Chapter two from Sousuke's POV! I hope you'll like it!

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It was his fault, his fault, his fault. His mind kept on chanting it, over and over again, lest he forget. And he couldn't forget, could not forget, ever. It was his fault. All of it.

And he hadn't even moved to stop Makoto, assure him it was wrong what Sousuke had done. Hadn't convinced the Alpha to stay. But he had been so scared. Scared of what Makoto might do. That look on his face was still so clear in Sousuke's mind, burning into his brain every time he closed his eyes. That rage, murderous rage directed purely at Sousuke. And Makoto should've just lashed out, get that anger out. Sousuke would've endured, because he had deserved it. Had deserved all of it. It was all his fault.

A hand slipped over his shoulder, but he barely registered it. They had tried to comfort him, convince him he hadn't done anything wrong. That it was all just a mistake and that it would be alright. But he had seen the worried looks, had seen how they moved aside whenever he came close. They did blame him, he was sure. And it was their good right. Sousuke would do the very same if he were them. And then a thought passed by, a new one. One he had promised never to think again, to the Alpha he had chased out the door.

He should just leave and never return.

"Sou…" It took a while before Sousuke actually realised someone was trying to get his attention. Slowly he turned his head and looked right into a pair of ruby eyes. They were kind and reassuring, but it didn't make Sousuke feel better. "Sousuke, you really need to snap out of it," Rin murmured, a hand sliding through Sousuke's hair. "This is not going to get Makoto home, and you do want him to come home, right?"

Again Sousuke thought he should just leave, and then Makoto would come home. All Sousuke needed to do was leave and never come back. But he quickly pushed that aside. Makoto would be angry if he ever knew Sousuke had returned to thinking like this, and he didn't want Makoto to be angry, or angrier than he already was. So he focused on Rin. Rin who had been so supportive all day long, trying to lift their spirits. Trying to help them out and find Makoto. His best friend with his fragile heart was the one who took care of them, showing that he could carry them all too. And it was good he stepped up, because neither Haru nor Sousuke could. Haru had been as out of it as Sousuke was, his heat having disappeared the second Makoto had come home. How could this have happened?

Ruby eyes narrowed at him, a hand waving back and forth in front of his face. Sousuke really tried to pay attention and respond, because… he needed to. But instead he was acting like a kicked puppy, afraid he could never do good again. He was helpless, felt helpless. "I'm sorry," he whispered, making Rin sigh in defeat.

"I know you are, but we need to do something," Rin said, distancing himself slightly from Sousuke again. Frustration was visible in his stance as he tugged at his hair, eyes closed as he tried to search for the right words to say. "I don't know where Makoto is, and I need help to find him. So one of you need to get their brain in order again and help me out, for fuck's sake!"

This did finally peek Sousuke's interest, his mind catching up to the problem at hand. "But I thought you called his parents?" he questioned, straightening his back, appearing taller again.

"I did!" Rin called out frustrated, rubbing his temples to keep his cool. "But he's not there, Sousuke. He's not there… And then I called his work, because maybe he had spent the night there, but no, they had not seen him either. So I started thinking who else does Makoto know? Who else is there in his life he cares enough about to actually go there in a situation like this?" Eyes wide he turned to face Sousuke once more, tears welling up in them, his strength finally crumbling right in front of his Beta. "And I realised that I don't know. I have no idea who else he hangs out with, because apparently my selfishness prevents me from thinking that Makoto could actually have other people in his life. So Makoto is now somewhere with someone I don't even know, and I am the shittiest boyfriend there is!"

Grabbing Rin by the chin Sousuke kept their gazes locked, a stern look on his face. "I think there are two other boyfriends who are currently shittier than you are, so shut your mouth," he said lowly, releasing Rin's chin when he finished. "And we do know everyone who's in Makoto's life, so you didn't miss anyone."

