the complete mismatch of the two hands. His fingers left mine looking like dwarf hands. He stared at them a little weary at first but then began to see the humor in it and began to laugh himself, which in turn made me laugh even harder. In a few moments time we both were consumed in the mirth that was the comparison. I removed my shoe and had him take his off to compare our feet, which sent another peel of laughter. It was a few minutes before he could get a hold of ourselves.

"I'm sorry, Jared. I just completely side stepped the purpose of this little escape. So go ahead ask me whatever you want?"

"You know something Wanda. I just can't remember what is was that I wanted to so desperately know anymore."

A giggle escaped me again and I stood up to go back to the dining hall when he grabbed my had and pulled me back next to him.

"Wait, just sit here with me a few minutes. Maybe it'll come back to me."

"Sure". I slowly sat next to him a little closer than I had before.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. There will be more hotness soon. Very soon. SynD