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"We're… we're… what??" Spence chocked after a minute. JJ relaxed a minute when he finally spoke.
"I'm pregnant." She whispered, searching his eyes.
"You're sure?" He asked.
"Yes." JJ sighed.
"That's… well that's great! Unexpected, but great!" Spence said smiling broadly.
"You're happy?" JJ asked, perplexed.
"Of course! Why wouldn't I be?" Spence asked confused.
"Well, we've got work, we're not married yet, what will our parents think? What will the team think?" JJ asked.
"JJ, honey," Spence said taking her face in his hands, "it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, it's what you think. What do you think?"
"Well… I'm nervous, scared… but excited. I just don't know if now is the best time." JJ answered.
"Well, looks like we have to make it the best time." Spence answered matter-of-factly. JJ relaxed in his arms, curling into him, her head on his chest.
"Yeah." She whispered, before falling to sleep.
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Spence kissed her cheek gently the next morning, they were in bed, tangled in each other's arms.
"Morning sleepy head." He said with a smile.
"Hey Spence." JJ said, her voice filled with sleep.
"You feel warm." Spence commented, feeling her forehead with the back of his hand. "Maybe you should stay home and rest."
"Yeah," JJ agreed, "I don't feel too good."
"Okay then," Spence said kissing her gently and rubbing her stomach. "I'll tell the team you'll be back tomorrow."
"Okay." JJ said kissing him back. Spence climbed out of bed and started to get dressed.
"Go back to sleep, I'll be back later." He assured her. She was asleep before he even left the room.
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Spence drove slowly to work today, he needed time to think.
A baby? What if it turned out like him? He didn't want his child to go through what he'd gone through as a child. What if it inherited schizophrenia?? He would never forgive himself.
He couldn't tell JJ about these negative thoughts. He didn't want to hurt her. When Spence had taken JJ to bed, she had woken up. She told him how excited she was. Spence new that this was because the shock had warn off while she slept, and now her motherly instincts kicked in.
Spence sighed when he pulled into the BAU parking garage, he parked his car and slowly walked to the elevator. Then he walked slowly through the lobby, flashing his badge to the person behind the desk, and went up to his level. He groaned when the doors opened and Morgan walked by.
He loved Morgan, he really did, but some days, he just didn't want to deal with him. He sighed and stepped off the elevator, Morgan, of course, spotted him right away.
"Reid! Man where've you been? You're late!" Morgan called walking over to him.
"Got stuck in traffic." Spence grumbled, lying.
"Oh, where's JJ?" Morgan asked peaking around him towards the closing elevator doors.
"Home sick." Spence answered, he started walking slowly towards the bullpen.
"Is everything okay?" Morgan asked, he was really worried now.
"Yeah, everything's perfect." Spence grumbled, continuing to walk to the bullpen. "Morgan, where's Garcia?"
"In her office, why?" Morgan asked, confused.
"I need to talk to her." Spence said before taking off for Garcia's office. "Garcia?" Spence asked, knocking on the door cautiously.
"Reid! Come in, come in." Garcia called through the door.
"Garcia… I need your advice." Spence confessed.
"Dr. Spencer Reid is coming to me for advice? I'm honored!" She said turning to him as he walked in the room, her face dropped when she was him, he was a mess. "What's wrong?" She asked, turning all business.
"Garcia, you cannot tell. Okay? No one, not even JJ. Please, I'm begging you." Spence said.
"Okay, I promise." Garcia said.
"Well…" Spence started, letting out a sigh, "JJ's… pregnant…" He began. Garcia instantly started to squeal.
"Oh my God! Congratulations!" She squealed, jumping up and hugging him tight.
"I'm not finished." Spence gasped.
"Oh, sorry. Go on." Garcia said sitting down, a smile still on her face.
"JJ's excited… except she's worried about what everyone will think. But… I'm really scared Garcia." He confessed.
"Scared of what?" Garcia asked, concern painted her face.
"That I won't be a good father. That it'll be a genius like me. That it'll inherit schizophrenia…." Spence said, tears pricked at his eyes.
"Baby boy…" Garcia said walking over to him and putting a hand on his shoulder, he looked up at her. "One, you're going to be a great father. Two, what's wrong with being a genius? Three, don't let that fear stop what's already happened. She's pregnant, you're going to be a father, enjoy it. Don't let this take away your joy."
"What's wrong with being a genius is, all the kids tease you, you grow up to be damaged, feeling no good. And, how can I not be afraid? I don't want to damn my child in the same way my parents did." Spence said, looking up at Garcia desperately. "What do I do?"
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I thought Reid's reaction was appropriate, but please tell me what you think!