"You do know what that means, do you?" Rin gritted out, emotions rising higher now he finally had someone to talk to. None of them had spoken a word ever since the incident. They had gone to bed and had slept, or at least had tried to sleep, but the void in their bed was too apparent. Then they had started their day, or had tried to, because none of them could focus without Makoto being there. Rin had at least done some stuff to get things going, to get Makoto home. He just hadn't succeeded, yet. "It means he has been out there in cold all night long, barefoot. Without a jacket. He'd freeze to death and I really don't want to think about finding Makoto lying somewhere against a tree, frozen solid. I rather think of myself as the shitty boyfriend that missed an important person in Makoto's life."

He needed to be responsible now, in control, leading his lovers into the right direction. Sousuke was the Beta, and should be able to carry the burden. They had told him so in high school. The Beta was the next in line to lead the pack. So he should, but somehow the words wouldn't leave his lips. Rin needed to be comforted now, reassured now, as the Omega had done a few minutes prior, but Sousuke was having a hard time to reciprocate.

"We don't know where he is, Sousuke," Rin sobbed, biting his lip to keep the tears from spilling.

"Makoto is missing?"

Haru had just entered the room, finally having left the bath he had drawn in the morning. The water had been cold for hours already, but the Omega had refused to leave, trying to wash his sorrows away. And right as he had found the strength to get out, he walked in on their conversation. Guilt stricken Rin gazed at him, biting his lip harder, because he could not respond now. It would break him further.

It was up to Sousuke, he knew. He could do this, could be strong, had to be strong. But his heart was pulled from left to right, emotions trying to captivate him. Emotions had never been Sousuke's strongest point, something he had often suppressed, ridding himself of any unnecessary feeling he may have. He felt like they were a weakness, but actually having them now was his weakness, because he couldn't handle them. He shut down. The anger towards himself, the pain he felt for losing Makoto like that, the hurt he saw in his Omegas' eyes. It didn't make it easier for him now, but he really needed to push passed it now.

"We don't know where he is right now, but we'll find him, and get him home," he answered Haru, though he didn't believe he would be the one to bring Makoto back. One of the Omegas would. They were better at it, could sweep the Alpha off his feet and lure him in with such ease. Sousuke had never been able to do that, which was hard sometimes, because Makoto could do that to him. The Alpha could shoot Sousuke a smile and he would all but melt in Makoto's large hands. But what did Sousuke bring to the table?

With light feet Haru shuffled towards the couch, joining the other two on the sofa cushions. Instead of choosing the floor to sit, like he usually did, he now wriggled himself between them. They were all shoulder to shoulder, body's touching completely at the sides. "We need to find him," Haru whispered, azure eyes shimmering in the afternoon light.

Only one thought struck him that could work. His brain was still clattered, but this may be the solution they needed. Maybe it could be that easy. "Have you called his cell?"

Over Haru's shoulder Rin stared at Sousuke, really stared, this intense look in his eyes. A frown had settled deep onto his forehead, eyes glinting. And then suddenly he looked happy, a fake happy. One that seemed quite dangerous. "Oh, his cell. Of course, why don't we call his freaking cell phone?! Why didn't I think of that shit before? I am so dumb." The sarcasm was as clear as day, stabbing Sousuke right in his chest, making the guilt a little worse, because it had been a dumb thing to ask. His cell phone would be the first thing Rin had tried to call. "Of course I can call his cell phone and then have it ring away in his backpack by the door, because for some reason Makoto didn't think of taking it with him. For some reason Makoto didn't figure he may need it, like shoes or a coat. How weird of him!"

A hard push against his shoulder made Rin shut up. Haru was glaring angrily at him, hand still raised to give him another push if it was needed. He didn't say a word to explain why he had done it, but they all understood why. Sousuke was only trying to help, and responding in the prick way Rin had done was not helping them.

"We can also call the cops," Haru then muttered softly, hand lowering when he noticed Rin was not going to continue his insensitive rant.

