Okay, this is the second chapter...

I used a J-pop song at here. The title is Zanzou by Flumpool, okay that was the disclaimer, it isn't mine. If you want to understand then you can download the song at 4shared, you will find it at google too.

Please enjoy it

Gaara was standing in front of the window. His eyes emptily, staring into the bright sky. It had passed, it was a new day. He hoped, what happened yesterday was just a bad dream and when he woke up, he would find Naruto sleep peacefully on beside of him.

But no, it was real. He broke up with Naruto. He woke up on Sasuke's apartment; on his bed while Sasuke sleeping on the floor.

"Gaara," Gaara turned to see Sasuke smiling at him, he brought in a tray full of food.

"Here is your breakfast," he said gently. Gaara tried to smile back but it failed.

"Thanks," he said with grave eyes. Sasuke looked at him, worry marred his face, but then he sighed.

"It is fine if you don't want to eat now, but please eat it later," he said whilst putting the tray on the nightstand.

Gaara turned his attention back to the blue sky. He missed that colour so much. It hurt him now though.

Sasuke looked at Gaara with solemn eyes. Slowly, he approached Gaara then patted his head. Gaara was startled and turned to see Sasuke.

"Sorry, it is my fault," Sasuke said with guilt= in his obsidian eyes. Gaara shook his head.

"No, it isn't yours. Don't worry," said Gaara.

Slowly, Sasuke slid his hand around Gaara's body and pulled him closer to his body. Gaara didn't fight back; he let himself being hugged by the raven guy.

"I'm swear, I will help you forget him Gaara. I will make you happy," Sasuke said then kissed Gaara's hair.

At that time, Gaara was thinking the other things.

'Naruto, what are you doing now? Are you…missing me?'

IoI

Naruto was cleaning his room. He took Gaara's clothes, books, and other things then put them in a cardboard box. He knew, sooner or later, someone would take them away.

But, before he put the things in the cardboard box, he touched all the things gently, smelled it or kissed it. He tried to remember when Gaara used this entire luggage. He loved everything about Gaara and until now he couldn't stop crying. His eyes was red and swollen because he cried too much. His body couldn't stop trembling and sobbing.

Once he had finished, he let himself fall on to the bed. He let his tears fell again. It was really hard to give up on him. It had barely been a day since he let Gaara go but now he missed him so much.

Just a few days ago everything was fine, yet now everything had changed.
He smelled and kissed the pillow which Gaara always used. It smelled like Gaara. Oh Kami-sama, he missed him so much.

He really wanted Gaara to stay by his side. He really wanted him to. But, he didn't want to make Gaara suffer. He couldn't make him happy so he must let him go. It was for the best.
But why, why he couldn't feel happy? Why did his heart hurt so much? This apartment was filled with Gaara's presence. It just like, Gaara was still there, hiding somewhere.
Naruto laughed sadly from his own stupid thought. What did he think? Gaara was gone. He wasn't his anymore.

The tears didn't want to stop, no matter how much Naruto tried. From now on, he had to live without Gaara. Everything would be different. Yeah, he knew that. But, he had to walk forward. He couldn't let himself down. No, he couldn't do that.

But, living without Gaara would be very different. It would be very hard. Yeah, maybe he would quit working in the butler cafe. Yeah. The reason why he worked there was because Gaara had forbidden him to work in construction job. He had said it was too dangerous. So, Naruto had chosen to work in a butler café. But now, Gaara was gone. He would stop working there; it was too tired and troublesome. Naruto wanted to go back to construction job, the payment was good.

Ah, and he should make a new song. Gaara had said that he should try to make some slower songs because all of Naruto's songs were cheerful with fast rhythm. Maybe, he would try to make one someday.
He smiled then laughed. Gaara. Gaara. Gaara. When would that name disappear from his head? When finally he could forget his love for him?
Could he even do that?

IoI

"Are you sure? He has been singing for half of the day?" asked Kiba to Neji. Shikamaru and the others were peeking into the studio room.

