A/N Hey! Wow I'm actually very proud of myself xD. I wrote more then I expected in the last chapter...But I think I messed the times up...
I tried to spread happines before everything goes down, so enjoy Shiros birthday! Yay!
Disclaimer: I don't own the rights to Voltron or "Control". They belong to DreamWorks and Halsey. (Are you happy now?)
And I sat alone, in bed till the morning
I'm crying "they're coming for me"
And I tried to hold these secrets inside me
My mind's like a deadly disease
Metal struck against metal. You could hear the panting and the shuffled footsteps. The team was currently fighting on the training deck and Shiro watched over them from the control room. Coran sat next to him, his arms crossed behind his head and his legs on a tabel. The team was really good and fought currently with a level 5 bot.
Keith hit it with his sword, which tore the metal apart and revealed many glowing wires. While he distracted the fighting bot, Pidge ram her Bayard into the back of the bot. "Let's make this a little more interesting", Coran grinned and tapped something on the blue screen in front of him. Suddenly a door opened and two more bots ran into the training deck. Lance smiled down to the bots. As a sharpshooter he positioned himself above the others on a small edge and aimed at the bots, which resulted in one of them loosing its head.
Hunk didn't participate in the training because he found some strange fruits on their last mission and wanted to test if they were edible, so Pidge and Keith had to fight mostly on their own because Lance couldn't shoot at the bots when they stood in the way. After several minutes many bot parts were lying on the ground and the three of them sat exhausted on the ground. A door opened and a smiling Shiro entered the room. "You were really good, ", he said and joined them on the ground "next time we'll upgrade to level 6 bots!"
Lance, Pidge and Keith groaned. "Level 5 is hard enough Shiro!", complained Lance after he stood up and removed his helmet. "Well next time Hunk and I will be joining you, so don't worry", Shiro chuckled.
"Hey, is anyone hungry?", Hunk burst into the room and grinned . He wore an apron and held a plate with delicious looking food in his hands. The Paladins cheered and quickly ran over to Hunk, who led them to the kitchen. Everyone enjoyed the meal and even Coran had to admit that Hunks food tastes better than the green Space Goo.
Shiro looked nervously around the room and stared at everyones shadow. His nightmares always followed him to the real world and Shiro could've sworn that some weird shadow followed him everywhere. But at that moment he was nowhere to be seen, so Shiro relaxed slightly.
As always, he took part in the Paladins conversations and laughed at Lance, as he fell of his chair because Pidge punched him. "Why would you do that to me?", he cried dramatically and held his shoulder. Pidge grimaced at him and continued to eat.
After everyone ate they went to the so called 'living room' to watch a movie and to teach Coran and Allura more about earth culture. A week ago Pidge and Hunk tinkered with some space items and created a small television. It wasn't perfect, but it was definitely better than Lance, going on everyones nerves because he was bored.
Shiro was very happy how everything was going. But as soon as the movie ended his fears started to rise up again. Everyone went to their rooms to sleep but Shiro didn't want to sleep. His nightmares would only taunt him.
He sighted. "I can't do this forever", he rested his head in his palms and rubbed his forehead. Only a small blue light illuminated his room and Shiro could barely see his own hands.
Suddenly he registered a movement in the corner of his eyes and he jolted upright. "Not this again", he sighted and looked around his room. His heart raced as he saw what jolted him in the first place: a dark shadow stood in front of Shiro and revealed a toothy grin.
Shiro got goosebumps and activated his Galra arm. But as soon as the violet light illuminated the room, the dark figure vanished. Shiro sighted again and lay down in his bed. This faceless figure haunted him since his first nightmare and he couldn't get rid of it. He even tried to stay awake for days but that only resulted in a mission gone wrong and the more frequently appearing of the shadow.
The memories of these nights burned inside his head and Shiro remembered how he sat in his bed, clutching his head and rocking back and forth. All these voices were whispering inside his mind and he couldn't concentrade on his own thoughts.
Because of that he forced himself to lay down in his bed and sleep every goddamn night. He had to be fully awake in missions and couldn't affort loosing focus because he was too weary. So Shiro had to endure his nightmares, no matter how terrible they were.
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As always Shiro awoke in cold sweat, panting and trying to identify what was real and what was only a dream. The nightmare was the same from last night: his team dying because of him. No, not because of him...because of Haggar. Shiro shook his head, shoved the blanket aside, got dressed and walked to the living room, where he could already hear the team talking.
Shiro put on a fake smile and entered the room, as everybody turned to him and shouted in unison "Happy Birthday!". Shiro was stunned because he totally forgot his birthday, whereas his team decorated the living room with colorful garlents. Lance, who wore a party hat himself, hopped towards Shiro and attached a party hat on his head.
"Thank you guys!", Shiro hugged Lance because he was the nearest but soon the others followed his action. "I even made a cake and Coran found things that resemble candles", Hunk was the first one to let go. He smiled from one ear to the other and his eyes gleamed like it was his own birthday.
Shiro was very grateful but he was too tired to really enjoy his birthday. While Hunk gave everyone a pice of the cake, Shiro sat at the desk with his head in his hands. He could feel how someone sat down beside him and looked up. "Is everyrhing alright?", Keith looked worriedly at him and took a bite of his cake.
"Yeah I...I'm just tired", Shiro said and padded Keiths back reassuring. Keith seemed to believe him and turned to Pidge, who argued with Lance about the cake frosting. Just as Shiro began to relax, a shadow emerged behind Hunk, who still stood at the counter. Shiro took in a sharp breath and stood up so fast, that his chair fell over.
Everyone flinched and looked surprised to Shiro, who panted and looked into nothingness. "Shiro? What's going on?", asked Allura. But Shiro didn't answer, so she walked to him and touched his shoulder.
He fliched and looked at Allura but his eyes didn't focus on her. Allura shook him, which seemed to bring Shiro back to reality. "Shiro?", Hunk stood behind Allura and eyed him worriedly. "Oh I'm sorry that I startled you all", Shiro looked around and shifted uncomfortably.
"What happened?", Allura sat down again, but this time in the empty chair next to Shiro. He took his chair, set it up again and sat down. "It's nothing...really", he tried to reassure them, that everything was right but failed miserably. "You know that we're not going to buy that", deadpanned Lance.
Shiro sighted and rubbed his forehead. "I don't want to talk about it okay? Let's just forget that that ever happened", he grapped his fork and started to eat his cake. He was aware, that everyone exchanged looks but he didn't care.
Lance just shrugged and everyone continued whatever they were doing. They acted like they didn't care about what happened but everyone silently agreed, that they'll talk about it later.
While his team was chatting and laughing, Shiro got lost in his thoughts again. He saw that shadow figure and could swear that the shape looked a lot like him. This thought made a chill ran down his spine. Why does he have all those strange hallucinations and nightmares?
"What the fuck", exclaimed Lance loudly and tears Shiro from his thoughts. He didn't really know what was going on but Pidge looked shooked at Lance. "Language! Shiro is only 7 you shouldn't swear in front of him!", she scolded him.
Hunk, Keith and Lance laughed at that, while the Alteans looked confused. Shiro only sighted and shook his head but as Lance grimaced and started to swore like a sailor, he couldn't hold his laugher anymore.