Hello! This is a re-edited version of my story...all the chapters following (minus chapter 6) are picked apart and put back together so that now the entire story has a decent timeline...I really hope it all makes sense cause i've racked my brain for several hours checking and rechecking all of these chapters. If anything doesn't make sense please do not hesitate to ask, you never know you might point something out that I have missed.

Thanks for reading!

Disclaimer: I do not own Star Trek...I only own Lara...

"I love you," She said and then quickly kicked him hard in the stomach, releasing her hand from the button on the console. Lara watched Jim as he was pulled away from her and toward the entrance. He reached out for her, almost like if he stretched far enough he could grab her and pull her to safety.

Lara simply watched him as the elevator fell. The most she could muster up was a small, sad smile and then she felt the flames begin to climb up towards her feet. As Jim fell out of her line of sight she began to feel the tears trickle down her cheeks. The rocks and ash fell around her, the heat climbed higher and higher and she felt her throat begin to close up.

She coughed and fell to her knees holding her chest as it burned from the inside out. Lara gagged as another intense wave of heat washed over her, the metal of the lift began to burn but she hardly felt the searing pain of her burning flesh. She already regretted leaving Jim the way she had, that pain was enough for her. But she didn't regret saving him and the others. Jim had greatness in him she knew he did, all he needed was a little push...and if this is what it took for him to see that then so be it.

Lara's vision began to blur and she coughed again, this time blood fell out of her mouth. "Time to go," she said pulling out her phaser. She set it to 'kill' and pointed the end to her temple. Another tear fell down her cheek and her hand began to shake violently, "No more pain...goodbye James." She looked up at the collapsing cave, let the last of her tears fall and then pulled the trigger.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Lara felt her eyes flutter open but closed them almost as quickly as she had opened them. The lights above her were so bright, her head began to pound and she felt a cold sweat cover her body. Then she started to panic. Where was she? Why couldn't she feel her legs? Did she even have legs?

She heard the heart rate monitor begin to quicken, and her breathing turned hasty and shallow. Lara tried to speak but only choked out a small whimper. Moving her arms she felt several wires and needles pull and restrict her movements. Again she tried to scream but it came out airy and weak.

That's when she felt a pair of hands on her shoulders, holding her down and preventing her from misplacing any of the other wires. "Stop," came a voice above her. It was a deep, smooth voice with a smart british accent. Lara looked up and saw a man, handsome with bright green eyes and dark hair. He had full lips, and cheekbones that could cut diamonds.

She struggled against his firm grip, flailing as much as he would allow against the bed. "N...n-o," she finally screeched out. Her heartbeat raced even more and her head began to spin.

"You are going into shock, you weren't supposed to wake up this early," he looked around and eyed a vial of sedative, "Please Lara I'm trying to help you."

She stopped her fighting when she heard her name, "Wha...wh-o?" her dry throat allowed her to say.

"Just know that I'm here to help you," he said and adjusted his hair which had fallen into his eyes. He reached down for the vial of sedative and looked back at her, "That dizziness and your racing heart are signs that your body isn't quite ready to be moving yet. I'd say you need another week of rest before you can leave that bed."

Lara began to shake her head and tried to sit up but felt another wave of light headedness hit her. She fell back on the bed, defeated and terrified. Looking up at him she reached out her hand and grabbed the first thing that was in reach which was the sleeve of his shirt. "Ple...ple-ase," she croaked out, "Scared...af-afra..id."

He nodded and injected the sedative into her arm. Then he leaned down and gently caressed her forehead, "I'll be here when you wake up. You're not alone."

As she felt her eyes grow heavy and her heartbeat slow down she felt his warm hand against her skin. She couldn't explain why, but she trusted this man and knew she wanted to stay with him. He had called her Lara and that was her name yes but she couldn't remember anything else. Why was she on the table? What happened to her? And why did she have this itching feeling in the back of her mind? Like she was supposed to be running toward someone. When she felt the man's hand gently move her hair from her face she knew...it must be this man she should be running toward. Because who else would touch her so gently and fix her wounds with so much care?

Fire. That's all she could see.

"God damnit Jim go!" a voice echoed-her voice-against the walls of the cave.