They saw Naruto was just sat there. He was singing something unclear; they couldn't even make out what the lyrics were. The guitar's notes were also messed up. It was the worst song he had ever thought of but he kept singing, until his voice grew rough. They only saw his back but they could tell he was in bad shape, he was shaking and sobbing.

"Yeah, he suddenly appeared when I was having breakfast with my family and asked if he could use the studio for the whole day. Well, with his messed appearance, I couldn't refuse," Neji explained.

"What's happen to him?" Kiba was confused, he clenched his eyes shut when he heard Naruto's singing getting worse.

"Probably something bad, maybe he has broke up with Gaara," Shikamaru sighed.

"Are you sure, they have been dating for three years!" said Kiba.

"I don't know. But, it seems that it could be true," replied Neji.

"By the way, why didn't you give him some water or food? He will die if he keeps singing without any energy," Kiba spoke up, scolding Neji.

"It isn't like I haven't tried. But, he has been ignoring me all day," Neji said, sighing heavily.

"I think we should leave him alone. Singing like this is Naruto's way to let out his stress, we shouldn't disturb him," Shikamaru said then started to walk away from the studio room. Kiba and Neji stared at each other before they followed Shikamaru.

Meanwhile, Naruto was still singing. His voice was hoarse, he barely heard it, but he didn't care. He didn't even know what was he singing anymore but he continued it anyway. His fingers were starting to bleed because he had been playing the guitar to too long, strumming to hard but he didn't care.

He just wanted to let go out all of his stress.

Even though, the sadness probably would remain.

IoI

Gaara was staring at the raven boy across from him. He sat there, silently eating his dinner. It had been a week since Gaara had broken up with Naruto. And since then, he had lived with Sasuke.

"I think, I will go back to my family's house tomorrow," said Gaara. It wasn't a wise choice because his family had been messed up until Gaara left it 2 years ago and lived with Naruto.

"But, you don't want to, right? Don't worry, I live alone in this apartment, you can stay here," Sasuke said, added a smile to Gaara.

"But, I don't want to bother you anymore. It feels…uneasy for me," said Gaara. He put the chopstick into the table, he had enough with the food. He didn't have too much appetite these days.

"I'm fine with it. I have even taken back your luggage from Naruto's apartment, so there's no problem," Sasuke said again. Yeah, that was true. He had gone to Naruto's apartment, done nothing but taken back Gaara's luggage. Even though, he must admit that the blonde's condition didn't look too good. He looked like a wreck. Maybe, he did love Gaara as much as Gaara loved him.

Gaara stared at him. He understood Sasuke loved him but...he couldn't accept his feelings yet. No, he couldn't do that.

"I know what you're thinking now. But, please, don't worry Gaara. I'm happy that you are living here," said Sasuke.

Gaara nodded, maybe he would learn to accept Sasuke's feelings. Maybe, it was the best for them.

IoI

"Tadaima."

Naruto was shocked with his own words. Why couldn't he get rid of that habit? He lived alone now, there wouldn't be anyone answer his greeting.

"Okaerinasai."

Gaara's voice was echoing in Naruto's heart. No, he couldn't forget him yet, not even the slightest. Naruto took off his shoes then put on his indoor shoes. The other pair of sandals, which were always used by Gaara, was resting neatly beside the cupboard, which was filled with Naruto's shoes. Naruto knelt down the touched them lightly. Maybe it was also lonely, it was Naruto's but Gaara was the one who always use them.

He got up then walked into his room. Often, he expected Gaara to wait in their room. He would give him a hug then they would kiss passionately, just like in the past. But of course, that dream wouldn't come true. His empty cold room was greeted by Naruto. His tears fell, he wiped them away immediately. Stupid thought, he still couldn't get rid of Gaara's presence from his heart.

He opened his orange jacket then threw it to the floor carelessly. He was tired, working with the construction team was hard and so was the work

"Naruto, I have told you every day! Don't throw your clothes to the floor, it will get dirty. Then you will get confused and forget where you have put it. Put it in the right place!"

Naruto grabbed the jacket immediately; it felt like the real Gaara was really there and scolded him. But, yeah, he was alone. He smiled sadly then hung up the jacket behind the door.

