Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket.
A/N. Char-Char asked me to update this. I said no, since I had to study. But I felt guilty :P So here it is :D This chapter is in Tohru's POV. I can see this ending up kinda short. Again. Sorry.
Warning: Angsty Tohru. M rated in this chapter for swearing.
And The Pain Comes Rushing Back
I opened my eyes and blinked, looking around at the surroundings. 'Everything looks fuzzy.' I thought dozily. 'What happened?' I closed my eyes and opened them again, but that didn't ease the fuzziness. 'Tohru?' I heard my name said, but it sounded distant. 'Tohru.' I heard again, and then I began to make out a face above me. 'Kyo…….-kun?' I whispered quietly as his face came into focus. 'Where am I?' I whispered. 'Your at my apartment.' He answered, his voice a lot clearer to me then before. I tried to sit up but he pushed me back down 'What happened?' I heard myself ask him. 'You passed out when you saw me.' He answered. I started to shake and tears leaked from my eyes, I hugged him tightly. 'I've missed you, so much.' I said to him. Then I saw the pain in his eyes and I pulled away from him, I curled up and wrapped my arms around my knees. 'I'm sorry, after what I did, I have no right to touch you.' Kyo reached out and stroked my hair out of my face 'What's in the past is in the past, Tohru. What's happened has happened.' My face crumpled at his kind words and I burst out crying. 'It's still hurting you, I can see it in your face. But you have to understand my reasoning behind why I did what I did.' Kyo sat down on the bed next to me. 'I'd like to know what your reasons were.' He said quietly. He wasn't being patronising, or hurtful, or any of those things. He was being sincere, and genuine, and caring. That hurt me all the more because I had left him, and my tears increased. 'I'm……… so sorry for leaving. For hurting you. I did it because I loved you. Because I had to protect you from that………. that monster.' Kyo looked at me 'You mean Akito?' I winced at the mention of her name and I my whole body started to shake with the terror of what had happened. 'After she tried to kill me………… my mind broke down. I couldn't focus on anything any more. The terror she put on me traumatised me. I can't hear her name any more without having panic attacks. There was just the one thing I could focus on during all my panic, only one thing I could see clearly. And that was you. I knew I had to protect you from that devil. And the only way to do that was to remove the object of her loathing from your life. And the object of her loathing was me. I couldn't have you getting hurt. So, when you all thought I was sleeping, I left you. It killed me to do it, you have no idea how much it hurt. But it was what I had to do.' I looked up to see tears running down his face. He hit me on the top of my head with your fist like you used to. 'Idiot.' He muttered. 'I would go through hell and back just to be with you. I don't give a shit about what she would have done to me.' I shook my head furiously 'If she had hurt you, killed you, even, I wouldn't have been able to go on. The pain of being apart from you, but knowing you were still out there somewhere, I could cope with. But if you had died, or been hurt because of me, that pain would have been too much, and I wouldn't have been able to survive. I would have died with you on that day. If not physically, then emotionally.' Kyo sighed 'Back then, you were my life. You still are. You're my everything. I can't survive without you. You're my life, my soul, and I need you.' I wrapped my arms around him again in a tight hug. 'I'm sorry everything I've done, I really truly am. Can we start over?' Kyo nodded and I smiled broadly 'Hello, I'm Tohru Honda, nice to meet you.' Kyo smiled brightly 'Kyo Sohma. It's a pleasure.'