More fire. Ash, rocks, metal...all falling. Chocking, coughing, blood. So much blood she could hardly breathe. "Time to go..." she whispered. Then the silver of the phaser flashed and she felt the burn in her head. It hurt. Her entire heard burned from the inside out.

Crystal blue eyes rimmed with tears watched her...wanted her. She could remember his name...James...she said goodbye and pulled the trigger.

Lara shot her eyes open. She was lying on the same table from before and thought she could hear a voice echoing somewhere from the other side of the room. Attempting to move she found her limbs stiff and awkward. She sat up, with great difficulty and tried to swing her legs over the edge of the bed and nearly fell over in the process.

That's when she felt the same hands from before take her shoulders, "You're awake then."

Looking up she saw his face clearly for the first time. He was very handsome with pale skin and eyes so bright...so clear. "Wha...Who?"

He wrapped a strong arm around her waist and helped her stand, "Harrison, John Harrison."

Lara moved her eyes around the room quickly. She was in a lab of some sorts, makeshift, home-made. The memory of the man-John-putting her back to sleep before flashed in her head and she remembered how quickly she had trusted him. Is that right? She thought watching his face as she clumsily pushed him away and stood up on her own.

John turned to a small bed-side table and pulled out from the drawer a set of clothes. Handing them to her he instructed she put them on. Lara set the clothes on the bed and was nearly shocked when he walked out of the room, closing the door behind himself.

She looked down at the pile of clothes. A pair of black shorts and a black t-shirt. As Lara began to pull on the shorts and shirt she had more flashes of her dream. More like a nightmare, she thought adjusting the cotton shirt over her arms.

Lara thought about her dream. The fire and sounds were all so real. That man...his blue eyes. Then the memory of a blast of a phaser to her head hit her so hard she fell over. Knocking the bed on its side and causing a loud crash to echo against the metal floors.

She held her head in her hands as it pounded and she could feel the fires reaching out for her. "Lara?" John's voice carried across the room to her.

Without thinking she bolted for the nearest, unblocked exit which for her was the large floor-to-ceiling windows. Bursting through the glass she felt for the briefest of moments a sense of weightlessness. Then she was falling.

It felt like she was falling for ages until she saw the large metal garbage transport hovering just below her. Lara felt her instincts take over then. She aimed for the transport, straightening out her body, gaining speed the more she fell.

Just as she was about to hit the transport Lara tumbled and closed her eyes, letting her body take over. To her utter surprise she landed on her feet, knees bent and fists planted firmly into the metal of the transport. What? She thought looking around at where she had landed.

The transport was moving at an incredibly fast pace, causing the wind to kick up severely. Her hair flew all around her face as she straightened up and turned her eyes to the sky. Falling from that distance...should be dead. Lara looked down at her hands and knees. There was hardly a mark on any of them.

She heard a solid thump behind her and turned around to find John had landed on the same transport. As he stood and loomed over her she realized how much she had wanted to stay with him when she first woke up. But who was the man with the blue eyes?

"Lara please, I'm just trying to help you." He called to her as calmly as he could over the noise.

Shaking her head at him she moved to the edge of the transport and looked down. "Too much pain," she whispered more to herself. Turning back to face him she pointed to her head, "Fire and ash dance in the memory. They don't make sense. They bring pain."

"I can take away that pain. I can make the memories go away." He stated the fact like he had rehearsed the line before, simple and calculated.

Lara paused and considered her words carefully before saying them, "I...don't want the pain...anymore. The memories...make my head hurt...his eyes scare me," she wrapped her arms around her body, trembling and feeling alone.

Again John edged closer to her reaching out a hand for her, "I can make that pain disappear. I'll help you..."

Lara turned back and looked over the edge of the transport. So many little things underneath the moving machine. All she would need to do was step off the edge, take the plunge and end the pain forever.

"Lara stop," John called to her, "You are all I have."

That made her stop. She looked back at him with wide, confused eyes. "All you have? You have...no one?"

John sighed, defeated, "All of my family are dead," he stepped closer and extended both hands to her, "Except you."

Lara walked to him, taking each step with care. When she was within his reach, he pulled her to his chest and let out a sigh of relief. Lara just stood in his arms, stiff and trembling. "It hurts me...John. The memories hurt."

"I can make them stop hurting. I can take away the pain."

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