Naruto sat on the bed he sighed then let himself fall on to it. He breathed in the scent of Gaara's pillow. It was almost like a routine, a bad habit that he couldn't stop. It was kinda calming him, it was just like Gaara would come to him someday.

Naruto laughed sadly into the pillow. Of course, that wouldn't be happen. Gaara was happy with Sasuke now. He knew that.

'I wonder. If I had been a good knight, ne Oto-san,' Naruto thought sadly.

Flashback

Naruto was five when it happened. That night, he woke up because he heard screaming and cursing from the front door. He walked towards the noise whilst grabbing his blanket and he searched his parents. He found his parents on the yard. His mother was shouting and screaming at his father then a man who Naruto didn't know took his mother's hand then pulled her away. His father just stood at there, did nothing. But, when his mother and that man had gone, his father fell onto his hands and knees and he began crying there.

And, after that, Naruto's mother never came back.

"Oto-chan," he pulled on his father's shirt. They were on the bed, ready to sleep. Since his mom had gone, Naruto liked to sleep with his father. But, he knew often, his father would leave him alone at the bed then cry in the bathroom. But, he never told him that he knew.

"What's wrong?" his father asked, he closed the book that he had read.

"Why didn't you stop Oka-chan?" asked Naruto innocently, he always asked this question but his father never answer it.

"You will understand later, when you are adult," he smiled sadly.

"Okay, today I will tell you a story before sleep," said Naruto's father whose name was Minato.

"Hurray! Yatta! Tell me, I want to hear it," said Naruto moved closer into Minato's side. Minato just laughed slightly.

"Okay. The title is A Princess, A Prince and A Knight," said Minato while his eyes became glazed over.

"Ah, that is a girl's story," whined Naruto. Minato just laughed but continued his story.

"Once upon a time, there was a beautiful princess who lived in peaceful palace. And she had a knight who was always at her side. His job was to protect the princess. They were always together so, the princess had fallen in love with the knight," Minato said, stopping for breathe.

"Then they married and happily ever after right?" Naruto guessed cockily. Minato just laughed again then shook his head.

"But, the knight rejected the princess love. Actually, he also loved the princess so much. But, he was only a knight, he didn't deserve to love a princess," said Minato again, his eyes were sad but he covered it with smile.

"What is 'deserve'?" Naruto asked.

"It means to be worthy of something," Minato explained it.

"Then, with a broken heart, the princess ran away to the jungle. A wild bear almost attacked her there. But, she was saved by a young and handsome prince from another nation," said Minato again. Even for the little Naruto, he could see his father's sad eyes. It looked like he would cry soon. But, he didn't understand why his father wanted to cry. It was just a story.

"The princess fell in love with the prince. And of course, the prince loved the princess too. Then, they were married and lived happily ever after," Minato ended his story. Naruto was rubbing his eyes slightly, hinting that he was sleepy.

"Okay, that's the end. Now, let's sleep," Minato said, pulled up a blanket to cover their bodies.

"Oto-chan, how about the knight? Is he happy?" asked Naruto sleepy.
Minato was staring at him for a few moments before answering.

"Yes, he was….happy," he said.

End of Flash Back

Naruto smiled sadly. His father's story was forever imprinted on his mind, the next day his father had die because of a car accident. When he was smart enough, he was aware that the fairy tale was a story about his father, his mother and the unknown man. The man that had taken his mother away, he was the prince and his father was the knight.

He didn't understand why, why his father was the knight? But now, he understood it fully.
Because, he didn't feel deserve for his mother. It was just like his love for Gaara. The more Naruto loved Gaara, the more he felt that he didn't deserve for him.

He was too precious. He did what he could do to protect him before a prince took him away,
and now, he was gone. Gaara had found his prince. And, Naruto as the knight could only pray for his happiness.

"Oto-chan, how about the knight? Is he happy?"

"No, he wasn't happy. But, he didn't have any other choice, did he, Oto-san?" said Naruto sadly before more tears appeared.

Naruto took a piece of paper from his nightstand. Now, he should continue these lyrics. His song for Gaara. The first and the last song for him.