It seemed like a logical next step. Calling the police and asking them for help. In an ideal world they would instantly start up a search party and find Makoto within the hour. Or they would go through a complicated scenario of things where they learn Makoto was kidnapped, and they needed to rescue him from some kind of lunatic. But they didn't live in a crime show, and really Sousuke didn't want to. The thought of Makoto getting harmed was frightening enough. But even if they called the police now for help, they wouldn't give them any. Makoto wasn't even missing 24 hours yet, and considering he wasn't a child, the police usually waited until 48 hours had passed to really take it seriously. So it wouldn't make a difference now.

But something needed to be done. Sitting around like this wasn't going to help them and the two Omegas were growing more restless by the second. Haru was fidgeting with the hem of his shirt, rubbing it with his thumbs until the tips burned. Beside him Rin was chewing on his cheek, sharp teeth gnawing on the inside of his mouth. He must be tasting blood by now, but he didn't seem to mind or simply didn't notice. All were silent, not even responding to Haru's idea, because they all already knew it didn't matter.

"I'm going to call Makoto's parents again and see if maybe he has reached them by now. I called them last this morning," Rin offered and got up from the couch, moving towards their shared home phone. Getting it had been such a strange occurrence. All of them owned a mobile, so didn't necessarily need a shared home phone. It meant they needed to pay extra to even have the phone number, and Sousuke was certain they wouldn't use it. Why would they?

But Makoto had insisted, saying it would create some kind of bond. That it would bring them closer. Sousuke had never said it, but still thought it wouldn't matter at all. Until the phone had rang and Sousuke had been the only one home. He had picked up the phone and there on the other side of the line was Makoto's mother, and it was the first time he had spoken to her without anyone else around. It was one of the nicest conversations he ever had with her, and after that Makoto's mother always greeted him so friendly, it really made him feel part of the family. Sousuke had been the one to fit in the least, having known the rest the least, but that was the thing that had made the difference. And he was so thankful that Makoto had pushed in that stupid home phone.

The call ended quickly, Rin joining them back on the couch with a defeated look on his face. "They still haven't seen him and I think I got them worried now too. But they are going to call some other family members he may have gone to. Not that I believe he would go there before going to his mother's house. He would prefer having the twins around."

Pursing his lips Sousuke tried to think along, tried to put himself in Makoto's shoes and figure out where their lover had run off to. But Makoto was not one to just walk away. Makoto was one to stay and solve things right at the source, so this was behaviour that didn't fit how the Alpha normally acted. How could Sousuke then know where to look?

"And you called Rei and Nagisa too, right?" Of course it was another stupid question, the same with the cell phone thing, but he had to be certain. They only had a few options here.

This time Rin was kinder. "Yeah, I called them this morning too, but they hadn't seen him either."

Silence settled between them again, minds reeling as they tried to come up with a plan. Haru had gone completely quiet, pulling his legs up against his chest, face buried in his knees. He was completely turning in on himself, shutting the others out. The Omega felt guilty, like Sousuke did, blaming himself for what had happened. If Haru hadn't seduced Sousuke, none of this would've happened. Those were Haru's thoughts now. And Sousuke thought if he hadn't given into Haru's moves, then this wouldn't have happened. It didn't get them anywhere now though.

It was time for some action. Sousuke had pitied himself long enough, hiding away in the safety of his home, lingering in the care of his other lovers. He needed to be there for Makoto now, and there was only one way to do that.

Rising up from the couch he stretched his arms out above his head, readying his body for the next step. Shooting a look down at the two Omegas he put on a stern face, trying to mimic the way Makoto sometimes looked at them. "Get up, we're going to look for Makoto," he ordered, and for the first time both Omegas actually listened, grasping onto Sousuke's leader skills instantly. "Rin, go to the park and see if he's hiding somewhere there. Haru, you walk in the direction of the gym and see if you spot Makoto there. I will move towards the city centre and look there. If you find something, call. If you don't find anything after three hours, return here and we'll regroup, come up with a new plan."

And as everyone moved out, following Sousuke's orders, the Beta hoped dearly that this was going to work. Makoto just needed to come home.

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And where is Makoto? The next chapter will hopefully be quite the surprise as to where Makoto went, so stay tuned!

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