Warnings: Slight obsession, angst
Disclaimer: Kakashi, Sasuke and Naruto (c) Masashi Kishimoto
Plot (c) Vatelle/petite-neko/Maelza
Sasuke ran.
He was panting and rushed to get to that place where Kakashi would be leaving. He was desperate and fighting the curse seal. It was aching, but he needed to see Kakashi. Kakashi was his only hope.
He knew now that Kakashi wasn't just an obsession. He loved Kakashi. He knew it. He wanted to see Kakashi again. He resisted crying at the aspect of never seeing the Jounin again; he resisted to cry against the pain that was surging in his neck. A blurred figure was walking and he felt his spirits rise. His heart ached for that to be his mentor, his sensei.
"Kakashi!!!!!!!!!!!" He called out and the figure turned. He couldn't see properly and he realized, that, regardless of his efforts, he was crying. The figure stopped and he ran towards it. When he reached the path he was panting and looking towards the ground, though his eyes were closed.
"Sasuke…"
His name was spoken and he felt his heart throb. It was Kakashi. It was Kakashi. He didn't care about the time, the place, or even his actions in general. He wrapped his arms around Kakashi and sobbed into his chest. "Kakashi… Kakashi… Kakashi…" He blubbered out.
Sasuke felt an arm him but it was only in comfort. He felt his heart drop. He wanted... he wanted Kakashi to love him. Why?! Why was it only like this?! He wanted to slam his fists into Kakashi's chest and ask him. He wanted to know why Kakashi didn't love him. But, he wasn't so selfish. After a moment he stepped away and looked up at Kakashi, rubbing his tears away, "Kakashi…" He whispered.
"Sasuke…." Was all that Kakashi could say, but his eye was disappointed and downcast and faced the smaller boy. It gave the message that he was disheartened by Sasuke's leave, almost hurt if you will. This make Sasuke shift uncomfortably. He didn't like seeing that look in his mentor's eyes.
"I'm sorry…"
The words were spoken in an empty silence, causing yet another round of this. Sasuke felt that he had to say something more; he felt that Kakashi expected him to. Kakashi didn't scold people if he could do it in another form. It was very convincing, but Sasuke didn't know what he should say. Maybe… he should expand…?
"I… I know… I shouldn't have… I was selfish…" He spoke softly, like a child guilty of stealing cookies, and forced to explain everything. He felt like that, "I… I realized what I did wrong but I couldn't stay there… I wasn't thinking… But… I didn't want to go to Him… I didn't want to –AGH!" Sasuke suddenly keeled over, holding his neck in pain, "I-I'm sorry Kakashi… I-I removed the seal… It… it hurts Kakashi…It…" Sasuke couldn't speak anymore; the pain was becoming too intense. He couldn't see and he felt like vomiting. His balance was lost and he felt like the blackened world was spinning. "Ka…ka…shi..." He managed before he fainted.
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Sasuke woke in the hospital and glanced over to see Kakashi sitting in a chair hunched over. 'He… aborted his mission for me…?' He thought to himself. Thousands of other thoughts ran through his mind, but he couldn't decipher them. His head was still spinning and he knew he had a fever, "…How long was I out…?" He asked cautiously, knowing the last time, he was out for three days.
"A couple hours." Kakashi's voice was lifeless and monotone. Sasuke hated it. He knew there was something bothering the Jounin. He raised his head and shook it, unable to meet Sasuke's gaze, "You know, people almost died for you Sasuke…"
Sasuke looked away and bit his lip. He couldn't stand it. The guilt was building up on him and he brought his knees to his chest. He couldn't think of anything logical to say. He couldn't even righteously explain his actions.
"Naruto left the village."
"I know…"
"…"
The silence continued, and either party was unable to end it. Sasuke knew it would never be the same… but he never expected it to be this different. Did he hurt Kakashi…? 'Of course you did idiot! You ran away from his training to go to a different teacher!' a voice growled at him. "I'm sorry…" He muttered, "I know it doesn't mean anything… but that's all I can say… I can't justify my actions…" Sasuke pulled his legs closer and a lone tear escaped his eyes. He didn't mean to…
The silence continued, and Sasuke hated how his teacher was so unresponsive. 'Does he hate me now...? Please no… Don't let him hate me. Anything but that… please…' He thought and placed his head on his knees, sobbing quietly. Kakashi couldn't hate him. Kakashi couldn't…
He felt arms wrap around him and he turned, sobbing into their chest. This smell… it was Kakashi's, "Don't hate me Kakashi … Don't hate me…"
Yes, this chapter was really angsty, I know... but I was re-reading my friend and my roleplay and it was angsty as fuck and it kind of inspired me... so yeah, not to mention our RP is Kaka-Sasu XD T.T it's so sad! But yeah... here it is (btw sry for the short chapter... but this felt like an appropriate ending XD)