IoI

Gaara was enjoying the festival. Sasuke held his hand throughout the festival, he didn't mind though. He was now at the school festival in the Sasuke's High School. Oto High School. There were so many stands on the field of school and the class.

There was a food court, café, haunted house, and other interesting stands. Gaara was enjoying the festival whilst wondering about the memory when he was suffering in school.

That was until Naruto saved him. He shook his head. No, he had to forget him now. He had Sasuke now and he was better than Naruto in various ways. But the blonde was still remaining inside of his heart.

"What's wrong Gaara?" Sasuke asked, rubbing Gaara's cheek softly. Gaara blushed then shook his head.

"No it was nothing," Gaara answered then continue to eat his takoyaki. Sasuke smiled, he knew that his boyfriend was thinking about Naruto. It had been 3 months since they had broken up and yet, it seemed so hard to erase Naruto from Gaara's heart.

"What do you want to see next? How about we go to the gym buildings? It looks there will be some band performances and drama," Sasuke said while looking into the pamphlet.

"It looks interesting, let's go then," Gaara said, finished eating the takoyaki then threw the rubbish into the bin.

Then, they were walking into the gym. To be inside of high school brought back some bad memories for Gaara, but he liked the festival.

They arrived in the gym building. The inside was kinda dark because all the windows were covered and the only light was from the stage. Sasuke lead Gaara into the empty chair then watched the drama which was played by a student from this high school.
There were plenty of other performance just liked magic, another drama or dancing. It was all interesting.

"Okay, now, the next performance is from a special guest. Hidden Leaf band!" said the MC.
Gaara tensed. No, that couldn't be….

Hidden Leaf band was Naruto's band name. It meant Konoha which referred to his high school.

Sasuke who noticed it, gripped Gaara's hand.

"Do you want to leave?" Sasuke asked. Gaara had avoided Naruto for whole 3 months, they never met again after that day, the day where Naruto broke up with him. But, before Sasuke pulled Gaara up, a member of band had started to enter the stage. Hidden Leaf was kinda popular amongst teenagers because they released their Indies album mostly for students.
Gaara's eyes were stuck on one person. That blonde hair, the blue sky eyes and sun kissed skin. He had never changed. Sasuke who noticed it was too late to take Gaara out, just sat back into his chair.

"Yo, minna! Let's introduce ourselves first. You can't love us if you don't know about us, right?" asked Naruto with a cheerful voice. The audience was laughing together with him. Gaara closed his eyes, he really missed that voice.

"Okay. I'm Uzumaki Naruto the vocalist and guitarist. Ah here is Inuzuka Kiba; he is also vocalist and bassist. Then next, oh look at this gorgeous long haired man on the keyboard, he is Hyuuga Neji! And the last, the drummer is Nara Shikamaru!" Naruto finished introducing his band.

"Now, we will sing 2 songs, of course we aren't here to joke around," Naruto smiled then Kiba hit him, making the audience laugh hard. Gaara smiled, Naruto was always cheerful. But, even though he couldn't see it clearly, Naruto's eyes were….kind of empty. They weren't as bright like they were in the past. What was wrong with him?

"Okay, the first song was Joy To The World!" Naruto said before he started to play the guitar. Gaara noticed it was the song that they hadn't finished when they had broken up.

This song was cheerful and had fast rhythm just like Naruto's other songs. But, Gaara enjoyed it. He also moved his body slightly following the music. But, Naruto's singing was a bit weird, it didn't have the power like he used to.

But, Hidden Leaf was a success, it made the atmosphere happy. It looked like the audience enjoyed their performance.

When the song was finished, all the audience was applauding them, including Gaara andSasuke.
Naruto was sweaty but looked so happy. "Okay, that was our first new song, Joy To The World, and the next is our second song. Uhm…there is a story behind this song," Naruto said. He gripped the mic tightly.

"Back then, I had someone who was important to me," Naruto started to talk. All the audience were watching him with curious eyes.
"He wanted me to uhm…make it slower and easier to listen to," Naruto said again then grinned. Gaara was stunned. It was him, he was the one who Naruto talking about.

