When I arrive at Leech Central (the Cullens house) I find Sethy and most of the vamps chilling in the huge living room. They are drinking and watching a game on the TV.

'Ahh what? I came all the way over here to watch the friggin game??' I am so unimpressed. Emmett grins at me and says 'Hey sexy shewolf wanna sit down,' whilst pointing at his knee. I can't help but laugh back and grab a beer, sprawling out on a bean bag. 'Oh you'd prefer me to be on top eh?' he continues with a suggestive wink. Rose sighs rolls her eyes 'Baby stop hassling Leah, she is not interested in you. She is interested in someone else'.

Er, what?What does she know?? I cough nervously 'Who?' She now turns to face me and I understand why she is classed as the beautiful one in the clan. She looks at me as if sizing me up and then comes out with something seriously unexpected 'let's take this convo upstairs,' and looks over at her sister Alice and smiles. 'That sounds dangerous,' says Jasper 'what are you plotting?'

'Ah nothing baby, just you know...girl time! We feel sorry for Leah because she doesn't get any!' Jasper snorts. Wow nice line pixie, but nobody is buying that one I think.

I'm not sure how, but a few minute later I find myself sat upstairs in the most luxurious bedroom that looks a bit like a boudoir and with a glass of champagne in my hand. That is when the interrogation begins.

'So Leah how long have you been in love with Jacob?' Alice's sweet tone of voice does nothing to mask the bluntness of the question. She is sat on an ottoman opposite the bed that I am sat on, eyeballing me with a devious smile.

I splutter 'wh..what? I'm not ....no erm ....he is Nessie's imprint'. Ok well done that was so convincing. The award for the most eloquent sentence goes to me. With this and my conversation with Embry earlier I am beginning to wonder if loving Jacob is actively reducing my IQ. Okay uncomfortable silences not so great...why aren't they saying anything?? They both leave me speechless when they start to laugh and then Alice says 'Oh it's ok Leah. We want to help you!'

Now I'm confused firstly don't they love the spawn above all else and don't they kinda dislike me? Well actually they can't dislike me that much as we hung out tonight but...'But why? You love Nessie! Why do you want to help me?'

'Well we do love her. But, she has been very spoilt, she has become quite distant to us and we hate the way she treats Jacob. We agree you guys would be much better together!'I did not expect that from Rosalie, I thought she adored Nessie beyond everything...even though I think she is a monster!

'Erm well I'm not sure it works that way' I play with my short hair refusing to meet either pair of their golden eyes which I know are fixed on me and gauging my reaction. Could this be any more awkward?

'Sure it does, Jacob clearly has always liked you.' I wonder does Alice ever not smile. I mean normally I'd be grouchy about this but honestly, after this much champagne I find her attitude kind of endearing. Ewww I did not just think that!

'He has been a great friend. I found it very hard dealing with everything after Sam and....and my Dad.' Man it physically hurts to say it out loud. I just miss my Dad so much, everything would be better if he was still here.

And I'm not sure how but I get into this whole conversation with them about Sam and the past and how hard it is being the only girly wolf. I tell them about my plan of leaving but they manage to convince me to stay by saying that I should try to sort things here first or no matter where I run to I'll feel bad. I guess they are right and I would feel bad leaving Sethy. Before I know it I have agreed to let them help me get back my self-confidence.

'I don't want to be alone, unhappy anymore. I don't want the packs to hate me,' seriously what am I saying? What is in this champagne? I am getting all girly and emotionally. And Leah Clearwater does not do girly and emotional!!!Well....ok....just not in public anyway!

'What we need is an action plan! To make them treat you differently you have to change their perceptions of you' Oh yea Rose like that's gonna be easy!

'But they call me the harpy bitch and I like to win and stuff but I'm not you know. A bitch that is,' I wail. I really shouldn't drink.

Alice laughs 'Yea that is unfair, but boys are simple....they clearly all think you are hot but you have to change their perceptions of you by being nicer and you should flirt too. It will be tough at first but I know you can do it!' With the amount of alcohol I have consumed, this sounds like a very good idea and I find myself agreeing to this and many more things. And I keep drinking the champagne.