"So, I made this song for you," Naruto said, Gaara caught the sadness in his blue eyes. The blonde took a deep breath.

"The title is Zanzou," he said before he started to play his guitar. From the start, when Naruto started to played his guitar, the beat was slow and soft, it reminded Gaara about Naruto's song when he played on their first meeting.

Then, Naruto was started to sing.

Kaze ni fukare nabiku kami yawarakana hizashi ano hi to onaji keshiki
Subete wa kokoro shidai da yo to waratteta kimi dake keshite

(The English Translation: Your hair flowing in the wind, the gentle rays of the sun, the same scenery of that day, just without you who smiled and said, "You control your own destiny.")

Kono mi wo kezuttemo omoeru hito sae mo itsuka wa aenaku naru sore ga jinsei mo
Warikireru mono nado omoi de no naka no doko ni mo kaitenai yo

(The great heartache that I will go through, someday not being able to see the one I love; and that's life. Anything satisfying is nowhere to be found within my memories.)

Aishiteru kurushikute nakitakute nijyuuyon jikan
Ima mada kesenai kimi ga kienai kono mune ni
Afuredase omoi wa mou ao sora ni nomikomarete
Todoku koto mo naku ima wa nai hoshi no you ni samayou hikari

(I love you; I'm in so much pain; I want to cry all day and night.
Even now, I can't forget you; you won't disappear from my heart.
My overflowing emotions are being engulfed by the heavens.
No longer reachable, they are now like wandering rays of light without a star.)

Hontou ni taisetsu na mono wo ushinatta toki ni hito wa
Mou ikirenai to kanjiru kedo
Sore demo yappari taisetsu na mono no nai hibi wo hito wa ikirenain dayo

(After losing something that is really important, people will feel like they can no longer live. But after all, people can't go on living without that important thing in their lives.)

Bokura wa dareka wo aisuru koto de tashikameteru
Koto ga sakenderu koko ni iru to sakenderu

(By loving another person we are assuring ourselves, and the beating of our hearts scream out; they scream out that we are alive.)

Aishiteru aishiteru aishi sugita
Ano kisetsu wo kono mune kogasu oto
Ude no naka de kitte ita
Afuredasu omoi wa mou ao sora ni nomikomarete todoku koto mo naku
Ima wa nai hoshi no you ni
Samayou hikari

(I loved, I loved, I loved those times we spent together too much.
The sound that burns my heart, I have been listening to from within our embrace.
My overflowing emotions are being engulfed by the heavens.
No longer reachable, they are now like wandering rays of light without a star.)

As the music stopped and Naruto stopped singing, the applause exploded from within the building. Some of girls from audience were crying and the other was amazed. The song wasn't that cliché, the music was also fit for boys but it was rare that there was a boy band that made this kind of song. Usually, heart breaking songs were only made for girls.

Sasuke was also stunned, that was amazing. Naruto's expression was sad throughout the song. Because he was singing it from heart.

Sasuke turned to see Gaara and he was surprised to see Gaara who just staring into Naruto's direction with tears flowing down his cheeks.

The lyrics were stabbing Gaara's heart deeply. It was just like Naruto was explaining how he had been feeling for these 3 months. Even thought, he was in pain and bad shapes, he still made this song and he proofed that he was alive.

Gaara covered his mouth. Why, why he couldn't see it before? How Naruto loved him in his own way. Why, if he was so much in pain, why did he let him go?

Gaara wiped away his tears then stood up before Sasuke caught his hand. Sasuke stared at him with sad face. It looked like "don't go" but without words. But, Gaara shook his head. No, he couldn't lie to his heart anymore. Even though Sasuke was better than Naruto, the one he loved was Naruto not Sasuke.

Sasuke who understand it without words, slowly loosened his grip then let Gaara ran back stage. He just sighed then he walked toward the exit. He had just got dumped.

Gaara was entered the back stage, some students tried to stopping him but he pushed them roughly, ignoring them. He found Shikamaru, Kiba, and Neji were taking their music instruments away. Gaara looked at them but he didn't see Naruto anywhere.

"He has gone, I don't know where. I think you should know better than us," Shikamaru said bluntly.

With that, Gaara turned towards exit and ran as fast as possible. He started to run through the school but he couldn't find Naruto. Maybe, he had gone into another place. Gaara started to run into the streets in the city. He didn't know where, where was Naruto? He wanted to ask him once again. He wanted to embrace him. He wanted him so badly.

He couldn't find the blonde and it had begun to rain. Then, it hit him. Their first meeting place. Gaara ran again, he didn't care that he was wet, tired and out breath. He continued to run.

Then, he entered the park where they had their first meet. He ran again into the corner of the park and found a large tree that Naruto had fallen from. It had become big. But, Naruto…
Gaara was walking up to the tree then started to walk round in a circle around the tree. He found him, he had his eyes closed and was leant against the tree with his slightly wet clothes.

"Do you know? That kind of song kinda suits me, doesn't it?" he talked suddenly, surprising Gaara, just like their first meet. Naruto slowly opened his eyes. They were blue but hollow, empty and sad.

"But, it is for you, do you like it?" he asked with sad eyes. Gaara couldn't speak so he only nodded. Naruto smiled, kinda sad but looked satisfied

There was silence between them before finally Gaara started to break.

"Why, why you let me go if you are in pain, Naruto?" asked Gaara, almost shouting. Naruto turned to see the rain. He sighed.

"Because I'm not the best man. I'm…stupid, am I not? I always feel like I don't deserve you, I always think that someday you will leave me alone," Naruto said then turned to see Gaara.
Gaara was stunned, his tears were falling again, he couldn't stop it.

"I can't make you happy. I'm just…yeah, good for nothing," Naruto said again, smiled unhappily.

"I always want to say it, but I can't," Naruto scratched his back, trying to laugh but failed.
Gaara looked at him with watery eyes. The rain was getting hard, both of them were entirely wet.

"I hope you will be happy with Sasuke," Naruto said, that was when without he noticed, his tears fell from his eyes. Gaara was stunned to hear it. Why was he doing this? Why, he always wanted to make Gaara happy but he was hurting himself why?

Naruto turned and started to walk away, if he stay beside the redhead any longer, he wouldn't be able to stop himself from embracing, kissing and touching him. He had to leave. He had to…

What Naruto was tackled onto the wet grass, his face hit the muddy and wet grass. Then, he turned to see him, Gaara who tackled him from back.

"Gaara…why you….," Naruto couldn't finish his words as Gaara kissed him.
It was just a chaste kiss, he backed away immediately. But, it made Naruto cry even more.

"Why…why did you think like that? Good for nothing you said? You are my life saver Naruto, you are my love, you are everything to me, and I don't care if you are good for nothing or what, and I love you!" Gaara screamed, under the rain. Naruto was stunned, he was speechless.

"I-I was just curious with how your feelings were for me….then Sasuke, dammit, if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have even accepted his feelings! Why couldn't you understand?" Gaara shouted again, his tears fell quicker. Naruto bit his lip then clenched his eyes shut.

No, he couldn't….he couldn't help himself longer….no.

Naruto pulled Gaara closer and kissed his lips. It was a wet kiss under the rain and their salty tears, but when Naruto pulled back Gaara hugged him tightly.

"Don't let me go, I don't want to go, I just want to be at your side, Naruto," he said huskily.

"I know…I can't…I can't let you go anymore….I love you too much Gaara, I love you too much," he said then kissed Gaara's soft lip again. They were ignoring the rest of world, the only thing they cared about was each other.

"But Sasuke…," said Naruto when they broke their kiss. Gaara put one his finger on Naruto's lips then shook his head.

"He is only my friend," he said. Naruto nodded then smiled happily. He embraced Gaara tightly, he couldn't let h go anymore. Not anymore.

"I think my next song's title is Under The Rain," Naruto joked then Gaara hit his shoulders softly before they laughed together. Naruto pulled Gaara's face into his then kissed him deeply again.

Under The Rain, I got you back.

The End

Okay, that is my fic. If you want the sequel then please tell me.

Matta ne, happy NaruGaa fanday